The voices inside my head are taking over they're telling me that my life is in danger I`m scared that the silence won`t come back forever I believe this is my darkest hour Voices, by Crown The Empire
Omg!!! so I couldn't hold this in longer, but....
I got my 1st kiss today!!! it was soo good too!
so I had to help out after school to help the middle schoolers that were walking the high school, showing them things and stuff... so there was one guy, named Michael who's going to be a freshman next year and I had to show him around and stuff... the last stop was the choir room and he started playing a song and stuff (during the whole time that I was showing him stuff, he was just watching me and flirting with me... and let me tell you, he's hot...around 6'2, brown hair, haziest eyes, white... srry guys I'm not into black guys...) and I kinda showed him how to play For Elise on the piano and we were just laughing and stuff... I had to leave and I let it spill that I was going to see my dad today... (dad went to Africa... turns out, he's coming tomorrow... there was a delay in Amsterdam...) and I started crying and stuff and he just held me and told me he knew how I felt and I looked up at him, and BAM! He kissed me... and the weird thing was... I kissed him back! IDK if that makes me a cougar or something because he's younger than me and stuff but... damn! I don't mind kissing him at all! wow!
so today..... I thought I knew my friends but.....
So yesterday I was really annoyed at this one dude and he was talking shit about me and it was the last straw for me so I posted a video of him and wrote some stuff down to get it off my chest and posted it on snapchat... now my friend didn't like what I said and cussed me out... She doesn't even like him, but whatever..... so I told her that I was sorry (i don't even know why I was apologizing.... -_-") but she ignored me.... all my other friends were around and heard her cuss me out and didn't do anything to stop it... usually I'm the leader of the group and know what to do... but I was the VICTIM.... I sat in a corner and cried my eyes out (remember, this in school) and my friends were just looking at me and didn't even bother to comfort me... only 2 of my TRUE friends came looking for me and helped me out... when my friend went back to the table they said that my other friends were talking shit about me and how I'm always soo emotional about everything, and that's when I just broke down crying... No one knows that I have this type of....quirk,, the doctors call it.... any type of emotion, my body will respond at twice as much.... people just don't..... get it..... they think that I'm always happy and always gibbery and always laughing, but away from my "friends", no one knows who I really am.... so I guess I only have 2 "girl" friends and the rest are guy friends.....
*sighs*
guys..... I don't even know what to say here....
My friend got called fat by one our other friends... he said he couldn't control it, said he had some kind of disability that causes him not to control what's coming from his mouth, but the worst thing is, he didn't apologize and beg for forgiveness... i mean, if someone does something like that, you could at least show some sympathy for what you said.... you don't know how that person is going to react if you say something like that... I don't know what this world has even come to..... just.... treat other how you wanna be treated