About Me

First thing you should know about me is that I'm anything they don't want me to be.

I'm a fifteen year old girl living in Orange County California.I fucking hate it here, though: it's sunny and warm and full of fucking consumerist drones.

I'm a paranoid schizophrenic currently off meds because they fucked up my lungs even worse - I got kicked out of school last year for being different, and when my parents threw me out of the house I lived rough for a bit and contracted TB pretty bad. I was addicted to injection-grade heroin for a while, and sometimes when it's cold at night or I'm just feeling a little bit lonelier than usual I still want just one more hit. But I resist it, cause I know I don't deserve the pleasure. And the pain getting involved in that scene caused me still haunts my dreams at night.

I dye my hair black, wear only black, and eyeliner is my lifesaver. My headphones are practically glued to my head, pop music makes me ill, and I get violent when I'm angry. I don't cry, not anymore.

Favourite Music

Emotive hardcore/metal. Nothing you'll have heard of.

Favourite Films / TV / Books

I don't watch TV; I try not to engage with the establishment.Films? Donnie Darko. Pan's Labyrinth. That is to say, pretty much anything indie where the main character dies at the end.
The Picture of Dorian Gray. I love to be reminded that everything dies in the end.

Education / Occupation

I dropped out of school last year, when I was fourteen. I was sick of them spoon-feeding me lies and expecting me to care about mindless consumerist goals. Who wants a fucking job? I just want to sit in my room and play guitar. I don't see how that's such a fucking crime.It's not like I'm stupid, but I don't conform. I'm a freak, deal with it.

Who I'd Like To Meet

Why would I want to meet anyone? I just want to be alone.

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