Emo Scene Community

Well.. I will be telling you guys my story.. I just want you to see I made it out alive and you can, too! It was 1999, that year when I was born, I'm the only son of a mexican couple (No, I won't mow your lawn and no, I'm not black). My mom went through a lot of meds so I could be born, you know.. I started going to school when I turned 4, they denied me when I was 3 because they were already too forward and such. There I met 2 friends that are still with me, we still talk and we still hangout. Well, my mom was a really addicted gambler, she couldn't spend one day without going to a casino, she had to go there every single day. My dad had big stress because he lost his job, so my mom had to support the house, after she got fired, too.. We never missed anything, I always had food on the table, my grandparents helped us. I was a happy kid and I had a good childhood. Until I went into 4th grade. 4th grade was the worst year for me.. People started to bully me because I was fat (I'm not that fat now, but I'm not skinny, I would be slim/no muscle.) and because my body started changing. I was the first one to grow hair on my armpits and legs and such. My grades started to go down because my parents used to fight a lot, that is when I started hurting myself by hitting my head or slapping myself. 5th grade was the worst, nobody liked me or they never wanted to be around me, I was always hit in the head with footballs, pinched and slapped, kicked.. A living hell.. After 5th grade finished I was already thinking of suicide.. When I started 6th grade I thought everything was going to get better, it didn't.. Just another year of the same shit as 5th grade. Except that I met 2 people, 1 saved my life and the other one faded into darkness, never knew why she doesn't talk to me anymore. I finished 6th grade and had a little party that was supposed to be our prom and shit, I never wanted to go there but my parents made me go. Then I started 7th grade, I became popular and stuff.. Or at least I thought so. Then I feel into depression, I quit sports and I lost my "friends".. I tried self harm again, but now I was cutting, and tried suicide multiple times. But now I'm alive, I'm still emo and I still get depressed, I have eating disorders and I constantly get bullied, but my self harming stopped and I will never try committing suicide again. The point of this was to write everything that I went and I'm going through, and for you to know that suicide or self harm is the only way out. Cheer up guys, I don't want any friends dead..