Jun 18 2014, 04:53 PM

Hey guys what's up. I'm at my grandma's right now. Summer sucks , school sucks, LIFE FUCKING SUCKS!!!!! WHY CANT ANYTHING WORK OUT RIGHT FOR ME!!! God dammit! I just started to get over this guy breaking up with me, then I say I miss him? What the fuck is wrong with me! We're back together. But I FUCKING hate our relationship because we're live so far apart, but I fucking crave his attention. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why am I like this? Why can't I stop!!!??? I need help, right?

May 26 2014, 03:52 PM

Hey guys. I'm back. and guess what!!!!I'm feeling way better then before. no more cutting. I feel way different, and I guess kind of happy. I mean, I still get pretty sad and stuff, but its way better then before. I think........I don't know, maybe this is just a way for me to deal with all the shit that's going on right now. Juts thinking I'm okay. tell me what you guys think. My birth moms starting to talk to me again. And to be honest, I don't want to talk to her. Everything was just getting good, and I'm afraid that she'll fuck everything up. Help me out guys. I need it.

Mar 14 2014, 11:33 PM

I fucking hate my dad now, he's drunk, he's a dick, he's controlling. I wish he would go back to the oil feild right now. This is just like Eric , Eric is my bio dad, he beat my mom when I was young, and I fear that things from my past are coming back to haunte me. If the is a god, please help me! And all of my friends, please send me your words of love and tell me how to get though this, I need your help. My cousin is pending the night with me tonight, and she's hearing everything that my mom and dad are saying. This isn't just hurting me, it's hurting her too. Her mom use to be married to this guy named jeff, jeff was a total dick he use to hit her mom, my mom had to get her from her home and let her live with us. Her mom had three kids at the time, her, curly her brother and Lilly there sister. She really loved her dad, so I think that this is hurting her to. Send me and her your love guys. JINXS

Mar 05 2014, 08:54 PM

I'm so tired, don't know how much longer I can do this. STARRS test is coming soon and I can't afford to fail. I'm studying my ass off. I'll stay up till1 or 2 in the morning, go to sleep, then wake up at 5 to study and do extra Credit. I don't want to live with a middle income, I want to be better then what I am now. I want to be the best, the smartest, the one everyone calls a nerd. And making time for friends and family isn't easy ether!! Guess what I'm going to be doing spring break!! IM GOING TO BE FUCKING STUDYING!!!!!!!! And I can't if my cousin is coming over! I won't be able to focus on my work, I can't think straight anymore. Maybe ill ask my friend Patrick if he can help me study!! Yeah that's what I'll do, and me and him can work on our song for choir!!! What do you think I should do, I need sleep, I need to study, I need my friends and family. What the hell am I supposed to do! If I don't study then I'll never get in to a great college and make the most of my life. If I don't make time for my family, then I'll be pushing them all away and be hurting them. If I don't make time for my friends, then they will feel like I gave up on our friendship and ditched them. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!! I need to fucking sleep. Goodnight guy

Feb 19 2014, 07:41 PM

ok so sorry for not writing, I've been going through a lot of things. im cutting again, I don't know if ill ever be able to stop. there's so much pain, like my friend is dating gage (the guy I've liked since fifth grade), and she knew that I liked him, she asked if it was ok with me. in the inside I feel betrayed, but my answer was 'yeah, im fine with it!'. im failing 4 of my classes, my mom yelled at me, I feel ugly, stupid, lame, and just worthless. every time I smile, I know the smiles a lie, something I can put on so people wont ask or find out about the scars on wrist. I feel so alone, I don't know what to do anymore. I don't trust my mom or dad to help me, im afraid my friends will leave me if they find out. I just want to disappear.

Nov 09 2013, 11:15 AM

ok well im back. and I have to say I haven't been cutting anymore. instead I've found my self into witchcraft and voodoo stuff. its really interesting and cool. im all reading in a covern with other witches. and guess what I found out about my family. ok well I known I've been adopted ever since I was little, so I did a little research and found out my great, great, great, great grandmother was a witch. but sadly was staked and killed. we look so much alike. its kind creepy. but then again I love creepy things. and im not afraid to try a little spell or two and my mom find out. I already told my grandmother on my dads side that I wanted witch books for Christmas. well that's all I got for now. so bye JINX

Nov 07 2013, 05:07 AM

ok, well I'm still cutting myself. But my mom doesn't know that im doing it again. im not sure how long I can keep this up, one of my friends have already said something to me about it, and honestly I don't want to lose them. my friends are all I've got right now. I wish I could be with people like me who, I guess that's why I come here, I don't know? I got a solo in choir so I guess that's good. I mean ive always been good at singing, but ...... well...... I don't know anymore. well good bye guys JINX

Oct 26 2013, 06:44 AM

ok well we found the keys so I guess my luck is being turned around:) for now at lest. Im going to a Halloween party tonight after I go to a baby shower so yay me.( of course I was only going to go if we found the keys so...) going to have so much fun with my friends . oh and haven't cut for a while pray that I did submit to the pressure JINX

Oct 25 2013, 09:15 AM

ok well my mom doesn't know about me cutting again, so I am in the clear for now. but I have to tell you guys something, JINX isn't just a profile name. its a family nick name. and right now I am living up to it. first I lost my moms keys( we've looked every where, we even weeded the back yard to see if I dropped them outside)then I made the electricity go out now my whole street ( I stomped and the second after it went out) then the cat got out. and then I spilt my moms coffee. no you guys know why I cut. I am such a screw up. even my friends call me JINX. what's with me? why cant I do anything right? why cant I just die? JINX

Oct 23 2013, 07:59 PM

my name is jinx. I am 13 years old and live in a very small town. my mom found out I was cutting myself about 3 weeks ago. and even though I know its bad for me , I have these sudden urges to cut. I have just recently cut and I don't know what to think about it. in some ways I am relieved to get out my pain and anger. in other ways I am sad about my parents reaction if they find out about me cutting again. some one send a prayer my way god knows im gonna need it