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Okay so I had really bad 2 relationships in the past, they didnt last long always bcoz of them, not me, and I loved them alot. I really wanted a girl who cares for me alot, and both of the time, I got heart broken, and now its like I dont get those love feelings towards any girl, no feeling whatsoever. I only get sexual attraction but that's obviously just lust and not love. And now that I became totally heartless which I never wanted to be and was only sexually attracted to girls, this girl came in my life who is the best I cud ever get and she loves me to bits, she's extremely caring, she has deep feelings for me, she wants to be with me forever, we talked on texts for a year and then we have only met twice, but yh she came in my life so late when I totally changed and could not love again, even if I try, I'm never able to have love feelings for her, I tell her to move on because I dont ever want to hurt her. I avoid leading her on but we have gone so close because of our meetings. I really dno, I really want to be able to love her. I really want to be able to be with her forever. Has anyone ever been in that situation? I dont wana hurt her. I try my best to have love feelings for her and not just sexual attraction. Because I'm only sexually attracted to her, I dont want to end up hurting her by being with her at the end. btw I have been honest to her about everything. I tell her literally everything about how I feel about her n stuff. We are best friends. She says that I have made her life better by being in it. I dont understand why I'm not being able to have feelings for her, maybe I hant recovered from my past relationships which were very rough and hurtful but its just not working :( I need advice Please!! I really want to be with her forever and love her and not hurt her. Wouldn't her love be enough for both of us? Why am I not being able to love again? Should I give it a chance thinking that I myt fall for her by spending more time with her?