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Emocentric
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This hurts me so bad i cant breathe Apr 06 2009, 01:52 PM

this all started 4 years ago i started college, doing cooking and catering. And after a year i was drinking heavilly becauae there was no one to talk to. My second year i met some friends who helped me a lot, especially this one girl who helped me stop drinking. I grew to care about her so much i couldnt breathe at night and i felt so shit when she wasnt near me. I wanted to ask her out but she told everyone she didnt want to go out with anyone from college so i left it. Another year later one of my friends(who knew i loved her so much) asked her out and she just said yes like that. I spent nearly 2 years taking care of her when she felt crap and when she dint want to go home i let her sleep at mine, i even took her home when she lived like 10 miles away from me on the bus and now she dunt even fucking talk to me. I didnt do anything to hurt her,im cant hurt girls it makes me sick if i upset a girl, i dont know why she int talking to me its like she never knew m. It hurts so much i dont know what to do. All that i look forward to in life is band practice, college and alcohol. I just feel like i could just kill myself someyimes when i lay awake every fucking night when it seems that everything in my life goes wrong eventually. i just needed to get it off my chest :")

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sheepy21
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Apr 07 2009, 03:15 AM

That sux so much... your friend was really twatish for asking her out! I guess though, a lesson can be learned from this - *Within reason* follow your heart and don't be afraid to tell people how you feel. Just go for it... From a different situation I learnt the hard way and lost someone I cared for - I just have to remember in future to tell people what I am feeling and if they don't like it, then that is fine, I feel happier for telling them!

But, I hope it all gets better soon, maybe try talking to her to get friendship back on track, but I can see how awkward that must be... If u wanna chat PM me, take care x

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xXxChrisJWxXx
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Apr 14 2009, 09:34 AM

I gone through something simular (without the alcohol) but I know kinda how you feel. When your hurt like that but wont fight back it will get worse before it gets better. Life isn't the best but theres always gonna be someone for you to talk to like i'm here if you just want to chat. To get dumped is bad but its worse when its a secret love isnt it?

Theres not a lot you can do and it's gonna hurt like hell but you do need to move on some how, as I don't know you I can't say what that is but you realy need people around you to feel better. Don't concider killing yourself, it may not seem worth it later and you will think it realy stupid but right now dont let anyone tell you your reasons are not worth it or are stupid, they aren't but they will be when the pain goes a bit.

I'm sorry you have been through such a traumatic time realy, it will end even if it takes over a year but it will end. Take care of yourself what ever happens and remember to share your feelings and chat. Im here if you want and so are millions of people you dont know.

Take care.

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