I always ask myself, when will this go away? All of this pain, will it go away? I just want to leave this place behind every time I see your face in mine.. Keep Myself Alive, by Get Scared
Kate
28 / Female / East Yorkshire / Midlands /South Wales, United Kingdom
Straight
Member since:
Apr 22, 2012
Last online:
Sep 21, 2019
Current rating: 6.8/10 (6 votes cast)
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About Me
Rubbish at spelling & has some crazy blonde moments :p BUT an epic friend who has left her mark, literally - Matt
^Not blonde anymore ;)
Said to be like the offspring of Wednesday Addams and Bugs Bunny..
like -Hair Dye,Thunder storms, Castles/ruins, Cars, Rallying,
Fitness training, the beach, graveyards, Art, Mystery, Psychology, Gigs, Italian food, Being outside at night,
Gothic architecture, Green tea,Real ale, Books/reading, Forestry type places, talking to Interesting people, Messing about with friends, Exploring, Hiking, discovering/learning new things and Sarcasm...
Dislike:Bullies, spiders, jealousy, road sweepers, long periods of bad weather, spammers,
having a tan/bright sunlight, e-books, milky coffee (why ruin a perfectly good drink ?! o.0) and manipulative people
If there’s anything else you want to know/if you want some advice or are having a "get something off your chest" moment
feel free to send me a PM and i'll do my best to help/listen to you =)
Rainbows, spooky stuff and Batty waffle :')
Favourite Music
! Don't forget to support your local music scene and record stores !
Listen to
Most music genres but
prefer alternative music in the goth/punk - metal side of things
3 days grace, 2cellos, A static Lullaby, Asking Alexandria, A Day To Remember, Alkaline trio, Amaranthe, AFI, Avenged Sevenfold, AlterBrige, Acid Ballet,Bullet for my valentine, Black Sabbath, Blessthefall, British lion ,Billy Idol, BVB, Breaking Benjamin,Chiodos, Christian Death, CrashDiet,Canterbury, Cradle of filth,CrossFade, Chiodos, Capture the crown,Devil Driver,D.R.U.G.S, Devilment, Draughty, DeathStars, Evanesance, Eve, Fallout Boy ,Escape the fate,Funeral for a friend, Finch , Five finger death punch, For all those sleeping , Five fold,From Autumn to Ashes, Fit for rivals, Good Charlotte, Gallows, Hatebreed, Harwthorn heights, Halestorm, Icon for hire,In flames, Iron maiden,In League With lions, Jimmy Eat World,Killing the crowned Empire,KISS,Linkin Park, Lamb of god,Let live, Like Moths to flames,Lacuna Coil,Mötley Crüe, MCR, Mayday parade, Machine head, Motor head, Mastodon,Memphis May Fire, Matchbook Romance, Monsters I've Met, Mineral, Miss May I , Metallica,Motionless In White ,My Darkest days,Nightwish,New found glory ,Our last night, Orange goblin, Opeth,Oh The Irony, Orison, Papa Roach, Pink Floyd, Pantera, Rise Against, Reckless love,Rise to remain, Rolling stones ,Rise against, Silverstein, Shinedown, Story's End, Sex pistols, Sliversun Pickups, Slayer, Saosin, Suicide silence, Skillet, Sound Garden, System of a down, State your cause,Sick puppies,Senses Fail, Story of the year, The last word, The Saddest Landscape, Twin Atlantic, The Maine,Trust Company,The Early November, Thrice, That sunday feeling, Trivium, W.A.S.P,William Control, Young Guns, Venom..Plus loads more!
♪ Feel free to message me listening/band suggestions ♪
Seen live
Rammstein [piros out of this world] / Nickelback / The Mercy House (x2) / Black Sabbath (with matt) / In Dantes Eclipse (acoustic set ) / Fury / Hell's Addiction (x2) / ACODA (worcester music fest '15) // Twin Atlantic //Kerrang! Tour 2013 - Birmingham O2 14.2.13Black Veil Brides / Chiodos / Fearless Vampire Killers / Tonight Alive / William Control //Lacuna Coil & Motionless in White Co headline tour/ Devilment - Birmingham institute 5.11.14 [what a night! ] // In This Moment (Black Widow tour) -Wolverhampton Slade Rooms 5.03.15 Fearless Vampire Killers [x2] / Starset <3 // Worcester Music Festival 2015 19-20th September (Bands i saw from both days line ups..in NO set order ) Pre Sleep Monologue (one of my favorite bands from the saturday) / Rosebud <3 /Young Causeway / Giants <3 / Vault of Eagles / Flatline / Ebony Clay / Attila the Stockbroker / Bren Haze (x2) / dead frequency / The loved and lost / The broken Oak Duet (x2) //Hawthorne Heights (if only you were lonely tour) 24.8.16 Birmingham O2 academy room 3 Ashes to Angles / Milestones UK // Humber Street Shesh 2017 5th August- Kings Horses/Wake up in Vegas /Years Young/Earthbreaker/Abandon the night/The escape artist/ Dividum <3/Of Allies <3/Rectifier /Fossa// HIM (Bang and Whimper - Farewell tour) 16.12.17 Manchester Academy // Dream State 18.2.17 The New Adelphi Club Chapter and Verse <3 / Liberatae Mae // St Agnes 22.2.17 The New Adelphi clubDead Hormones/ Fallen Idol // Public Image LTD 18.6.18 Huu// SlamDunk (North) 2018 26.5.18 - This Time Last Year <3 /The Dangerous Summer/ Loathe <3 / Brutality Will Prevail/ Say Anything <3/ Save Ferris/ Capdown <33/ZebraHead <33/ Lower Than Atlantis/Northlane <3/ Taking Back Sunday/ Jimmy Eat World <333//
PolarBear (Humber Sesh)- 27.1.17 Let man loose/ Brooder/ Rectifier (x2 at this point)// 11.2.17 Dead! <3/ The Kenneths/ Delta Vega <3 // 27.2.17 Three Day Millionaires <3/ Glass Mountain// 20.3.17 No Nothings/ Brosnan/ Electro Void <3/ Alex Fish <3 // 15.5.18 The Evil Litter/ Cosmo Calling/Codex+ second place// 8.5.18 Modern Mood Swings/Kit Trigg // 22.5.18 counting coins/The hot soles/Rei Gayaamie//12.6.18 Polo/Ambiere <3 / FINNO//
The New Adelphi club - 18.2.17 Dream State / Chapter and verse <3/ Liberatae Mae//22.2.17 St Agnes/ Dead Hormones/ Fallen Idol// 08.3.17 HABITS <3 /Nour/ Apparition// 22.3.17 The Piper/ Nour (x2) /The Avenues //
Store signings/band meet and greets
Blood on the dance floor - blue banana store signing 16/11/12
(^ dragged along by a mate)
Asking Alexandria - blue banana store signing 10/2/13
Hawthorne Heights and Ashes to Angles 24/8/16
( ^ Intimate gig < 100 people , amazing night and down to earth bands!)
