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Well, honestly, today in about 2 months and a couple of days will be my birthday :) Along with my crush's birthday.. Well, he's turning 18 while I'm turning 15 sadly...He's gonna be in Georgia... I'm gonna really miss him a whole lot after he graduates and when he goes away from Mississippi :'( Why is it that I fall in love with a senior/my best friend/my crush Mike *but more than a crush) mainly then afterwards I date another guy whom I have also have a crush on THEN the funny thing me and him both are both in a relationship with other people but yet me and him have feelings for each other. Happily,the guy that I have a crush on after my best friend, his name was Justin, he was also my best friend and my crush and we also had feelings for each other BUT we are recently dating now. Also, he's emo and the only emo kid in my school other than me and my friend Jamarrean. He's really swwet and down to earth and he loves rock music just like I do :) He's different than everyone else which is a good thing cause everyone else are friggin stereotypes. The AWKWARD thing about it is that I'm dating Justin but I still have a crush on the same guy I wrote a poem for and I loved for 2 and a half months (his name is Mike).I really don't know whether I can understand why I am placed in situations like this. But the good thing is that he promised to be there whether we are friends or not, which are the exact words that are stuck in my head to this very day and then Christmas is coming up and my best friend Mike is getting me a Christmas present for Christmas and I wanna know what it is but idk what to get my bf from Christmas.. What's a good Christmas present ?