Aug 28 2012, 04:26 PM

Hidden Love   (my own fan fiction)      Everyone thinks of Hogwarts as the Harry Potter story. I was just the girl in the background. Sure my dad was Tom Riddle's best friend. Sure I was a siren in secret, but no one could know that. My first year was like all the others in Harry's time. "The boy who lived" was all anyone ever spoke of. These my friends were my years at Hogwarts. YEAR ONE    "Haylie Smith!" professor Mogonagol called from the front of the dining hall. As I made my way up to the front to await my fate I saw a boy looking at me. "I think his name is Draco" I thought. He was snickering to his friends as I sat down. He called out "HUFFLE PUFF FOR SURE!" I blushed I didn't want to be in Huffle Puff or even Grifindor for that matter. I was excited and nurvouse as ever when the hat called out Slytherin. All eyes were apon me as I took a seat next to the infamous Draco Malfoy and his obnoxious friends.    He stared at me as if I were nothing but the scum of the earth. I glared back, "stop looking at me." I said rudely.   "Or what?" he said back calmly.    "Or that ugly little face of yours is going to be a hell of a lot worst tomorrow." I shot back. He thought that funny as he laughed and laughed. I caught the famous Harry Potter starring at me from across the dinning hall and I smiled.    "Dont count on it Smith, it's Harry Potter. He's to good for a mud blood like you." he laughed again and I felt my face fill with the hot liquid inside me.     I wasn't mud blood, my mother and father both had magical abilities. My father was a wizard here, best friends with Tom Riddle. No one now a days would know who that is sadly he was killed, I don't remember exactly how though. Anyways my father was a wizard and although my mother wasn't a witch she was a siren. A very powerful being able to do one specific thing and win the hearts of many. She died many years ago tho, burned to death in a fire. My father suggested I come here to Hogwarts and learn spells to defend myself. I looked at Malfoy ready to strike him when Professor Dumbledor approached the stage. Before I knew it I was headed to the Slytherin house to unpack and then it was off to potions class.     "Hey Smith!" Malfoy said running up to me, "hey I'm uhh sorry I said that earlier.. I know it was uncalled for."   "The infamous Malfoy apologizing?" I said calmly. I knew precisely why he was apologizing. He was procreating himself from his own father's  wrath. He knew that if my father found out that my father would tell his father resulting in punishment for Draco.    "yeah well don't expect it." he said pushing me out of his way. It went like that for the rest of the year.  I didn't speak much to him for year two either although I became very good friends with Ginny Weasly in my second year. YEAR THREE   "Hey Smith not tired of me yet?" Malfoy said walking up to me before I entered the girls dormitory.    "Oh I am but I wouldnt miss this for the World."   "Haha well welcome back!" he said. I was shocked at the welcome seeing as how we had become enemies over the years. All he ever did was make fun of me for everything but this year was different.    "Thanks Draco." I said with a shy tone. He smiled, no, more like smirked at me and that was the first sight of how honestly cute I thought him to be.   "See you in Potions," he said and walked out. In potions class I messed up more than usual and I was dreading defense that day. I was not ready to get blown through walls yet, my summer was not completely over. All in the news read the headline 'LORD VOLEMORT RETURNS' and my father seemed to get alot of attention. Now I more than ever was as well, especially from Professor Snape.    "Miss Smith I think you should pay more attention to your measurement and less on writing notes." he said quite strangely. As he was about to take my poetry away Harry did something to upset his natural order and that gave me time to hide my poem.    I headed to Defense and saw that again I had a class with Malfoy, and  when we were called to come to the front and spar for review I knew this was my chance.    I faced Draco and his smirk for the second time in one day ready to do my worst.    "Confundus!" I said loudly. I had to laugh when he deflected the spell with 'Finite Incantatum'.    "Expelliarmus!" he said causing my wand to fly out of my hand. He then used 'Locomotor Mortis' to lock my legs and 'Stupefy' to Finnish me off.    