About Me

                                                                                       

Howdy~

You still there?

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On August Twenty Seventh in the year of Twenty Fourteen I joined this site on my first account.

I originally joined when I was twelve and incredibly suicidal, I made a typo and discovered this shitty site but me being in my emo phase I joined for site modelling since that was the 'Oh so totally cool' scene kid thing to do at the time.

Long story short: I never had the guts to do the site modelling thing due to fear and anxiety, but maybe I'll do that soon

Update: I became a site model after four years!!!!!!

Latest update: 1/31/23

This account is an archive chronicling the ages of 13 to 21 (with reuploaded images from my previous account that contained images from the ages 11-12). Not much has changed other than the gutting transformation of going fron a pierce the veil warped tour scene kid to a jaded basement show attending diy emo/"midwest" emo/skramz elitist. This account remains up in the aftermath of years of grooming and various sociopolitical pipelines I've fallen down. Terrible things have happened and this remains. I only keep this account for the memories. Not the nostalgia. But because I fear without a visual reminder I will repress all that I have been through. Be kind to your inner child and the edgy site browing tween you once were. Hindsight might be 20/20 but God only knows you needed an adult like the one you've become. If I ever lose my battle to mental illness, this will be here and no one close to me in real life will know. But I will. And that means something for now.

• My name is Carson. Many people on here called me Ava though due to my username.

• DOB: 1/10/02

• My If you would like contact info just DM me.

  
  

• I don't use this account frequently. To be fully honest I primarily use this account to upload photos/selfies to this site out of habit because I've been going it for nearly 8 years now. (As I'm typing this) and it's fun to see how I evolve.

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Cattell's 16 Factor Key

Factor	low score	high score
Warmth	cold, selfish	supportive, comforting
Intellect	instinctive, unstable	cerebral, analytical
Emotional Stability	irritable, moody	level headed, calm
Aggressiveness	modest, docile	controlling, tough
Liveliness	somber, restrained	wild, fun loving
Dutifulness	untraditional, rebellious	conforming, traditional
Social Assertiveness	shy, withdrawn	uninhibited, bold
Sensitivity	coarse, tough	touchy, soft
Paranoia	trusting, easy going	wary, suspicious
Abstractness	practical, regular	strange, imaginative
Introversion	open, friendly	private, quiet
Anxiety	confident, self assured	fearful, self-doubting
Openmindedness	closeminded, set-in-ways	curious, exploratory
Independence	outgoing, social	loner, craves solitude
Perfectionism	disorganized, messy	orderly, thorough
Tension	relaxed, cool	stressed, unsatisfied

Favourite Music

Favourite Films / TV / Books

• Seinfeld

• Trailer Park Boys

• It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia

• The Walking Dead

• American Beauty

• Gummo

• Pulp Fiction

• A Serbian Film

• The Craft

• Salo

• The Room

• A Million Ways To Die In The West

• Cannibal Holocaust

• The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (The 1974 original.)

• August Underground

• Come And See

• Threads

• Requiem For A Dream

• The Holy Mountain

• An Andalusian Dog

• anything in The Cremaster Cycle

• Begotten

• Slumber Party Massacre

• Bigfoot's Wild Weekend

• Human Ouja

• Just any raunchy slasher flick or terrible horror movie really....

• Two Bits and Pepper

• Cop Dog

• Country Bears

• Doggie Boogie - Get Your Grr On!

• I just love terrible 90s, 2000s, and early 2010s kids movies ironically

• Midsommar (I FUCKING LOVE THIS MOVIE)

• I have watched 57 Anime and I've loved almost all of them.... (Key Word: ALMOST. I've seen some fucked up shit)

Education / Occupation

Typical burnout 20 somethings behavior. I go to work to make money to go to house shows and get drunk and buy dumb shit on the internet and then I go back to work again!

Who I'd Like To Meet

I dunno, maybe a couple new friends?

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