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well...*SIGH*. she dumped me. ): </3. yep. hah. i mean...i'm not completely bummed out or anything..I was for a couple of days but i just kinda...accepted it. August 14th would have been our 1 year anniversary. well..she says she eventually wants to go back out she just needs space. pretty much all i know is 1) 1/2 the reason she dumped me is because she said she has feelings for my ex-friend. who's straight and doesn't even like her as a friend. yep. grr. and 2) she says she's under a lot of pressure over the OAAs (Ohio Achievement Assesments)so..yah. i'm proud of her for caring so much about her grade. but the thing is, we were planning on breaking up on the last day of school because we're only allowed to see each other in school so it would be pretty pointless to still date...I gave her a pretty-ly wrapped yellow tulip with a little diamond heart attached to it on friday, she liked it. i just..wanted to apologize.later that same day she started crying because she got detention for something she didn't do. i tried to help her but she kinda flipped out and the teachers wouldnt let me stay. i know i was never a very good girlfriend. i suck at giving advice and um...just making people feel happy or loved in general. i have a bad habit of pushing people away. that's why i wanted to apologize. i've been taking social therapy and practing and stuff every day for about a month now, and i haven't cut for 17 days (thats a new record! xD). i'm trying really hard to be a better person for her because i still love her and i want to be her girlfriend again. so i guess i was just wondering, am i doing the right thing? my friends keep telling me to forget about her and move on because we've already broken up several times. we always get back together but it's never really..taken this long. she just refuses to go back out with me right now and when i try to talk to her about it she gets mad..i'm not saying it's her fault, it's no ones fault....i dunno. your opinion? thanks in advance ..lessthan3.