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xXxChrisJWxXx
Posts: 1546
At the end.. Nov 09 2012, 01:34 PM
Okay so this should probably be in help and advice but here goes.. Back in February 2011 I met up with a friend of a friend an we fell in love, two months later she moved in, a few weeks later I got her into the top college in the area as I was a member of staff there. One year seven months down the line after I buy her lots of gifts, teach her all about intimacy, give her education, food, shelter and support she walks out an sends her sister to collect her stuff without a word to me. I just seen her facebook an she's wearing short dresses and out drinking all the time, I've tried my best but I'm shutting down. I stopped eating when I could again and my BMI is dangerously low, I drink when I'm alone and can afford to until I fall asleep, I've started cutting again and this facebook thing is pushing me further. Ive been looking at the medication in the cubord from when my dad had cancer and a heart condition and I feel like downing all of the left over medication. Before her I was in a relationship with a girl 183 miles away. I went to see her, gave her a ton of gifts, set us up at a B n B and spoilt her rotten. She got pregnant with my child and lost it after I had to return home to study as she "wanted to test me" so this relationship was my chance of recovery. I feel I cant trust anyone but it's killing me not to be in a relationship, to give the world to someone. In the first relationship I mentioned we were married by common law according to the government as I had to claim JSA for a short time and I was planning to propose on her birthday (about 7 days after she literally walked out) and with the second we were engaged, everything was planned and we obviously had a child on the way. I want someone to give everything I can to, by now I planned to at least be married (yes I know I'm young but we all want different things out of life). I don't know what to say or do or even if I should try and carry on. I'm a shy guy and each relationship we heavily suggested we liked each other.. Okay I'm crying thinking about it.. I can't flirt and I can't start relationships easily so I feel I'm going to be alone for life. Is it wrong I want to devote my life to someone and give them everything? My ex left as I got my apprenticeship so I never told her how we were going to travel the world together so am I wrong for wanting that too? And a wedding to dream of with a family? I've spent thousands on two girls I thought I could give the world to and just get love if nothing else back. In total I bought a camera, a few bits of clothing and a laptop for myself out of my entire life savings and earnings. I have no drivers license as I ran out of money learning so I could give the second girl I took away the holiday of her dreams. I lost friends as I wanted to be with my partner every waking moment. I have no confidence left. I just need advice and someone to love.... At least advice :) ..... I can still joke and put a smile on my face as my body is numb and I'm empty inside

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MUSICLOVER
Posts: 101
Nov 10 2012, 01:49 AM
i read ur story and it sucks man:( hug u just dont invent on people too much! and i want to get married too
Emo Pictures - xXxChrisJWxXx
xXxChrisJWxXx
Posts: 1546
Nov 13 2012, 10:47 AM
I started to get help today, I've contacted my employer to ask what they would do if they found out "someone" was depressed and went to their GP for help, I'm hoping nothing so I can try and get back on my medication, just feel defeated after not needing it for so many years...
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xXeMoRaCeRXx
Posts: 18264
Nov 13 2012, 04:12 PM
As I have said before I am here to chat when I can Chris and still be good to hang out sometime.
Emo Pictures - xXxChrisJWxXx
xXxChrisJWxXx
Posts: 1546
Nov 15 2012, 02:43 PM
Thank you Matt

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