Emo Scene Community

ok in 7th grade i went through a bad breakup and was having issuses at home and with my friends. i felt isolated and hated. it became so bad that i didnt feel human anymore so i secertly started to give myself eraser burns. Well my problems with my friends and ex were fixed and home was getting better and i stopped hurting myself but i still didnt feel right. At first i just felt kinda wistful and sad and then i started to not have any emotions for periods of time. eventually i was without any emotion all day everyday i was like that for almost seven months then one day i got into a fight with my brother and went up stairs to my room and was upset and so i relapsed and gave my self and eraser burn. i did it so deep that it bleed alot. (most of the time they hurt and scab because layers of skin are missing but they dont bleed unless they are really bad) and so i freaked out but i didnt let anyone know i was hurt and bleeding. i stopped it and now today all i have is a big scar. but when i was doing it once i felt the pain i felt human again. i felt real like i was alive and everything was okay. but it wasnt it was worse than ever before. my arms and legs are scarred up so bad be cause after that time i gave my self two or three eraser burns everynight. i wore sweatshirts and pants in ninty degree weath just so i could keep hurting my self. well that went on for about 3 months then my bestfriend found out. at first i thought she was going to yell at me and tell me she hated me but instead she just hugged me and let me cry on her shoulder she told another friend of ours and they helped me stop and im really grateful not only because they saved my life they also helped me without betraying me. so what i want to know is why you do it if you do and if you want help bacause you arent alone i will help you and be your friend YOU ARE NOT ALONE. if anyone has any ideas on how to start a organization on bringing self harm out of the streoetypical world and into the world where people relize that its not for attention its an addiction tell me please im also going to try and start a website where people can tell their story and people from all over the world can help them and give them advice.