Then I lost it all
Dead and broken.
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open.
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
Lost it all, by Black Veil Brides
Kat Monster
18 / Female / hell, United States
Pansexual / In a Relationship
Member since:
Feb 01, 2019
Last online:
May 18, 2021
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About Me
I love music... correction, i need music. it keeps me sane. I draw and write. OH MY SATAN! SAY AMEN IS ON!
Favourite Music
I found that if you put on rock or alternative, I will enjoy every bit of it. Every now and then I discover that they have made an amazing song in another genre of music but those are my main go-to's. (p.s screamo is amazing). My favorite bands are My Chemical romance, Panic! At the disco, Fall Out Boy, And Falling in reverse
Favourite Films / TV / Books
i love horror, anime... uuuuhhh. my favorite tv show is supernatural. My favorite anime is Either, Naruto, My Hero Academia, or Death Note. They're all really awesome.
I love novels. It's weird I know but they capture my attention. Sometimes I feel what's in the book is reality. It kinda h
Education / Occupation
I am still in middle school but I want to go to an art college.
Who I'd Like To Meet
Gerard Way, Frank Iero, Ray Toro, Mikey Way, Brendon Urie, Markiplier, CrankThatFrank, Jacksepticeye, Tyler Joseph,
How is it that, even though I have an amazing boyfriend. I still feel alone. I feel like I'm a waste of time... I really don't want to be here anymore... why am I even alive?
Three years ago, I tried to kill myself. I felt like absolute shit. My arms were covered in cuts every centimeter to the point where I couldn't bend my arm. I lost everything, my love, my friends, my family. I had absolutely nothing. I survived seven suicide attempts, no, eight. My last attempt was July this year. I'm still alive though, I'm still breathing. IT's hard, it really is. But I'll make it. I'll make it because, even if my current crush leaves me and all else fails, and even if I still hate the sight of me, I still want to try. I want to try for My Chemical Romance. I want to try for Lars. I want to try for my father. I want to try. Even if I lose them all. I may be just a stupid emo baby, but I still have valid feelings, and you do too. If I can make it, you can too. Gerard is proud of you for making it, as am I. I'm here for everyone. Remember, No one deserves to feel pain. You're all beautiful and you're all valid. I'm here for you. I love you all <3
I hate myself so much. Like. I hate my hair. I hate my face. I hate my personality. I hate my life. I hate my voice. I hate everything about myself. So much that the only thing stopping me from hurting myself is my crush and something Gerard Way said. I'm such a fucking failure. I hate myself
It sucks when you're trying to get over someone and they already moved on. My heart hurts so much. It's as if someone is squeezing my heart slowly. Tighter and tighter until your heart bursts under pressure. It's getting too hard to breathe.