I flew to the opposing wall and held my head. "what happened?" Ginny asked because the class before I had told her that I was going to beat people this year.    "Not sure I was ready.. At least I thought I was."    "Hey Smith meet me after class." Draco said smiling. I was certainly not going to do that. Then I saw it, my poem. It was in Draco's hand and in his line of view, he was reading it.   "MALFOY!!" I ran to retrieve my poem with a desperate attempt, I tackled Draco to the ground.   "Rictusempra." he said tickling me off of him. He stood up and folded the poem and put it into his pocket.   "If you want it back meet me after class." he said sternly. I huffed back into line before the Professor could dare yell at me.   After class I walked out of the class and felt a strong grip on my arm and I was pulled into an empty room. I was thrown to the ground.  "What the hell is this?" Draco said angrily.    "Mine." I said in confusion.   "Don't be sarcastic with me. Why is my name in this poem?"   "I was just writing Malfoy oh my gosh! Why are you yelling at me?" I said standing up and walking toward him. He walked threateningly toward me and I reached for my wand. I suddenly realized it was left in the last class. I backed up with each step he took toward me until I was up against the wall. He got in my face and scowled.    "Do I scare you? Do I intimidate you? I'm going to ask one more time, what the hell is my name doing in your poem?" he said scowling.    "I... I umm.. I'm.. I'm not.. Not scared of you Malfoy." I said with a false sense of courage. He pulled out his want and pointed it at me.    "Rictusempra." he said and smiled at my giggling.    "Fine.. Fine I'll tell you!" I said to get him to stop. He stood in front of the door and I sighed.   "It's because this morning when I saw you I thought you were cute....... But the poem means nothing." I said quite shyly. He again walked toward me intimidatingly and I cringed. He pulled me into an embrace and I collapsed in his arms, shocked and baffled. He just held me for a while and I stood in his arms.    "Your cute too." he said as a blush lightly colored his cheeks. The blush was far from lightly coloring mine as I looked into his blue green eyes. He smirked again and I sighed.    "Don't expect me to just be nice to you.." I said with a smirk.    "Of course not. That would ruin the fun."  YEAR FOUR AND FIVE  These years were hard for me. Draco replaced Ginny as my best friend as she and Harry began dating. I dated Ron Weasly for about two months before I realized his secret obsession for Hermione. Which was alright with me since I broke up with him for that reason alone. Later Professor Mogonogle announce that the Yule Ball was coming and we all set out to learn to dance, find dresses (or the ugly suites for boys), and most importantly dates. I was almost certain I was going to go alone when Draco asked me if I would go with him. I laughed and smirked, replying with a nonchalant  shrug and a yes.    The night of the ball I put on my gown although most peoples eyes were on Hermione. I slid the crimson red dress up over my thighs and tucked my breasts safely inside the strapless dress. The elegant dress fell to the floor and I conjured up a pair of black ballet flats. I pulled my red and black hair into curls and then up into an effortless updo. I asked Ginny to do my makeup and it looked beautiful. I met Malfoy in the main room of the Slytherin house. His eyes grew wide and he stared at me for a long time. His platinum blond hair was free from gel. I was glad he was finally letting his hair fall naturally instead of plastering it to his head like he had the first-third years.    "Well lucky me." he said quietly.    "What?"    "Uh I look stupid. I look Like a bloody fool." he said angrily at the traditional dress for boys. I giggled uncontrollably when he turned around to reveal the suite.    "Oh shut up." he said cringing at his reflection in the mirror. I smiled and he took my arm.    "Ready?" Draco asked stiffly.   "I guess." I said glancing at myself in the mirror. I had never worn such beautiful clothing in my life and I wasn't prepared to wear such an elegant gown.     About an hour later I joined everyone else as we stared at Hermione as she gracefully walked down the steps. She looks beautiful and I looked away wondering where my looks were. I suddenly heard a deep voice whisper in my ear, "no one can measure up to you. Your more beautiful you know." I smiled and looked up to see a face I was not expecting to see. Nevil Longbottom was staring at me smiling. I smiled back.    "Thanks Nevil." I said glad someone had finally said something to me about my looks. He smiled shyly and his smile faded as he walked away. I looked up to see Draco glaring at him.    "Want to dance." he said awkwardly.    "Well I didn't dance with Snape for nothing." I said smiling. He took my hand and we danced awkwardly for several minutes and suddenly a beautiful song came on. He pulled me close and we began to dance close for a while.    "This is lame," Draco said suddenly, "come with me."  He took my hand and led me out side and on to a bridge. We sat on the edge and I laid my head on his shoulder. I looked up at him.   "Your so tall." I said smiling, and he was at year four he was at least 6'0 tall. He smiled and looked into my eyes.  "Yeah it runs in the family." All that I had hoped for that night never happened. We never kissed and nothing blossomed. We remained best friends.    The fifth year was absolutely horrible. Headmaster Dumbledore was arrested and we gained a new one, headmaster Umbrage. She was an evil woman. I missed hugging my friends but according to the rules set that wasn't allowed. One day she confronted me.   "Miss Smith where are you going?" she asked.    "Potions class with professor Snape." I said sweetly.   "Well I think you should come with me." she said. It seemed harmless enough. I followed her to her office. Standing in the office was Crab, Goyal, Draco and a few others I didn't know. She asked us to help her figure out what Harry was doing with all of the children and in return we wouldn't be punished anymore. They all excepted but I snuck out and ran down the hall way. I was trying to tell Harry of the people against him. I heard the kids file into the hallway.    "Come back here!" Umbrage yelled after me. I stopped in my tracks but didn't move.    "Detention Miss Smith."    "Why? Because I won't submit to your detective squad against my friends?" I said angrily.    "Mr. Malfoy go bring her to me." she said with a smirk. He stood there stammering and stuttering. "NOW!" she yelled. He cringed at the sudden change in tone. I could tell he didn't want to at all.    "Don't bother." I said walking back into her office shoulder tapping her hard. She grabbed my arm and stood me in front of her. She back handed me hard and I fell the the ground. I clutched my wounded face and I looked at the floor.    "Your detention will be served tomorrow after class until 4." she said collected and calmly. I looked up with tears in my eyes at Draco but he was motioned inside. Goyal grabbed me by the waist, picked me up, and threw me over his shoulder. He took me inside and restrained me to a chair with rope and Umbrage confiscated my wand. All I could do to stay sane was close my eyes and detach myself from reality for a while.      A day later i was in that same chair for an hour and a half using a special pen to write I will obey Headmaster Umbrage. It was the most painful experience of my  life. I cried because every word I wrote in the paper was engraved into my wrist. I screamed as the blood gushed onto the paper.    "What is this?" I said with tears in my eyes.   "I will obey Headmaster Umbrage." she said repeatedly. I sat there for an hour and a half having words carved into my skin. As I left all that showed of the earlier painful gashes was a little scar.    "HAYLIE WAIT! We found out what they were doing and well I am so sorry I couldn't save you." Draco said with a painful look on his face. He saw the new scar and grabbed my wrist. He looked in my eyes with pain in his.   "What did she do to you." I pulled my wrist away and walked for a while but I couldn't stay mad at him. I collapsed to my knees and cried into my hands.    "OH. DRA...DRACO IT WASS.. AWFUL!" I said into my hands and felt two strong hands on my shoulders.    "I am so sorry.. " he said with tears in his eyes. He stood up and ran to the bathroom. I walked into the dining hall. Later I saw Draco walk into the Dining hall and Harry stared him down. All of a sudden Draco walked out distraught. Harry walked out after him and I walked out after them. I waited for a while and saw Snape rush into the bathroom as Harry ran out. They brought Draco out on a stretcher his blood now covering the hall ways. I found Harry in the hall later.    "WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM!" I screamed at him.    "what?" he said calmly.    "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO TO MALFOY?" i screamed louder not caring that everyone was looking at me. I did care that Snape was holding me back. I didn't care that Umbrage was about to punish me. Nothing but Draco mattered right now. Harry walked away with Hermione and Ron. Before Umbrage could even punish me I blew her aside and I ran out side to Hagrid. I collapsed in front of the door and Hagrid came out and carried me in side.    "Alright what is wrong?" he said in his deep comforting voice.    "He.. He.. He's hurt and I don't.. I can't help him.."    "Who Harry?!" he said in a panicked concerned voice.    "N..no. Draco." I said almost unable to get his name out before I passed out.     I woke up in the infirmary with Draco at my bed side.    "Hey you." he said with a smile.    "Draco! Your okay." I said confused.    "Yeah magic is a pretty cool thing ya know. I heard what you did. Yelling at Potter and all." he said with a smile. I smiled back and sat up only to be gently pushed back by the hand of Draco. I looked at him confused.   "Rest." he said concerned. Later that day I found out why Harry chased him and how Draco got hurt. I was better by the end of the day and I hung out with Crab and Draco in the Slytherin house all night.    "Hey Haylie the three of us should play truth or dare." Crab said smirking.    "Okay hey Crab truth or dare?" I said while eating Chinese.   "Dare." He retorted.    "I dare you to say one positive thing about me." I said curiously.    "Um.. Okay I Uhh like your hair." he said awkwardly.    "Thanks," I said, "your turn."   "Malfoy truth or dare?"   "I don't wanna play." Draco said shyly.    "Oh come onnnn." Crab said pressingly.    "I said no!" he said more sternly. I smiled and made bawking chicken noises at him.   "Fine," he said,"Truth."    "Who is the prettiest girl in school?" Crab said with a smirk.   "Uhh.." Draco hesitated and glanced in my direction, "pass."   "You make things so difficult." I said with a awkward look on my face. Suddenly we saw a face at the window. Long platinum blond hair, blue green eyes and a scowl on his face.    "Father?" Draco said shocked    "Mr. Malfoy?" I said equally shocked. Before another word was uttered Lucius Malfoy was in front of us along with several Death eaters. Crab was unconscious and i  was hiding behind Draco. Lucius spoke nonsense for a while before he told Draco that we'd be leaving for a night. I was frightened and I was lifted from the ground by a death eater and thrown over Lucius Malfoy's shoulder. Draco followed close behind and we headed into the dark forest. I was set on the ground in front of a dark figure. I screamed and ran when I saw who exactly it was. In one swift command I was returned to him by two death eaters.    "You do not remember me child?" Voldemort said softly.    "Wh.. how do I know you?"    "Maybe it's the name change." he said in a more sad tone. I stood up slowly looking hard into the dark lord's face.    "Tom? Tom Riddle?" I said and took a step back.   "Yes child." He said a smile arising onto his face. I ran to him excitedly and I hugged him tightly. He picked me up and spun me around as Draco and Lucius stood still shocked.    "I thought you died!" I said as if talking to a long lost brother.   "I'm back. You look more and more like your mother every day." he said reminiscing. Draco grabbed my arm and then was thrown to the ground by Tom.    "What do you think your doing." Before  he could do much more I was at Draco's side.    "No Tom don't hurt him!" I yelled.   "My name is not Tom. It hasn't been for a long time."    "It has been in my family for generations." I said sadly. Draco looked at me shocked.    "You know the boy your friends with was almost killed by him right." Draco  said and then was immediately back handed by Lucius.    "Shut up stupid boy and respect your dark lord." Lucius scolded.    "Yes father I was just stating a fact." Draco shot back.    "Wait why did you call me here?" I asked nervously at the mention of Harry Potter.    "I need you to bring Harry Potter to me." Voldemort said forthright. I shook my head saying 'I won't do it I won't do it' over and over again. Draco relaxed a bit even though he was supposed to be becoming a death eater. I sighed and ran from my father's old friend. I ran as fast as I could and right into another death eater. He brought be back to Voldemort and it was difficult for me too look into the eyes of the famous murderer.    "Keep running your only going to tire yourself out child." he said chuckling.    "We have to get back or Umbrage will hurt me again." I said looking away.    "Okay fine I'll send you back. What you do is on you child but I would hate to have to kill my best friend's kin." he said motioning for us to return to the school.     Nothing was the same for the rest of the year. Umbrage disappeared and Dumbledore returned. Serious black turned out to be innocent and Harry's uncle. YEAR SIX (Final Year)     Draco and I were bound to each other after the night in the woods.    "Hey welcome back." Draco said with a huge smile on his face. He was much taller and stronger this year. He had changed so much over the years, I could of swore I was looking into the younger version of Lucius. In fact I was.    "Thanks love." I said smiling. We walked together to class as usual. Everything was back to normal, well almost. Every time I saw Harry in the halls I looked away. I couldn't bare the thought of killing him even if we weren't close. I learned that my father was a death eater and he showed me his dark mark and mine as well. I was fearful to find that Draco was as well.    "Hey Haylie meet me at Hagrid's in ten minutes."  Draco said slyly.   "You want to skip class?" I said and realized how much like Hermione I sounded.    "Never mind Granger." he teased.    "No way I'll be there." I said smiling. I ran to Hagrid's house and inside. Draco sat there on a big chair, his legs crossed and his head resting on his hand.    "Where's Hagrid?" I said curiously ignoring how absolutely sexy he looked right now.    "He lent his house to me for this period." he said smiling. I was confused and oddly frightened. He stood up and pushed me against the wall. I looked up at him his eyes now full of life. He put his hands on the wall by either side of my head and pressed his lips hard against mine. I tried to protest but he said 'shhh'. He kissed me again this time more gently and I kissed back. We kissed for about ten minutes and I finally pushed away.    "What the hell was that?!" I asked shocked.    "What was what?" he said with his famous smirk.    "The kissing."    "Well you did kiss back you know, and very well I might add." he winked at me and I couldn't help but blush, "look I'm tired of pretending like the feelings are not there. They are, and well I love you.." He said confidently.    "You l..love me?" I said quietly.   "DUH!" This time I kisses him. I caught him off guard and we both fell but that didn't stop the kissing. We kisses through potions, defense, and lunch. We didn't stop until Hagrid came in after hours. Draco was on top of me and Hagrid lifted him from me.    "I said one class not all day." Hagrid said disappointed.    "Bloody hell what time is it?" Draco said looking at the wall clock.    "It's about 5." Draco thanked him and grabbed my hand. We ran back to the Slytherin house and he asked me If I would be his. I nodded and he lifted me off the ground twirling us around. All year that year we were together. Everyone looked in the halls and everyone spoke about us. We never cared and nothing stopped us. Until the war. Harry came back to the school around the end of the year to warn us of the war.    It all happened so fast. Dumbledore was dead.  We fought death eaters as hard as we could and finally it ended. Voldemort dropped Harry in front of us. They'd won. He called for all of the children to cross over or die. The Malfoys' called Draco over. He held my hand tight and Voldemort looked at me. He was victorious and yet still his eyes were sad. My father stepped from the death eaters and called me. Draco and I began to walk over and I cried all the way. Then it happened, Harry awoke. There in front of us all Harry Potter killed Voldemort for good. My father fled along with all other death eaters. Our years of Hogwarts were over.    It's been a few years now. Harry and Ginny have a son. Ron and Hermione has several children, and me you ask. I have no children but Draco and I are still trying. That was my story. What's yours?        

Aug 18 2012, 01:49 PM

I feel like I am being really bipolar lately. I feel like I am so unwanted and I realize I should at least ATEMPT to see beauty in myself, when I try all I can do Is look away and try. Life is hard to take sometimes and I know it won't always be sunshine and butterflies, but it also shouldnt always be a dark cloud.