Its not enough, its not enough, it never was or will be, I never had the chance to thank you. FOR RIPPING OUT MY HEART.
Its not enough, its not enough, it never was or will be, I never got the chance to say. FUCK YOU Hate Me, by Five Finger Death Punch
Sophie
30 / Female / Norfolk, United Kingdom
Bisexual / In a Relationship
Member since:
Mar 25, 2011
Last online:
Mar 30, 2014
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About Me
Heyyyy, I'm Sophie, I'm 20 and I'm from Norfolk (don't start on about Norfolk stereotypes -.- )
I'm reaaaaally into music and theatre. This includes listening/watching and participating. I play flute, saxophone & piano (am trying to learn guitar too) and love getting involved in local theatre projects. It's my aim in life to become an actress, and certainly I want to follow a career in theatre.
I don't actually describe myself as emo, as my style seems to change daily depending on my mood. I'd describe myself as alternative instead, and am open to meeting all people, of all the alternative subcultures, and anyone not alternative who doesn't judge me because of my appearance.
I've been in a relationship with my amazing boyfriend, Henry, for two and a half years. He describes himself as a "metalgoth", but he's also pretty open to meeting anyone who doesn't judge him for his appearance :) Though we're both completely committed to each other, so if you try flirting with me, it won't get you anywhere! :P
People would rather have a monster they know than a mystery they don't - Lucas, Kevin Brooks
Favourite Music
Do you really want me to list all the bands I like?
Paramore, The Blackout, Three Days Grace, Bowling For Soup, The All-American Rejects, Scouting For Girls, Flyleaf, My Chemical Romance, Family Force 5, Seether, Fall Out Boy, Billy Talent, Hollywood Undead, You Me At Six, The Fray, Good Charlotte, Simple Plan, Escape The Fate, P!nk, Cute Is What We Aim For, Avril Lavigne, Bullet For My Valentine, Boys Like Girls, All Time Low, Madina Lake, The Academy Is..., 3 Doors Down, VersaEmerge, Papa Roach, Breaking Benjamin,Nickelback, Hey Monday,Green Day, Art Of Dying, Alter Bridge, Avenged Sevenfold, Glamour Of The Kill, Forever The Sickest Kids, Yashin, Falling In Reverse, Taking Back Sunday, The Audition, Mayday Parade
and many more who I really cba to say =D
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Films? Hot Fuzz, Hunger Games, Harry Potter, POTC, Scott Pilgrim
Tv? Doctor Who, Sherlock, Mock The Week
I like a lot of books.
The Chaos Walking trilogy is the best thing ever.
And Doctor Who books.
Education / Occupation
Am at uni studying Drama and Applied Theatre CUZ I'M AWESOME.
And I work for the House of Commons, which is PRETTY FUCKING AMAZING.
Who I'd Like To Meet
You ;)
Nahh, I'm open to meeting most people. Unless you're annoying. =L
I honestly don't know how the fuck I'm supposed to carry on like this. I've made too many mistakes now and it's too late to turn back. I used to be adamant I knew what I was doing with my life, and back then, my 14 year old self knew exactly what I should do. But my 18 year old self has not taken any advice from her, and has taken exactly the kind of decisions my 14 year old self would never take. And where has it left me? Here. Desperate to get out, but too frightened to. As they say, I've made my bed, now I must sleep in it. I don't want to. But I'll die either way.
I guess I should've known everything was too good to be true. I felt everything was going smoothly for once; I'd found myself a good job with good money, I believed I'd done fairly well in my exams (though admittedly, I still don't know my results), and my moods were starting to ease up. But so many things just keep going wrong, I feel under so much pressure, and my moods are coming back with a vengeance. Yesterday, I actually started crying at work (not in front of customers, I felt it coming on so went to the loos for privacy). I understand that depression never truly goes away, but I thought it was at least getting better.
So I feel really guilty atm... today, I started my new job, and my best friend lost hers. She was still on her probationary period and apparently she wasn't meeting her targets, but I don't believe that. I don't know if it's the same in other parts of the country, but unfortunately, round here, too many businesses have been "using" their employees - either employing them on a "permanent" basis then sacking them at the end of their probationary period (which happens to coincide with the end of their busy period...), finding ridiculous excuses to sack them because the business is running into trouble and it will save making them redundant, or just being complete dicks. Of course, my best friend may honestly have not been good enough for the job, but when she's spoken to me about it she says she's been doing well, and I don't believe it considering how commonplace these practices are round here. On a more selfish note, it also makes me worry about my job - I have a 6 month probationary period. Will they sack me just before the 6 months is up too?
Well this is strange... today was my last day of 6th form (besides 2 more exams and a couple of lessons my French teacher has asked me to come in for)... but it doesn't feel like the last day :/ Very excited though to start my first full-time job on 2nd July :) Although I'm only planning on staying there a few years before setting up my own theatre company :) But, uhh, I kinda need the money to do so first xD
But yeahh... going to a local restaurant 3 times in the next few weeks with each of my subject classes :) And then there's leaver's ball which is gonna be awesomeeee!!! And getting involved with my sixth form's theatre company's production again this year, which will also be awesome! So things are looking pretty good atm :)