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"My music library is too big" said No one.
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Favourite Films / TV / Books
Education / Occupation
University >.<
Lets hope this new degree goes better than the last!
haha no wonder why parents didn't want me on the family emails today ...
I wondered why there's a gig information email in the inbox thing marked important =P
Turns out to be VIP tickets to see Black Sabbath at Birmingham LG in September..
have a feeling that might possibly be my 17th for this yr /celebration of end of GCSE's ..or i at least hope it is =)
we'll see ...
i never really know what to expect from my parents tbh
Friday will you hurry up !! <3
hmmm
yet if half term ..easter what ever you call it has done anything it's given me time to expand my knowlege and look deeper into the ''emo'' roots
besides from introducing me to new bands okay all be them older some no longer together
that i now like and have added to various play lists
this one article came across my attenshion ..
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/7425450.stm
written in back 08 when this site 1st started
(before i knew about it )
and has a small input from Admin on..
oh well back to work
great day out today =D
but this seemingly un-nameable feeling is getting on my nerves slightly more now..
do i or don't i??
this is becoming ridiculously complex now...will my head ever make sense?
....
why do i get that sickening feeling something is about to go drastically wrong here ?
I just..okay ..
in all honesty i really don't know how i cope.
Some crazy way i seem to be able to act strong and be that 'Kate' everyone knows
whether it's just the fact i've been in this game too long that it's natural to me or what idk ..i dread to think
but in all honesty ..
i just wish i didn't have to front things..
yhea there's the strong kid everyone knows, everyone see's...
but in reality i'm not ..
facing the truth , face on hurts and i'm not going to deny there's people on here who have seen sides of me, i some what wish they hadn't and yes there's probably a large handful of you reading this going -
'what the actual f*** , what is this kid on about ..she seemed fine ealier '
and other's of you going-
'she always pulls through when she say's this '
but this time
i seriously don't think i can
Parents are trying to force me back into hospital
as apparently i'm too unpredictable and difficult to cope with and yhea to be frank they might as well god damn label me psychiatric as another bloody name in the works will make no difference...
and to be brutally honest with myself..it may all be fine and dandy dishing out advice , but when you can't even take your own..it makes you think
i just wish it didn't have to be this way ..
all these thoughts and feelings in my head ,none of them making any sense at all added to a whirl wind of emotions and words i can not seem to decipher or deliver
pretty much locked within my head that's already on the edge of doing stupid shit and it's starting to show ..
and it dose scare me knowing what i'm capable off and worse is i know i can do more which is enough to turn anyone's soul to stone.
I just can't see a way out anymore.
I've become trapped in this circle where i'm dependent on self harm and neglect to get me through the day
and now i've had all my music medians taken away
(headphones,CD's, data cards etc and all music streamers/ radio blocked )
i feel dead and pretty lost and trapped well beyond what i've felt/ have been before.
the thing is there is no escape and i guess only time will tell if i hold out through this or not..
the amount of caffeine i've had today is literally insane .. 4 cans of monster energy and 5 mugs of strong coffee should be enough to send even the sanest of soul bouncing off the walls but yet some how i still feel drained, physically and mentally..
that was a fucking arwsome night !!!!
my first taste of a mosh pit and the small circle pit at the front were great ...i ache a bloody lot ..but fuck it ive probably brusied in places i didn't think possible...just hoping the felt pen will come off my face ready for tmoz ...
Nice to meet up with my gig buddies ,peeps from the AA sighinig and the other amazimg people from this site =p
oh well im far to hyper to sleep still...ears are ringing as i made it to the front eventualy but yhea ... not going to forget today in a hurry
Was worth 6hrs of queuing outside blue banana today =D
the guys from AA were really friendly (even if they were running late ) and i've now got another huge poster signed to my parents dismay
Can't wait for the K! tour on Thursday =P
*dance*
I got a place offer ..just have to attend the info evening and induction day now =P
Ik school want me to stay but i don't want to as it's hell and this 6th from college is better suited to me tbh and i need a change
but yhea i'm in a good mood for once =D
watching a documentary on art and the history colour
the part about white is actually rather interesting
'the colour of perfection and beauty is also the colour of danger and distress '
really interesting ... going back to watching it
bye
xXx
