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I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find I can't see the things that make true happiness, I must be blind Paranoid, by Black Sabbath

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Emo Pictures - xXkuraiyoruXx
xXkuraiyoruXx
Posts: 164
How much longer...? Jun 29 2011, 07:13 PM
You know lately I have been thinking....How much longer can I last in this god forsaken life of mine...Anyone else? But then I could never kill myself. I'd be a trader to my sister if I did. She would have to stay here already dieing...You see my moms first 3 children were born with Cistic Fibrosis or CF (CF is a lung disease were your body builds up alot of mucus in your lungs. There for there doing alot of percusive lung therapy (I don't want to explain you can look that one up) Well anyway the first one is 27 and still alive but she lives with us :( poor her. The 2nd one died when she was 16 and I was 3 back in 2001 anyways she'd be probably 25. The 3rd is 22 I think and is moving to China in a couple weeks....The other 3 of us were just carriers actually I think that the 4th my sister Lissy isn't a carrier so shes safe (yay for her) You know I'm sorry for rambaling on like that I just get kinda...carried a way when I start to talk about it.....But so that is why I can not kill myself

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Frantiq
Posts: 80
Jun 29 2011, 08:48 PM
Learn to cope. Life is life, and death is death, they are both natural and inevitable, to fear death is also to fear life...
Emo Pictures - xXkuraiyoruXx
xXkuraiyoruXx
Posts: 164
Jul 01 2011, 01:15 AM
Well I don't know how good things are were you live but back when my sister was born in like I think around 1982 the life expectansy was 2 then 5 then 10 then 20 then 40-50 But yep its not fun espesually when you just get to sit in the sidelines trying to hide any sickness you have to not burden anyone anymore then they already are and I'll tell you something that's alot of the time for exaple one day I felt like crap like really really bad and I said nothing to anyone well guess what that night I vomited everywhere....Oh how much fun that was... :( *shiver*
Emo Pictures - xXeMoRaCeRXx
xXeMoRaCeRXx
Posts: 18262
Jul 01 2011, 05:36 PM
I really do feel for you *hugs*
Emo Pictures - JojoCupcakeKillerrxD
JojoCupcakeKillerrxD
Posts: 1222
Jul 02 2011, 01:27 PM
Hey, its ok. We all understand the urge to just do away with it all. But learning to cope is the best thing to do. Be glad that you have a good reason not to; a reason to keep on going. You have to find the strength to keep going; and sometimes thats difficult. But you can do it for your sister. If you ever need to talk, talk to any of us on this site. We're all more than willing to be of help:)
Emo Pictures - xXkuraiyoruXx
xXkuraiyoruXx
Posts: 164
Jul 05 2011, 08:21 PM
ya but guess what I found out everything I ever told her and told her to keep secret she told my mom.....so now I can't tell her anything and my mom thinks I'm feaking mentally insane...and then she wont get me any mental help because she doesn't want her reputation ruined....
Nick_Otmazgin
Posts: 57
Jul 09 2011, 12:06 AM
Life , Earth , Planet , is Also Dealing With us , human beings.

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