Jan 24 2013, 08:13 PM

Journal.. I'm scared. I'm probably pregnant.. :,( Probably even more than probably. I was stupid and let my bf go inside of me 4 times. I wasn't thinking at the time. I'm only 17. What am I going to do? My parents fucking hate my bf. I have known him for years and my parents can't stand him or his family. I'm scared... I'm scared that not only will they be pissed that I'm pregnant but they will make me leave when they find out who's it is. I'm so scared. It's only been a day sence it happend and I feel like I could puke my brains out. Like I feel hungry but then I eat and get full like so easy. I just have this feeling I'm going to have to take care of it all by myself. Because my bf is going in the army for 6 years and what do I do? I'm so scared... :,( On top of everything, I don't even think he really loves me. It just feels like he got what he wanted and said fuck you. :(

Oct 17 2012, 05:56 PM

Hey Journal. So today was kinda like shit to the T today. I got home from school my ma shows me some marks she got from my step dad today. Great right. They fight soo much now it's crazy. Like I want to move out so bad, but it's like if I do my ma will tell my step dad everything I have ever done. Like with the cops, my tatoos, drinking and such. Like I can't live here anymore and I can tell my parents arn't going to be able to last long either. I'm so lost and sad. My bestfriend in the whole world the one who like has been saveing my life every time I have ever tried to kill myself. Well she tried to kill herself like 2 days ago. It was bad like taken to the hospital bad. I have so much stress I can't even exsplain. The only time I feel somewhat ok is when I sleep. Ehh I just can't take this...