I'm scared to get close.
I hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher I get.
The lower ill sink.
I cant drown my demons they know how to swim. Can You Feel My Heart, by Bring Me The Horizon
Juka Usagi
30 / Male / Jayy Von Monroe's Pants, United States
Gay/Lesbian / Forever Alone
Member since:
Aug 09, 2013
Last online:
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About Me
Allo c: Im Brett. Im known by many names. Juka has to be the best one. Erm... Im usually not good at bios but yeah. :3 Im 19. Bout to go to cosmetology school. Erm... Im a tall ass bitch at a whopping 6'5". Im in love with Jayy Von Monroe from Blood On The Dance Floor. He shall be my husband one day ^,.,^ And yeah. I love writing poetry. I have one already published in a compilation book. cant remember the name of the book. >_< Wanna know anything else ask me... Im an open book.... so yeah.
Favourite Music
Anything ranging from classical to pop to hardcore to hip hop to death metal. Ill try any band once ^_^
Some of my favourites include:
Blood On The Dance Floor
A7X
AFI
Bullet For My Valentine
Motionless In White
How To Kill A Monster
& many many MANY more c:
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Interview With a Vampire
Donnie Darko
Anything Tim Burton ^_^ Im in the midst of reading Interview With a Vampire and loving it ^_^ Also, I do enjoy reading the Necronomicon O.o
Education / Occupation
Future Cosmetology student. Starting in January
Who I'd Like To Meet
Ermahgerd..... Jayy Von Monroe (Gotta meet my husband duh)
Dahvie Vanity
Andrew Biersack aka Andy Sixx
Johnny Depp
Helena Bonham Carter
Chris Motionless
Oli Sykes
I look at my angel,
And I'm in love.
He's perfect in every way,
As if sent from up above.
I'm scared though,
Of that possibility,
Of getting hurt,
I don't want it to become reality.
I weigh the options,
The pros and the cons,
And I think I've come to a decision.
As if in my head it has dawned.
Since I've known him for so long,
I never realized it.
I've fallen for one of my best friends.
I believe I shall go through with this.
He shall be mine,
And I his.
I know we'll be happy together.
For nothing is as great as this.
He's the only one whom makes me nervous,
Whom can make me smile easily,
Whom can make me laugh,
Whom I can express my feelings freely.
I truly believe this is meant to be,
That he and I be together.
For I'm writing poetry more easily now.
Lets just hope it lasts forever <3
I couldn't write poetry that easily for a long time. It seems that I had lost my muse. Now that I've come to grips with my feelings for Mattie, I wrote this just now. I could never really do that before. I'd have to think about it. This came so freely. I love this feeling<3
Although we've fussed and fought over the years, I really miss my baby sister... She wasn't here so we could all celebrate her 11th birthday. I haven't seen her since about July 2012... And from about July to December 2012, it was because I had to work, so I could never go to my dads when she was there... Now that I'm living with my daddy.... her mom keeps giving excuses to not bring her... It pisses me off and gets me depressed all at the same time... I've cried so many times over this. I keep myself from crying when I talk to get on the phone... Her voice sounds so grown up... From the pictures I see on Facebook, she's growing up so fast... and I can't witness it for myself... I want my sister home. She hasn't ever met her niece nor nephew from our two other sisters. I just want my baby sister here.... please?
