Emo Scene Community

The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just have to pick who is really worth the pain. At least thats what everyone says...what if the one who is worth the pain you dont want to pick...what if you love him so much you believe he would never hurt you..so you try to hide that fact that he ever did. You try to remember all the good things but then relize theres more bad then good...like him saying you were the only one..when really you we're laying in his bed with him and his "friend"(really his girlfriend who i had no idea about)watching a moiveand you thought you were the only one holding his hand. No matter how hard i try to forget him or push him away he always is in the back of my mind carving his name into my brain. I finially told him that i LOVE him..he smiled and held me replying with "I know you do"...not what i wanted to hear but when he was holding me i made myself hear "I love you too"...what do i do.. I remember how he beged me not to tell him girlfriend about me like i was a dirty little sercret..which is how i felt..DIRTY. Knowing that i kissed a boy with a girlfriend and didnt even know about it..i never did tell her. Now im the one standing on the sidelines while i see him and his "Girlfriend" hold hands,cuddle, and kiss. I want him to be mine..but if that ever would happened how would i ever know if he would do the same thing over again..but me being on the other side on the fence. I dont want anyone to go through that..i love him..and i can't even say that i love'd him because you can never stop loving someone know matter how hard you try..but because i love him i know i should just let him go.