I'm addicted to the wind as it blows me back and forth mindless, spineless and pretend of course ill be here again see you tomorrow but it's the end of today end of my ways as a walking denial my trial was filed as a crazy suicidal head case addict with a pen, by Twenty One Pilots
Cinder
22 / Female / Minnesota, United States
Pansexual / Single
Member since:
Jan 31, 2016
Last online:
Feb 07, 2024
Current rating: 10.0/10 (1 votes cast)
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About Me
Ummm... I'm a human, how the f am I supposed to describe myself in basic categories to a stranger?! Well, to start with, I like animals, anime, manga, music, drawing, I don't hang out with many people, I've been told I'm pretty smart, I identify as gender fluid, and if you want to know more about me, feel free to ask, no guarantees on an answer. I'm also pretty shy but once you break me out of my shell and earn my trust I promise it will be worth your time to have done so. If we can hold a conversation on here I will gladly give you my discord or snap
Favourite Music
Our Common Collapse, Trivium, Slipknot, Black Veil Brides, Fit for Rivals, Motionless in White, Everclear, AC-DC, As It Is, and a lot more. I will listen to almost anything outside of country music.
Favourite Films / TV / Books
V for Vendetta, The Matrix, Men in Black, D-gray man, Star Wars, anime, Supernatural, and a ton others
Education / Occupation
I hope to go back to college next fall
Who I'd Like To Meet
Fun people who understand sarcasm, can take a bit of crap, and will stick around for a while
Maybe I am the reason why no one wants to be near me for more than a few sentences. Who am I kidding? At this point it has to be me. Honestly, I don't blame them for not wanting to associate with me.
I am so done with everyone telling me I am not good enough. I get it. I am worthelss in your eyes but at this point in my life I could not care less about you. But if you could stop reminding me everyday about how much I suck at everything it would be great.
It is amazing how alone I feel in a room full of people who say they care about me. I gave them whatever they wanted without question for years but yet in the few times where I really need them they walk away as if I never meant anything to them.
I was really worried that something happened to him after he failed to reply for days and the last time that happened something really bad had happened. But it turns out he is just deciding not to talk to me for a reason I cannot figure out. So thanks for the fucking panic attacks. Glad you are not dead. Would have been better if you would have just said that rather than me having to dig to find that out. But maybe he will decide to reply within the next week.
I'm sorry to everyone and everything that I have left for what seems to be no reason this past year. I had to save myself more this time than I ever have had to before and I am sorry if I left you feeling abandoned and alone. I wish I could say that I am back but I can't. My pace towards destruction is only excellerating and I am still just trying to find a ledge to stop myself on. If I find that ledge, I will have to stop on it to try and fix myself enough to be able to fake being ok but even that will take a while. I am sorry. So sorry. I am sorry I left but I will never again say I am sorry for trying to save myself.
