Emily
27 / Female / colorado, United States
Bisexual
Member since:
Aug 13, 2012
Last online:
Jan 13, 2024
Current rating: 8.0/10 (1 votes cast)
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About Me
Life is a song with no one to dance to Same old shit happening and nobody knows My heart is a DEAD horse, there's no point in beating Just let me SINK, let me sink into the FUCKING ground
FUCK IT.
666 party with the devil bitch.
We're ALLfifty shades of fucked up
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Favourite Music
i like screamo, hard rock, metal.. here see for yourself: three days grace, my chemical romance, seether, pierce the veil, sleeping with sirens, asking alexandria <3, i set my friends on fire, a day to remember, bullet for my valentine, bring me the horizon, underoath, shine down, green day, as I lay dying, suicide silence,ABR, AFI, motionless in white, blood on the dance floor, avenged sevonfold, blacklist me, slipknot, korn, , black veil brides, we butter the bread with butter, dot dot curve, cookie breed, we came as romans, falling in reverse, escape the fate, ...... o_o and more..
Favourite Films / TV / Books
I LOVE ANYTHING MADE BY TIM BURTON THAT INCLUDES JOHNNY DEPP examples: alice in wonderland, sleepy hollow, the corpse bride. the nightmare before christmas, sweeny todd, I LOVE LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE!!!! <3
i watch PRETTY LITTLE LIARS, TEEN WOLF, AWKWARD, WILFRED, :3
... O_O i like good books. ive read alot (hehe im a nerd) um top five out of the millions ive read would be. go ask alice, the forest of hands and teeth, every you every me, the pact, ... and good night gorilla :3
Education / Occupation
IM IN HIGH SCHOOL ... AND I TENT TO WRITE ALOT
Who I'd Like To Meet
id like to meet alex.. my twin. umm johnny depp and the lead singer of asking alexandria
ive lost who i am. like my boss tonight she asked me about this cut a crossed my knuckles. naturally i say it was my cat and she looks at it and says "em no thats to straight what really happened?" i just repeated my cat but .... that makes me wonder i know people judge me because i wear all black and i hide myself they see some kid who steals and does drugs and cuts.. no i dont steal i dont do drugs im a straight a student as a matter of fact. i grew up in a shitty home alot of things have happen to me in my life that i will most likely never share with anyone. its a never ending story and maybe part of me doesnt want to cut anymore but im scared cutting was the thing that brought me back to reality that showed me i could cause more pain to myself then anyone else could. and with out it i dont know what i will do. things are never perfect in my life i only get part perfect and it isnt far. i want to look like these girls i want to have the body of the beautiful ones. i dont see what other people see and it hurts..... but ya idk i just needed to vent some .. but it isnt safe to talk on her anymore so im just gunna cry myself to sleep and hide my blades from myself because i promised him. i will try to dry my eyes and keep the blood inside .im sorry im not perfect
Hey dad.. how is life do you miss your old wife? The memorie of leaving still burns in my head did you miss us when we drove away did you know dad that I am no longer three that I have grown into a young adult full of problems did you know that I have a wonderful boyfriend that he makes me happy all the time. Dad I was asked to stop cuttting and I said I would I'm just scared its not going to end well dad I hate you your a whore I don't want to see you anymore stay away let me breathe I only have two years so please leave me be
How it would be if he lived here..
me- singing loudly to my loud music matching the voices
Alex-*walks through the door* hey Missy
mom- hey Alex, she is in her room singing
Alex- ah ok well im going to see her
mom- ok
me- "taste me drink my soul" lalalala
Alex-*walks in my room watches me singing on my bed like a rere* *crawls into the bed with me laying next to me*
me- glances at him still singing
Alex-*starts to sing along with me and my horrible voice*
me- *laughing changes the song to something we both can sing*oh the life i would have if Alex lived here i love that kid he is my only best friend
I love you for everything you ever took from me
I love the way you dominate and you violate me
I love you for every time you gave up on me
I love you for the way you look when you lie to me
I love you for never believing in what I say
I love you for never once giving me my way
I love you for never delivering me from pain
I love you for always driving me insane
I’ll bleed you dry now
I hate you for the sacrifices you made for me
I hate you for every time you ever bled for me
I hate you for the way you smile when you look at me
I hate you for never taking control of me
I hate you for always saving me from myself
I hate you for always choosing me and not someone else
I hate you for always pulling me back from the edge
I hate you for every kind word you ever said
I’ll bleed you dry now
When he ignores me it makes me feel worthless like I'm just some girl. I hate that they don't understand when a girl is upset. This is so stupid why do I put myself through this I want to be known. Why are we a secret? Why can't you understand .. I'm dying and I need you to stop me but I guess I'm not that important to if you don't want to be there for me let alone talk to me. I hate what you've done to me I hate that I love you because I do and now love is smacking me in the face because for once I thought I could be loved
