And just to soften the blow
I'll steal all of your kisses (your kisses)
And sew them up
In the creases of our hearts. Kiss And Makeup, by Funeral For A Friend
Hmmmm, don't know what to say right now; I feel hated.
I hate, hate. It is such a dangerous word. It can bury someone in a whole, in a dark abyss.
I feel so unwelcomed unloved, unhuman.
Disrespected. Dehumanized.
Do I really deserve all of this?
I really try to be the best person I can but people still have a problem with it. I really don't care if people have a problem with me but.....
I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE!
I DON"T WANT A DEEPER HOLE THAT I'M ALREADY IN!
I honestly wished someone could hold me right now.
Its really tough when you have no friends.
I feel so alone.
I just want someone to hold, to cuddle with, to be loved, and someone to talk to.
I had an emotional breakdown today.
I just wish I could be my TRUE myself, have TRUE friends, and to have TRUE love.
Is that too much to ask for?
I've never been this depressed, and stuck in a hole in my life before.
I think I need time alone,
at the same time, the pain still remains.
I wish someone could just cure this pain.
Cure the darkness out of my aura.
Make the cloudy day, sunny again.
I honestly really don't know what to write right now.
I'm going through a set of emotions at the same time.
I don't know what I should do.
I try to fix things, forgive, and apologize all the time.
but I get so TIRED.
