Dec 11 2013, 11:48 PM

I sit here and listen to all the music I can to get my mind off the fact that my parents aren't together anymore and it just kills me inside and I just really want them back together. I know I may sound like a little baby but ever since the haven't been together I have been the outcast of the family and I am the one that gets ignored. my siblings are the only ones that get any attention from my mother and my father and I just here and dewell in the pain that I have been in. when people at school see me they call me a barbi doll because they all think that I have the perfect like when really deep down they don't know the pain I am going through. they don't see all the cuts on my arms they don't see how many bottles I put back every day. they don't see that I am dying inside and that it is a matter of time till the day comes that I am not going to be able to suppress the voices in my head telling me that I am not good enough for anyone anymore. yes people at school think that I am this beautiful barbi, but this is my fifth school since my freshman year. ever school I have gone to I have always gotten picked on and gotten into a fight. when ever I move all the haterid that was at the other school fallowed me. it just seems like no matter what I do for anyone its not good enough and that I am just this major mess up.. I just want someone to understand me. I feel like I am alone in this all and that one day all this teasing and pain will be to much to handle. if anyone is out there please save me from my suffering.