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i understand i'm going through crap myself. I self harm one day my mother caught me while i was having a meltdown and i had to go to the GP because my scar was deep anyway I spent 3 days in a mental hospital and after i got out i had to start counsiling but after a while i stopped from going and now i kind of hate myself that i stopped seeing my therapist.now my parent believe that i stopped the self harm but i didn't. i don't have a good relationship with my family especially with my dad i hate him sometimes. my family doesn't understand and i hate it when they start to ask questions because they can never understand me. my dad is a dick because deep down i know that he regret having me as his child, he more likes my cousin(she's close to my family)and he jokes with her and laugh together and when i see them together i really get angry because he doesn't act that way with me. counsiling is good for me i found it great even though i hated to talk about my problems and somehow when i talk my insides tells me that i'm boring people even now that i'm writing this message i'm thinking that i'm boring people while reading this message.Anyway you are not alone if you want someone to talk to msg me. hope your feeling better.

Hi Broken Princess, hope I can give you a friendly word or two in the midst of all this pain. It sounds to me you must be in an enormous amount of emotional pain if you find the physical pain of cutting preferable because it takes your mind off things. Your relationship with your family is also being severely affected which also must cause you a great deal of distress. Firstly if you can try not to face every problem at once. Gradually dealing with each problem can help unravel the others too. I think that you have shown great courage to at least agree to see a councillor that shows you do WANT to get better even if the temptation is there to miss the appointment, so give yourself some real credit for that. I am also very impressed by your list of interests and hobbies, you re clearly a very creative person and bright too with the grades you were getting. I want you to know that all that creativity is still all inside you, its only the illness that is making you feel incapable of achieving your best! If you possibly can each time you think about cutting or trying to do yourself some harm remind yourself just how creative you are and what a waste it would be not to have you around to do all these wonderful things! You mention your weight too and how glad you are at loosing some. It might be worth just checking that you require losing any more, if you do or you just want to keep fit, taking up a sport may be another great boos to your confidence and help focus all you attention on performing at your best. Hopefully as you recover the relationship with your family will also improve. You mention that you know your family love you even if they don't fully understand what you're going through. So hopefully as they see your progress there will be less tension and with luck you're Dad may become part of your life again. I really hope you can find the strength to attend your counselling sessions and reclaim your creative life! ;) Good luck and if you would like to discuss anything further feel free to message me. ;)

Thanks eyewings that really helps. I do think i need to lose a bit more weight but i normally let myself go hungary. I haven't slept in 4 days and if i do sleep i normally get there by crying. I started writing out messages to my family for When i do die because Thats How sure i am that i cant make it.Some of my family are refusing to accept me being Emo and keep telling me i'm not but most of my family supports me. I normally have so Many bad arguments with my mum over my weight and Ill never be able to stop cutting Where i litterally scream and she has to leave my on my own but cant at the same time in case Ill do something to myself. I used to get A's now i get D's and stuff and i just feel so bad because my sister is 6 and she gets nightmares because of what she Saw me do. I lost my older half Brother to suicide When i was 3 so that gives inspiration that if he could do it i can but Thats not How i used to think. I used to be so positive but not now.i put on a fake smile and fake things funny for my sister to make her less scared and to put my family at ease. But it doesnt Help Im the only emo i know or anyone with my problems.I lost interest in my love of animals and stopped caring for my dogs so my mum does it now. Things i used to love i just cant be bothered with anymore and i scare myself because i dont understand why Im like this. There was nothing i can think of that caused me to this. I just started getting depressed.i scare myself When i look at razors because my first thought is to use it. Luckily razors dont leave marks When i use them so i never have to look back Im just broken. Like unmendable :/

I understand its a bad place your'e in BrokenPricess and it can seem completely hopeless. But there is always hope so long as you keep trying! I think it is perfectly understanable how your mental health has deteriorated iven the awful events you have experieneced with your half-brother taking his life combined with the normal stresses of growing up. But if you can I would like you to take that as an inspiration to live and not to follow his example. I think it would honour his memory if you can take advantage of all the help you can get that unforuneatly couldn't reach him and also give your sister a great role-model too, show her that you can cope however difficult times become. Nothing needs to be inevitable, it is a state of mind and a will to live and you have so many reasons! Depression can creep up on us over many years until it seems unbearable. But take it from me once you get in contact with people who can help it can be a transforming experience. I was very low a couple of years ago and like you didn't eat or hardly slept and really thought I wanted to die, but in truth I just needed a helping hand and you shouldn't be ashamed of asking for it. Sometimes seeking advice from people outside of our immediate family can help more because we feel we can be more open with them and they can show us a new perspective on life. It won't erase all our problems but it does make us feel more able to cope with them on a daily basis. I PROMISE you it is possible! Also with the notes. Instead of writing your feelings in that form of fatal letter how about you try keeping a journal instead? You can still write all you feel your highs and lows but hopefully from a more optomistic mindset, something you can refer to in the process of recovery rather than tradgedy. It may be worth giving it a go! In relation to feeling like the only emo. We can sometimes feel very isolated when we dress or act a bit differently from those around us, but remember that makes you an individual not strange! It is wonderful that someone so talented and unique has dedication to becoming something they feel passionate about and is a brave thing to do! So dont feel alone! Please keep using sites such as these to show you there are people who empathise and share your passions too and will always be there to offer you advice and support even if those around you don't! Finally your weight, From your profile pic you look absolutely gorgeous as you are so you certainly have no "outward" problems with it. But sometimes if we are carrying a little extra weight it can knock our confidence. So if you do loose some more, try to do it slowly. Even if you don't feel like eating heavy meals a snack now and again throughout the day will keep your body going and you won't pile weight on either! I hope all of this helps, but you are of course free to ask anything else, or even just chat through your problems at any time! Best Wishes ;)