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Holaa^-^ I'm kinda new/old or whatever you wanna call it. Let me explain: I joined long ago but I left. So I thought starting fresh. Leave all the depression, frustration, tears, pain & loneliness behind. Tho my past has crept up on me. All that has rushed back to me only just the other day. The day my sister called. You see my sister, Jo, I haven't seen her for 4 years & she hasn't had contact with anyone but my other sister's dad. But he died earlier this week. So my sister got in touch. You see, my sister has 2 young children, one is 3 years of age & the other one only a baby. But this physco took her away from us like the witch in Rapunzel. Anyways, when she called. I couldn't believe it, I was overjoyed. But things started to turn bad, my sister's started fighting over the phone. I just stood there, in the doorway, my eyes stinging as the tears flooded. They rolled down cheek splashing on my shoulder. Then my sister suggested I talk to her but Jo said that she didn't want to & hung up. I was devastated. My heart broke into two & I knew that it would never be repaired. "My sister hates me, she doesn't love me." I kept whispering under my breath over & over again. All the memories we had. Me climbing into her bed & night and her cuddling me, made me feel safe. When I fell down the stairs, her taking me into her arms & comforting me. The game we played, go to Woolworth's and see how much we could buy for 10 pound. Getting back home & stuffing our faces with Willy Wonker's chocolate. We were so close. She was the only family member I had loved with all my heart & now...it's like a huge hole is in my chest & it's growing bigger. It hurts...]; So, I've joined soemo, in search of some friends or people who at least care about me. My step-dad is mean to me, he doesn't hurt me physically but mentally he's killing me. He's just mean. I'm just so lost...