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Jordan Murdoch
35 / Male / Sheffield, south yorkshire, United Kingdom
Straight / Single
Member since:
Feb 02, 2009
Last online:
Jan 19, 2011
i am doing a course in popular music and i am a qualified chef (really i am lol). i ahve a band outside of college with some of the best people i know, we play post hardore like funeral for a friend type and we write our own tunes. i love to go out to some metal clubs and mosh out and get pissed with my friends. i am shit! at talking to girls, and its hard for me to find someone to go out with sein as tho i dont stand ot in a croud when i go out. but im still trying lol. urh but its hard work. im not the best looking person but i dont think im ugly, so wy dont i seem to get with a girl that likes me and i like her. i guess this is real life and well..... im 20 and single and its the worst feeling i have ever had. i ahve only had a few relation ships but they hadnt gone far. i think i care too much. i hope im not too clingy. oh thers so many things wrong with me that i dont even like myself much. in fat i loathe myself. if there was a way to just go and not let it affect my family i wud seriously end my life. with no pause. but enuf of being depressin twat. i love to cook lol. i ahve worked in some very good restaurants and visited some top nitch ones too. like one in germany which is a michelin star ( thats higher than a five star) and i love making shit up. my fave chef is heston blumenthall just cause he is fucked up! try to please people before my self due to the fact that i cant stand me. But caring too much is hell when they throw it back in ya face :"( . Im blonde well a bit ginger now lol i dyed it back to my natural blonde colour and it dint work out well lol and i love cooking and music i love writing music and i play guitar. Music is the only thing that keeps me from blowing my brains out across the walss, which i would do if my family wasnt here. No question bout it i would do it. I love victoria frances paintings and pon and zi pictures, they make me smile : ). I was not much liked at school because of the way i was and i was prone to a beating every week ( fun), but now at college there are more people like me and it helps, but i dont think ill ever be happy. So lonely lol. ol, nuf bout me cya
slipknot, mcr, the used, three days grace, avenged sevenfold, aiden, funeral for a friend, killswitch engage, staind (i love staind i went to see them live :), blue october, taking back sunday, the clash, morrisey, bullet for my valentine, him, killswitch engage, papa roach, 30 secnds to mars, oasis, the beatles, stereophonics, kings of leon,iron maiden, dashboard confessionals, fightsar, i ahve more but my mind is blank at the mo lol
erm lol this is gonna be hard not to sound mental. i like braindead, bad taste, evil dead trillogy, shaun of the dead, dawn of the dead (original), dead space downfall, sin city, cats and dogs lol, lost boys, scanners, videodrome, toy story, lion king, die hard quadrilogy, nightmare on elm street (all of em) nightmare before christmas, oh bram stokers dracula is a classic with gary oldman....i sound like a geek :(. lol. i like gory stuff. i like lee evans, bill bailey, dylan moran, mighty boosh, bill hicks is a genious (R.I.P) and billy connolly are my fave comedians.
my fave tv shows are family guy ( giggidy giggidy goo) lol, CSI miami, heston blumenthals cooking things : S, supernatural, anything to do with pain like jackass dirty sanchez and accidents, scarred is brilliant lol i like stephen kings books my favorite is the shining, i would also like to read interview with a vampire by anne rice and richard laymon is a brilliant gory storyteller lol i also like bram stoker dracula is a classic. I love to read but i like gothic novels more tgan anything like bram stoker or anne rice. i am also starting to get into manga lol but its so good my fave ne is diablo about the 2 damned friends (damned as in the hell damned, not the 1960s way of showing mild annoyance. "that damned loud music" lol )
