Apr 24 2015, 08:06 AM

I am not lonely physically. Emotionally I am. And because noone has achieved that emotional connection with me inorder to relate to my emotional state. I am misunderstood because no one understands why I do what I do and think what I think. Nor do they get the rationality of everything I do. I am isolated from reality cause I allow myself to believe the lies that society has dictated. Just to fit in as normal. I'm done trying to fit in.

Apr 24 2015, 05:45 AM

If I am known to go against everything she believes in and vice versa. Is the relationship of any importance? I can compromise but she can't. That's impractical

Apr 24 2015, 05:07 AM

Cutting is an addiction. Its my addiction. I cut when I feel something that I cannot control so i can be in control. No one understands that. They think I'm harming myself because I can. They say "I want to help you". If they really want to help they would leave me to what makes me feel better. Leave me to what diminishes my anxieties and overwhelming feelings. Its like any other addiction. Drinking, smoking, caffeine.... You indulge to feel better but who really gets an addict? No one. They just judge you without rationalizing your actions.

Apr 24 2015, 04:55 AM

This is what I am thinking. Being emo isn't something that you asked for. You become emo because of all the shit that happens to you in your life. The emo lifestyle found you because of all the hurt and pain you go through. Only very few tag themselves as emo without even knowing what emo is.

Apr 24 2015, 04:52 AM

No mercy for what we are doing. No thought to even what we have done! We don't need to feel the sorrow, no remorse for the helpless one!

Apr 09 2015, 04:32 PM

I am bored with love and it's passionless limbs that drape over my bed in a lethargic state of impotence while wearing the same red heart my soul picked up hitchhiking off highway serendipity Now here we are alone in togetherness trying to build dreams with two by fours and glue, but even a home won't tie us together when our hearts live alone Poetic vows cliched into nothingness like all words do, eventually and we allowed our bodies to become another pair of hollow shadows that make love to a wall instead of each other and we wonder why the roses are dying

Mar 30 2015, 09:31 AM

Its hard to make friends with people who dont understand

Mar 04 2015, 02:06 PM

Inside my mind, on darkside, there are demon hives, through my eyes, out in the night they dive, for weak gods children, death those demons give, on helpless world, my demons of mind will thrive, worshippers of the useless god, soon gone, no one alive... Souls of the gods fools, those demons will tear apart, hiding from them is useless, demons no one can outsmart, from them - protects nothing, to be strong is no any rampart, demons give no mercy, in any weakness - they hit like a dart... From your god, pray no salvation, he is weak, can't save no one, demons will slaughter souls, it takes long till they are done, demons, those children of mine, are like me, they spare none... Humans, mortals, weak images of weak god, will turn to pools of blood, to tear off any part, spill the blood, for demons, it is power above a god... In my eyes, tears of fatherly pride, I stare havoc, sweet demons of my mind...

Mar 04 2015, 08:34 AM

I see demonic shadows, floating in the darkness, waiting for me to fall a sleep, searching a moment of my weakness... Shadows of death, inside my head, this outstanding pain, in my brain... Flames of hellfire, in my eyes, smell of death, in my nose... Molten seas of hell, this demonic smell, someone is casting a dark spell, holding me in this hell...

Mar 03 2015, 08:24 PM

Life is just a waste right now. Like people dont understand. how could they. They dont even know how i feel and i cant get them to know. I feel like i'm in a concrete box. no windows, no doors and my oxygen level is low. It depletes every time i hear what someone thinks of me or their reaction to my thoughts. It makes no sense to be living like this right? No. It makes no sense at all.