Dec 10 2012, 06:15 PM

I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see these scars I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got

Dec 09 2012, 09:34 AM

I never said, I'd be coming back for you. I never said, I'd be coming back for you... I never said that, I wish... I wish that you could see, feel something or just believe, But you're not here you're way past dead, your heart, it's doesn't bleed. You took a part of me, ripped from my very soul. Now I feel like giving up when you're losing control. And, I fear that I've married a ghost, you appeared to have this heart of Gold, and I fear, that you've sold my soul. The devils crawling on my back to take you... Disguised your demons drag you straight to... Lying, cheating, you think I don't know what you did? Have many long to breathe, the dead are listening, buried you with my Faith, these few last words regret to say. Can't do this on my own, I can't be all alone, I've held my tongue for far Too long this silence kills me... And, I fear that I've married a ghost, you appeared to have this heart of Gold, and I fear, that you've sold my soul. The devils crawling on my back to take you... I never said, I'd be coming back for you. I never said, I'd be coming back for you... And now I sing, for everything that I've lost. And now I scream for everything that I've loved... Everything... And now we sing (we sing) for everything that we've lost and now we scream (We scream) for everything that we've loved... We left our voices scream, We left our... And now your demons have found you, and now like shadows surround you, and Now these demons have bound you, and they're dragging you back to hell.

Dec 08 2012, 08:22 PM

i am happy and my life is full of rainbows.... yay life ..... is that better dear? :DD lol dont worry about my journal!

Dec 08 2012, 03:57 PM

it never ends, trying to be pretty to fit under the statement of beautiful. its wasted energy and i dont know why i try ive spent the last half hour trying to look some what pretty and it all just didnt work and the camera didnt do what i wanted and needless to say my wrist is throbbing... i think i went a little over board this time and i feel really light headed... oh well. i dont want to talk to anyone anymore i want silence.. its about time i leave for a while and i will im tired

Dec 07 2012, 05:49 PM

the feeling of emptiness has never carried so much weight like it does right now, who knows maybe its from the drink or maybe its because of them. im tired so tired of people and their drama. no one sees what they really do to me when they say things like that. im sorry you dont fucking understand me that im not a fucking push over im sorry i dont please you im sorry im me im sorry im waste of space ok i know alright in not important and everyone gets pissed and tired of me on fucking sorry if im such a damn in convince then stop talking to me leave the fuck alone let me be im so done with this shit it hurts to much to care anymore and your making it worse i cant handle this shit i cant i have to go your dragging me down into things i had hoped to stop just shut up stop stop stop.. i can feel it in my blood and it burns fuck i tried to stop i cant do this anymore thanks for being such a dick thanks for starting me up again.

Dec 07 2012, 03:25 PM

"Your subtleties, they strangle me I can't explain myself at all And all the wants and all the needs All I don't want to need at all The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving Maybe it's best you leave me alone A weight is lifted on this evening I give the final blow When darkness turns to light It ends tonight, it ends tonight A falling star, at least I fall alone I can't explain what you can explain You're finding things that you didn't know I look at you with such disdain The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving Maybe it's best you leave me alone A weight is lifted on this evening I give the final blow When darkness turns to light It ends tonight, it ends tonight Just a little insight won't make this right It's too late to fight, it ends tonight, it ends tonight Now I'm on my own side It's better than being on your side It's my fault when you're blind It's better that I see it through your eyes All these thoughts locked inside Now you're the first to know When darkness turns to light It ends tonight, it ends tonight Just a little insight won't make this right It's too late to fight, it ends tonight It ends when darkness turns to light It ends tonight, it ends tonight Just a little insight won't make this right It's too late to fight, it ends tonight, it ends tonight Tonight, inside When darkness turns to light It ends tonight" ... just in case there was some confusion.. this pretty much sums up what i mean

Dec 07 2012, 03:16 PM

so tell me baby pretty baby that this house is not a grave yard tell me how to stay strong and carry you home over corpses of her long lost father and her unborn daughter cause god damn it i cant do it alone.

Dec 07 2012, 03:10 PM

who the fuck are you? no one, just the disappointment that fills peoples eyes. Dont you worry about me, it wont be long before my heart stops completely i told you from the start i wouldnt make it past 17. sorry to bother. im going back to my darkness im tired of people.

Dec 06 2012, 08:04 PM

oh how i miss my best friend. He is the only one that knows me and gets me, i can be completely random and crazy with him. eh alex get your phone back before i start falling apart more.

Dec 06 2012, 02:41 PM

Time has had it's way with me. My broken tired hands cant build a thing. The wires that have held me still embedded now in flesh to find my will. The idle of my days is won, the empty I have fed has made me numb, Despite what you will find in me. The failures of my past just swirl beneath. I need a heart that carries on through the pain When the walls start collapsing again. Give me a soul that never ceases to follow, Despite the infection within Our careless feet leaving trails Neverminding the fragile dirt we all end in. Our careless feet leaving trails Neverminding the fragile dirt we all end in. This is where I find my fall the cares that held me alive don't work at all. And every step away from here is closer to the plague I hold so dear. I need a heart that carries on through the pain, When the walls start collapsing again. Give me a soul that never ceases to follow despite the infection within Awaiting my end breathing in the day that finds me new. Redemption begins bleeding out the flaws in place of you. Awaiting my end breathing in the day that finds me new. Redemption begins Redemption Begins. .. musicc