Georgia Crouch
26 / Female / Ruse, Bulgaria
Straight / Single
Member since:
Dec 06, 2011
Last online:
Nov 05, 2012
Current rating: 5.5/10 (2 votes cast)
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About Me
Ellor!♥
So, I'm Georgia. I live in Bulgaria. I'm your usual fucked up, socially awkward, photography-addict teenager. Sarcasm is something I mainly use, so If I come off as a bit of an asshole; don't take it personally. I'm actually pretty talkative when you get to know me & I can give pretty good advice.
Before you start calling me a poser, my lip piercing is fake. Ok bitch. I curse a lot, too much to be quite honest.
And before you think about sending me one of those; 'Hi baby, wanna MSN cam together?'
I'd fuck off immediately.
If you'd like to get know me better, just send me a message.
Don't worry, I dun' bite.
Unless you're made of marshmellows ._.
No, but seriously;
Just drop me a line anytime, I love chatting to people about random stuff c;
Favourite Music
1. A Day To Remember 2. A Skylit Drive 3. A Static Lullaby 4. Alesana 5. All Time Low 6. Allstay Weekend 7. Artist vs. Poet 8. Asking Alexandria 9. Attack Attack! 10. August Burns Red 11. Bayside 12. Black Veil Brides 13. Blink-182 14. Blood on the Dance Floor 15. Breathe Carolina 16. Bring Me The Horizon 17. Chidos 18. Chunk! No, Captain Chunk! 19. Coldplay 20. Cute Is What We Aim For 21. Cypress Hill 22. Ed Sheeran 23. Escape The Fate 24. Fall Out Boy 24. Falling In Reverse 25. Flyleaf 26. Family Force 5 27. For All Those Sleeping 28. Four Year Strong 29. Framing Hanley 30. Go Radio 31. Green Day 32. Gym Class Heroes 32. He Is We 33. Hollywood Undead 34. Hot Chelle Rae 35. I See Stars 36. Jimmy Eat World 37. Julian Perretta 38. Mayday Parade 39. Miss May I 40. Never Shout Never! 41. Of Mice & Men 42. Panic! At The Disco 43. Paramore 44. Pierce The Veil 45. Silverstein 46. Skrillex 47. Sleeping With Sirens 48. Sparks The Rescue 49. Stephen Barnes 50. The Cab 51. The Downtown Fiction 52. The Ready Set 53. The Word Alive 54. There For Tomorrow 55. This Century 56. Tonight Alive 57. We Came As Romans 58. Woe, Is Me 59. You Me At Six
Favourite Films / TV / Books
{In no specific order, updated regularly}
Movies
Nightmare on Elm Street
The Grudge 1,2,3
The whole Harry Potter series
The Slender Man
Meet the Fockers
Grave Encounters
The Exorcist
Chalet Girl
Black Swan
The King's Speech
127 Hours
28 Days After
Friends With Benefits
The Notebook
The Number 23
The whole SAW series
TV Shows
The Big Bang Theory
Adventure Time
That 70's Show
Modern Family
The Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack {Yes, I watch a lot of cartoons}
One Piece {Not as good as the book}
Avatar: The Last Airbender, Legend of Aang & The Legend of Korra.
Okay. I'm officially pissed.
I've been sat on Facebook until` fucking 4AM just waiting for him to even notice that I'm online & actually send me a message. A simple hi would be enough but no, that's just too much to ask isn't it. He goes around & likes this fucking slut's profile pictures, calling her sexy & shit.
While I sit here fucking crying my eyes out because I really love this guy & he just doesn't even give two shits about me. This is the first guy that I've ever really loved & actually let him in. And I just get it thrown back in my face.
It just really fucking sucks, that this is the first time I've completely opened up to someone & he just turns away, acting like nothing ever happened. I've been lying in bed, listening to love songs & thinking back to every single moment we spent together.
And he's coming in August for 2 weeks. Seriously, this just...I don't even have the words to describe the level of hurt & confusion I'm feeling at the moment. How could he do this to me..? Does he even think about me, at all? And the worst thing is, I can't do anything.
Because he's my step-dad's son's wife's son, it'll cause problems. Usually I'd ask him but I can't. And this is just such a fucked up situation. Omg -.-'
Pathetic rant over. Going to listen to OM&M + cry myself to sleep.
This entry is for this amazing person (will stay un-named) who is unbelievably caring sent me the most sweetest message. And me being the bitch I am, didn't reply.
No, there is no excuse. I could say that I was just too depressed to answer it but fact is, I just didn't know how to reply. This person comes along, someone who actually knows what I'm going through & puts his problems aside, just to help me with my own. That is something you rarely see in people today.
I'm so sorry for being such an asshole to you, because you deserve better. The only thing that has stopped me from ODing is the guilt that I never replied back. Maybe now that I've got this off of my chest, I can finally get some sleep...
First Journal Entry
I haven't been on here in forever & it makes feel really guilty for some reason. Maybe it's the fact that I've left things unfinished and haven't really said everything I've wanted to. I'm not as sure of everything now. I used to be certain that thing's would always work out in the end. But after it gets good, it just all falls apart again.
What if things don't turn out okay in the end? What happens then? When nobody around you can understand the things that you're going through & the things that you're feeling. Even when it becomes unbearable, we still hold on to that slim ray of hope that it'll all be alright.
The thing is, I can't live like that anymore. Praying every night that people won't be such assholes & maybe they'll realize what kind of person they really are. Because people will be people. And there is always going to be those little bitches who make you feel worthless.
I'm just so sick of it. How I have to fake a stupid smile just so I don't break down in front of everyone. And the fact that my whole class hates me without an actual reason, just kills me inside. I've done nothing like the kind of the things they do to others & myself.
Whether they put down people because they're un-satisfied of themselves or just for sick pleasure, I don't know anymore. And the funny thing is, nobody has any fucking idea how much I want to kill myself. But I just can't. Not because of my family, not because of my so called 'friends' but because I can't do that to myself.
Even though all the things people say about me I've already said to myself a million times, I can't let go. I can't let go because I really hope that for one second things will be like it is in fairytales. A prince will come save me from my tower & my wretched evil parents.
And we'll live happily ever after. But that's why it's called a fairytale. Because it's absolute bullshit. I didn't want my first journal entry to be so dark & depressing but everything I've just wrote, it's everything I'm thinking & feeling right now.
And I thought that was the idea of journal's, to write down your feelings?