Mess E
25 / Female / Georgia, United States
Forever Alone
Member since:
Oct 04, 2022
Last online:
Jan 08, 2025
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About Me
I’m a college student and I’m also in the army. I’ve pretty much been a loner my whole life. My mother who is the only family member that I know has a bit of a cold personality so I never learned how to socialize properly except for a few friendships that disappeared quickly. This is why I think I fit the mold of what you would call emo even if I don’t always look like it. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about my personal feelings so I thought that I would use this place as a sort of journal that people could interact with so I don’t feel so lonely. I’ll try to make my boring life as entertaining as possible. 🙂
I like to color, paint my nails, play my guitar and write.
I went to a bar by myself for the first time last weekend. I didn’t plan for it but I just ended up there because every other place was closed down in this mildly dying town. I had already paid for an uber there so I might as well walk around. After that I walked to the park and read some books on the swing. I did that till some creeps started walking towards me, then I left. I did manage to find a few mini libraries though, hope whoever finds the mini library next likes my taste in books. Here’s what I ate at the bar.
Going pescatarian has been going pretty well so far. I did make a few New Year’s resolutions. Have a healthier diet, workout 3 times a week, get straight A’s blah, blah, blah. I would say I would try to make some friends but at this point I’ve completely given up on that shit and resigned to my life as a lone wolf 😭 I did manage to save this past semester so I’m hoping to start buying my supplies to craft the jewelry I want to sell. I just don’t wanna rush into it especially since I haven’t graduated yet and I’m still working with the military, but I know sometimes you just gotta jump in to take the next step in life.
I like going to local band’s concerts. The only problem is I have no one to go with. This is a problem because of creeps (men). They are aggressive and follow me around when I’m alone. I have pepper spraying and I can kick someone in the nuts pretty well but it still sucks to deal with when you’re trying to have fun. Here’s my latest YouTube video 🖤
I’m alone in the house now ✨ My mom went to visit her sister for New Years. I could have gone but I didn’t really want to go. You see due to the “circumstances” of my birth I’ve always been a bit of a black sheep to my aunt and her bougie family. They are my only family members that I know besides my mom so I just avoid seeing them cause I don’t like being treated that way. It’s cool though. I’m going to cause all kinds of chaos now that I have the house to myself.
I got a lot of cool things for Christmas and I hope you did too. I made a MCR mug.
Also look at my nails. I love this new nail polish I got. I’m going to run it into the ground.
I went to my first ever maid cafe on Saturday. It was super fun and the food was great. We played games and I got a crown. Udon is really great in the cold weather.
The dessert was great too. Sooo cute. I’m grateful that cute desserts like this don’t exist a lot in my area or else. My sugar problem would be even worse than it is. Lol
I also found some cool stuff at the dollar store while I was there. I found some majestic looking reindeer that I’ve been looking for forever here they are put up on my little witchy altar.
I had some ‘spells’ I cast for winter solstice. Mostly stuff about helping me pass this final part of college and open my business well. I found this cool looking mirror at the dollar store.
I went to the thrift store last night and spent way too much money. 70$ to be exact. Yeah I never get to get in there on a Monday before everything gets picked through so I guess I got a little excited. I found the white dress I’ve been looking for forever. You’d be surprised how versatile it is. I found some suits for work in the men’s section and some nice winter boots as well. Which is a good because I got a new internship and I will ((hopefully)) be graduating soon. Needless to say I’ll be eating out of cans for a while. Speaking of food I’m trying to become a pescatarian. I don’t wanna jump into it to fast but I’m slowly fazing land animals out of my diet.
Did I ever tell you guys I volunteer for the Red Cross? Well I do, and I’m going to help at an old peeps home this week (there was a fire), and I’m weirdly excited about it. I don’t know why I guess I’m just in a good mood. Christmas spirit? lol
This morning I practiced my archery and FINALLY washed my moped. Poor thing needs to be serviced. I was cleaning the front pocket and there was a freaking NEST inside. Like with eggs and everything. Cleaning it out was a harrowing experience.
I sorta crashed a party 🤣 (not really) I went to a lantern festival that was organized for a small community that I am definitely not apart of. I had fun though and I’m mostly sure no one minded. I got to make a lantern and roast marshmallows.
The part that sucks though is that my mom made me sit for some of the most boring movies in the world in the drive in movies afterwards. I had to BEG her to let us leave it was a sad sight but we had already been there for 4 hours and I needed to get out of there by any means necessary. Finals are final over. I’m going to enjoy winter break while it last and I’m not in the mood to let others ruin it. 🖤
A woman pointed at me and covered her kids eyes while calling me ugly 🤣 I’m so proud. I had some ramen from Rock Star Sushi. I love going to that place.
I saw these today. They are soo funny. Toxic message but I love that sometimes 🤣
I went it was sooo fun. I talk more about it HERE one thing I didn’t mention, though was that the audience successfully asked for an encore and that’s when the opening actor asked to be back on stage 🤣