Nov 14 2024, 10:32 AM

It's still cloudy and rainy, that makes me think and reflect, about my actions and who I became, melancholy remembering those days when I was happy and I didn't know it, the month of November is special for me, apart because it's autumn, it was my late father's birthday at the end of November, which I remember was always a present, loving and kind father in life, although it's been 12 years since he passed away, I always keep my father in mind and try to be the best version of myself, so that he'll be proud.

Well it's cold I'll go get some hot chocolate, although a song that I remember my father loved was: Making Love Out of Nothing at All - Air Supply, it's a nice song really, although I prefer to recommend this song: November Rain - Guns N' Roses. 

Nov 13 2024, 11:15 AM

Well, the day has been quiet, I can say, although I don't know why I feel sleepy so early, I can't wait for Saturday to go out for pizza 🍕

Nov 09 2024, 01:39 PM

I woke up in a good mood for the first time this week, which I spent very overwhelmed and stressed by university, and the most ironic thing was that I woke up early without being forced to, hasn't it happened to you too?

Nov 08 2024, 12:11 PM

I don't know, but it's selfish to feel that I have the right to choose what I want for my life!

I ask this because my mother thinks that by getting me "a prince charming" she will be able to solve my problems, but what I need is a psychologist to talk to, and I also think that I am self-sufficient enough to make my own decisions.

I don't want to just be a submissive who gets chosen who to be with, that makes me angry.

Nov 07 2024, 10:17 AM

I don't know, yesterday I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, my student ID was torn, the university bus had left me, and I had to take the second bus, which left me at a stop there, because that bus was going in the other direction, I had to walk for about 20 minutes because there were no buses until I could take one, in order to have cash I had to ask a friend to lend me about $5 to go, before that a professor with whom I had a pending exam didn't let me leave early and I got into trouble, when I arrived I simply started crying when I got home, I had lunch and slept most of the afternoon.

Just a relief when writing this, because gosh I felt terrible yesterday, and today everything was calmer.

Nov 03 2024, 11:50 AM

Well, the mornings are still cold, and lately I have been feeling melancholy remembering what I longed for a while ago.

I won't deny that I miss people who were part of my memories, something I call special.

Did I do something wrong in taking my responsibilities more seriously than staying up late talking to friends? It's not that I wanted to get away, but I have duties to fulfill.

Do you think I distance myself simply because I want to, when it's not like that? I hope that one day I won't have these misunderstandings anymore, but it's just that I have a life too...

Nov 02 2024, 11:24 AM

Well it's still morning, Halloween has already passed, it's still a bit cold and I don't know why I woke up at 6am on a Saturday, I was thinking, the last thing I remember is my mother giving me some tea in the afternoon before I went to sleep, well I hope everything goes well for me today.

Lately I don't understand why, to be honest, and because of my lack of free time, some people have stopped talking to me, is that part of growing up or is it that people don't wanna know me anymore???

Oct 30 2024, 10:29 AM

Tomorrow is Halloween and I would like everyone to have a good time 🎃💜🍬♪

Oct 24 2024, 02:47 AM

I feel tired of repressing my emotions, sometimes I feel like it consumes me inside and affects me all that poison of resentment for actions that I would have liked to control, but although it sounds childish that they repress something as simple as going out with friends to the mall, without the accompaniment of a family member, it stresses me out already, I know I have Asperger's, but I'm not a stupid person either!

I HATE with all my being, having to live hiding that I go out from time to time without permission, without caring what my exaggerated mother says, instead of loving myself I sometimes feel a little harassed by her, I prefer to remain silent than to talk about what I have inside, I'm not a bad person, but I would like to be normal, that's a sin!

If you're reading this then I wanted to de-stress, I don't expect someone to play psychologist with me, but I would like someone who listens to me as a sincere friend. 

Oct 18 2024, 03:49 AM

Well it's a bit late at night, and I'm thinking between wanting to be alone to have time for my hobbies, while some told me I was selfish for that, but I'm a free being at least when I want or don't want to dedicate my time to something or someone, sometimes I don't know, but people being stubborn stresses me out a lot, I know that in the past I was cloying, but my current self prefers everything in its time and don't overwhelm me because sometimes I'm not so stable, that many times I walk away before wanting to come and insult someone in their face and tell them what I think, it's inevitable for me to be like this but I'm sincere.

I'm not perfect okay, I have my mistakes that make me human, but it's not for one to judge and criticize oneself all the time, many in this society live with their ego high, but I imagine that many of us here, are aware of our virtues and defects, and we are as humble and kind as possible, as long as they don't contradict us. That's my thinking.

Well before I say goodbye, I think that you who read this, listen to: Diary Of Jane - Breaking Benjamin.