When you were young, you never thought you'd die,
Found that you could but too scared to try,
You looked in the mirror and you said goodbye,
Climb to the roof to see if you could fly. Bullet, by Hollywood Undead
Rachel Tuomi
43 / Female / Melbourne/Florida, United States
Straight / Single
Member since:
May 01, 2012
Last online:
May 08, 2012
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About Me
Hi Hi All, Hope you having a good day.I'm Rachel,sometimes people call me Boo 'cause of my last name...sometimes I don't even know what to write on the About Me section so I put lyrics that describe who I am...I just joined today so this section will take time, nice to meet you all!~ :3~
PS: Pics coming soon,its ot accepting my images for some reason but Im on FB;Look Up: Rachel Tuomi
Favourite Music
My favorite music...I listen to black,thrash,death, and 80's heavy metal. Some of my favorite bands(I have so many lol!) Morbid Merceless Old Funeral Immortal... Mayhem Beherit Horna Darkthrone Hoath Watain Morbid Angel... Marilyn Manson Coal Chamber Bile Mindless Self Indulgence Jack Of Jill... WASP Twisted Sister Anvil Great White Motley Crew Judas Priest Iron Maiden Grim Reaper.... COB 69 Eyes HIM Uniklubi Negative Hanoi Rocks Black Veil Brides Carcass Cannibal Corpse Morgoth Morbid Saint
Favourite Films / TV / Books
I love horror movies, lol, I grew up watching them...Indiana Jones...Brazil, Dune, Monty Python....
Oh man...I have too many to name here...I read A LOT of vampire romance novels because I want to fall in love with the right guy some day...a lots of books on withcraft, my norse heritage, books in finnish...
Education / Occupation
I took 3 1/2 years in culinary arts in NY, I went to school in Finland and learned the finnish language, history and culture and Im aiming to go to school right now for Phlebotomy(If I can pass my damn math test, which Im stressed to all hell with...)
Who I'd Like To Meet
I'd love to meet others to become friends with because I really don't have anyone.Ive been alone for a while(Long story why I feel this way...) and possibly fall in love with the right guy too...
This song pretty much sums up my love life...rather non existing one you can say... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uHe2M2CgxF0
I just have to get it off my chest before it starts eating me up inside...
I met this really great guy last November and it took us a while to confess to each other that we liked each other, it just happened. We finally told each other...So we talked a lot and emailed just to get to each other more and more...
Then today(since last night...) He tells me that its hard for him to be in a relationship again(Long Distance)because of how his two ex girlfriends treated him. Ive been in a long distance relationship for 5 years that ended in marriage(But we got a divorce...) so I understand what he means...
Its hard not to think of him the way I started too...He was totally my type too...,he said he wants to stay friends. Probably something will happen between us in the future,its just sad though...That little happiness I felt in those 4 days was great,it was like he was the light in my dark that I really wanted in my life.
fell asleep after all the stuff I did today and had this dream where I was in my kitchen with a knife and I killed myself...there was all this blood everywhere and I saw myself falling down to the ground.I was wearing black shorts, with a black band tee shirt and my hair was longer and wavy too...
Probably thats just stress that I had that dream,Ive been doing a lot all week...
SORRY! I got busy today...I have to do the vlog thing to my poem,I'll get it up as soon as I can...
My new pic on my profile...I totally forgot I didnt resize it, sorry Admins...
I just took a look at my video section and I got a great idea...instead of writing all my poems,why don't I just vlog myself? I'll make my first video tomorrow,Id do it now but my room mates are sleeping.I should be in bed right now because I got to wake up early and get stuff done but after that I'm free,so I'll put it up tomorrow for all of yous....
BTW theres this great guy I just ran into while watching music videos on you tube called: EMERY LANE. He's an inspiration for a lot of people. He went through so much shit, like a lot of people but at the end he came out to do what he wanted to do in his life. His videos are pretty good, here he is:
http://www.youtube.com/user/cameron33881?feature=watch
I just want to say good night to All, Hope everything goes well for you, see you tomorrow!!
xoxoox
Boo :3
Special mention to... <3 Black Veil Brides<3 ...
I can totally relate to the song: "Knives and Pens" because I got beat up back in school for being different too.I got so depressed about it I'd sit in my room and listen to music and cut myself because I didn't want to live anymore.My mom found out and I got therapy for it. So now if someone calls me things like:"Freak!" ,"Emo!", "Fag!","Nobody!" I just laugh in their face and walk away because their not worth my time anymore.
I want all of you to do the same thing.Get help,don't hold it inside anymore,it almost took my life away from me.
To the people who got bullied and it took their life; I'm so sorry for the eternal torment, I will always love you....<3
A Big Fuck You To The Bullies...You have no idea what your doing, playing God.Your the ones who are weak if you have to pick on people who are different then you...Your the ones who should be in a coffin 6 feet under....Instead of "Emo Bashing Day" it should be: "Bully Bashing Day"...
SELF HARM SURVEY By RavenED1
1.Why do you cut?
I started cutting myself when I was 17 years old. I got bullied in school for being different. Emo's weren't called Emo's back then, we were called FREAKS(in the 90s)
I cut myself a lot of times after I got called a "Freak" or "Slut"(Which is funny,I never lost my virginity until I was 18 years old..)My ex BF started this rumor about me because I didn't "Put Out"...Theres a lot of other reasons I did too,family issues and such...My mom found out about me cutting myself from a teacher and she put me in therapy for a long time. I told the therapists why I cut myself: I didn't want to live anymore,I felt worthless...cutting myself gave me a release from stress and anxiety and it brought me closer to death,which I liked the feeling of...I like the darkness...
2. What causes you to cut? (Explain)
What caused me to cut was fights with my family(My mom remarried...) When I didnt pass my tests in school and when I got bullied, when I felt fat and I was only 106 pounds...
3. How often do you cut?
I cut myself back then,it was 4 to 5 times a week(I don't really know the answer...) when anything bothered me really...
Now, I got back into it...I started doing it again 3 years ago because of stress and anxiety with school and my ex husband...I also don't like to gain weight...
4. Does anyone know about your cutting?
Only my best friend Craig and you guys on SoEmo...
5. How do you feel after you cut? Immediately and an hour or so after?
I feel a lot better, like a lot of tension was released off me and I relied on this feeling more after cutting and I like how my body feels weightless...its almost like going out and getting tattooed and pierced(which I have a lot...)
6. Do you want to stop?
I do and dont at the same time...I do want to because its hard to hide my scars since I live in florida and I dont want to stop because I started depending on it to make everything go away for at least a little while...I don't know what to do...:(
