Will Archer
30 / Male / Manchester, United Kingdom
Straight / Single
Member since:
Apr 10, 2012
Last online:
May 17, 2013
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About Me
I'm shy due to the fact that I have very low confidence. I'm usually depressed. I like spending time with friends. If you want to know anything else, just ask. Oh, by the way, if I say i'm fine, don't believe me. If I say i'm ok or good, then yea, but don't believe fine.
Favourite Music
I like, Amon Amarth, Rammstein, Obsessive compulsive, Wolfcrusher, Sworn to oath, System of a down, MCR, Bullet for my valentine, Manowar, Iron maiden, Evanescence, Slipknot, Korn, Paramore, Asking Alexandria, Suicide Silence and various other bands.
Favourite Films / TV / Books
TV = Family Guy, Star Trek, CSI, Russel Howards' Good News, Red Dwarf, Andromeda & How I Met Your Mother.
Films = Star Wars (original trilogy is best), Star Trek (2009), The Avengers (marvel), Transformers, The Matrix, Starship Troopers & Equilibrium.
In darkest corners of the world, light can still be found. In a world where civilization has fallen, hope can live again. Death, Destruction, Darkness, they are all necessary to keep this world, indeed, the entire universe in balance. Darkness should not be seen as the opposite to light, for it is instead, lights' equal.
The words you typed, from them these lyrics i created. for my bubblykinz <3
btw, ()=my scream bit. (())=both you singing and me screaming at the same time.
This depression (depression)is devouring (my being) all that i am ((is starting to fade.))
Ohh, I feel like i'm slipping (slipping away, and I prey)prey that each second of it comes quickly.
(maybe, maybe once i'm gone, i'll be rid of this pain, once, and for, all)
I need something more than a pill to escape this horrible fate (that lies ahead) with my name branded on it,
I'm falling in ((deeper and deeper))
Show no possible ounce of salvation (Sal, Va, Tion!!)
[chorus]Ohh, death, please come, and and my strife. Ohh, please end this torment that is my life. (End My Liiiife)
What are options? I could (SCREAM)scream with all my soul (but no one would hear)
I'm on a different wave length, naturally tuned out of society's ((inner circle))
[chorus]
I don't think i'll truly be happy until i'm (on the floor, gasping for air)
My blood streaming, bright red from my opened veins,
I'll feel so cold (so bitterly cold)
But at least then, the cold will numb the pain that aches deep, ((deep in my chest))
[chorus]
I'm going numb, growing cold, each breath I take,
It feels like a knife jabbed deep, ((deep in my lungs))
I'd rather take this pain, than the pain that you left me to suffer with
[chorus x2]
((end this torment, stop this torture, numb the pain, end my life))
(END, MY, LIIIIFFEE)
If you are close to me, my friend, or more. Then you pain is shared, for i feel the pains of those close to me. Send me your pain, and hope it works. For if it dose, you no longer have to feel your pain as much.
Hand me a knife, so I may take my life. So I may end this pain, this pure agony. Let me end this empty existence, for all I have ever know is pain. My chest, my heart, it hurts so much. Give me the means to end the pain, once and for all.
Take my life, take my blood. For I am unworthy.
But do not waste, my blood to taste. Drink my energy.
I am just, on my own. Forever wondering.
A vampire, lonely hunter. Forever fearing.
Surrounded by friends, yet forever alone. Deadly dreaming.
Now you must, cause me pain. Cause my bleeding.
I hate myself. About two or three weeks ago I told my friend that I was in love with her, the only response I got was "awww cute". One week after that, I asked her if she wanted to be more than just friends, but like every other girl she shot me down. A couple of days after that, I had to talk her out of killing herself, imagine how I felt then. Now the reason I hate myself, is coz, after every she's done, after how she made me feel, after how she hurt me so much,I still find it impossible to find one single thing about her that I don't like.
So many times i've been shot down, by so many girls, why not just use a gun and get it over with? i mean, the amount of times i've been given these three words "as a friend" it's annoying, depressing, why don't they just get a gun and use me for target practice?
I'm so scared right now, been trying to talk one of my friends out of committing suicide, but i don't think i can, i've been stopping her every night since monday, but i just don't know what to do other that keep texting and facebook messaging her. I've lost so many friends and family that i get really attached to my friends, probably too attached, i always miss my friends too much when they're not around, i don't think i'm strong enough to handle one of my friends killing herself.
Angelus mortem (angel of death) torments me. He comes close, but never am I the one he takes, instead he takes those close to me. Yet it is me who wishes to be taken from this world.
