I could say it, but you won't believe me
You say you do, but you don't deceive me
It's hard to know they're out there
It's hard to know that you still care Dead Hearts, by Stars
Madeline Lee
26 / Female / Tasmania, the love heart shaped island in, Australia
Bisexual / It's Complicated
Member since:
Jan 15, 2013
Last online:
Oct 18, 2014
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About Me
Hey, my name is Madeline Lee and I'm currently 16yo. I love art and music and poetry and all of that stuff. I'm not a sceneie, emo or goth or anything like that, in fact when someone tries to put me in any category I get really annoyed because I'm just me and that's the end of it.
I'm usually smiling but when I'm not I usually don't realize how sad/pissed off I look, usually it's just because I'm spaced out or hallucinating.
Hallucinating also isn't usually a bad thing with me either, its just because I have an amazing imagination I can make myself see things, it's also a coping mechanism. When it's a problem you'll know because due to suffering from Narcolepsy I'll wake up from a night terror and start screaming and crying but if I fall asleep listening to music or being cuddled I sleep perfectly. Or if it's in the day time I usually just shake and pull at my hair and the cuddles and music helps then as well.
This may sound a bit dorky/nerdy but once again, I hate being categorized. But I love science... Mostly Biology and Psychology. I'm not even kidding, if you ask how brain freezes happen I'll go on and on about blood vessels dilating because your brain thinks you're going to freeze to death (which it feels like at the time, of course. :P) Another thing, I also love retro video games. I own a Nintendo 64 that I can't play because my Mother threw out my box TV :'( (like if you crii evertim) I also own some other type of old Nintendo and a PS1 and PS2 now all I want is a fucking Xbox. But I love playing Zelda and SuperMario so much :3 They are my childhood favorites.
I'm a major Otaku. I LOVE cosplaying so much. I go to two main anime conventions held in Tasmania called AIcon and MAIcon and they're so much fun but sadly extremely expensive. I mean just the Cosplay costumes I wear to them cost over $100 min but it's so worth it.
I must explain this to everyone I meet or hang out with or whatever. If I pass out you shouldn't wake me up, just call an ambulance because if you do things will go really badly really fast, I also shake a lot due to Anxiety and low blood pressure so I need to be warm...(Totally would just shake on purpose for someone to cuddle me.)
Also, if you haven't noticed, I'm a major cuddle addict. I love them and if I don't get a "Hello" or "Goodbye" hug I'll get really sad. But then again I'm also really shy so I won't ask for one until you ask me.
I love all animals, especially cats. Which is why I take one of my nicknames (Little Kitty) as a major complement. They call me that due to the fact that I fucking LOVE head scratches and cuddles of course and I sometimes purr and yeah...>.>.......<.<... I know I'm strange....
I'm also really good at giving advice or even just listening so if you need anything just tell me and I'll give advice and distractions and if you're lucky I might even write you a little poem about how lovely you are. =^_^= hehe.
Okay, Madeline Lee signing out! *salutes*
Favourite Music
Evanescence
Bullet for my valentine
Linkin Park
Sum 41
Three days grace
Asking Alexandria
Within temptation
Black veil brides
Pierce the veil
Falling in reverse
NeverShoutNever
Eminem
Ed Sheeran
Emilie Autumn
Marilyn Manson
Meat Loaf
Alice Cooper
A day to Remember
Bring me the Horizon
M Chemichal Romance
Slip Knot scares me a little but I still like there music
Snow white's Poison Bite
Sleeping with Sirens
Mayday Parade (Terrible things makes me cry so much)
Imagine Dragons
The Fray
New Years Day
Angels and Airways
Front Porch Step
Foo Fighters
Arctic Monkeys
Rise Against
Nirvana
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Buffy the vampire slayer
Angel
Naruto
Black Butler
Strawberry Panic
Death Note
Oran High School Host Club
Bleach
Angel Beats
The Day After Tomorrow
Underworld (Kate Beckensale is hot)
The Grudge
The Omen
Texas Chainsaw Massacre (So funny but a little scary)
Romeo and Juliette
Beastly
Paranormal Activity
Monty Python
Little Britain
George Of the Jungle
Soul Eater
Burlesque
Le Mis
Alice in Wonderland
Sword Art Online
Mirai Nikki
Jenifer's Body
Lord of the rings (I'm learning Elvish, aren't I just down right cool or what haha....... and a little nerdy...O.O)
Spider man
Rocky Horror
Frozen (This is the only Disney movie that makes me cry)
The Avengers
Thor
Aladin
Banish by Nicola Marsh is creepy as fuck!
Education / Occupation
My math teacher threw out my black lipstick..... Oh well, I'll just gouge out his eyes in his sleep. =^_^= And my art teacher tells me to tone down my make up O.O .......OH THE FUCKING IRONY!!!!!........
My Sister is teaching me Elvish too. YAY!!!! <3 AND I MADELINE LEE AM LORD OF THE NERDS!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!! <3 (Don't categorize me, bitch!)
Who I'd Like To Meet
Everyone is lovely <3 And even if they aren't, they still must have some good qualities so everyone.
He had emerald green eyes
And, my god was he shy
But he'd always smile
To cover up the scares
It took a while
But you'd think he was as happy as a spoiled child
But oh no
His eyes sparkled because he wished to cry
He wanted to be the night sky
So he succeeded when he tried
Now we've stopped singing lullabies
His skin was so pale
His strength held up as he almost failed
He'd never show a single fear
He'd never flinch, not the courage to shed just one tear
On top of everything he could have stayed here
I thought I could see oh so clear
But oh no
His eyes sparkled because he wished to cry
He wanted to be the in the night sky
So he succeeded when he tried
Now we've stopped singing lullabies
And oh no
I don't understand
I could have saved him if he'd just said
I would have held his hand
And pulled him up to the surface
So why can't I do this right?
I'm beginning to hate my wondrous sky
As I lay awake at night
I promised I'd never lie
But I said that I'd never die
But so help me I have tried
But if I do I'll never save a life
So oh no
My eyes sparkled because he wished to cry
I wanted to be the in the night sky
But how could I?
When I'd know I'd never be able to save a life
And oh no
I don't understand
I could have saved him if he'd just said
I would have held his hand
And pulled him up to the surface
But next time I'm going to save a life
Because that will save mine.- Saving lives. Dedicated to Liam 1998-2013
Shhh, I know it hurts to hear them speak
A scream or a whisper
Just close your eyes and dream
Block your ears and don't listen
"Can't you see what you've done?
You've committed murder!
And what had she done?
Nothing, you just didn't understand her!"
I can't believe
I would've done the same thing
If I didn't have you so stay with me and I'll keep you stable
I couldn't see
I didn't believe that you loved me
So tell me you love me and I won't go mental
Shhh, I know, I can hear it loud and clear
The deafening of silence
Just hold my hand and let go of your fear
Do you understand, dear?
"Maddy, I'm not coping
Chloe meant to much to me!
I have to fall in a deep sleep
And you have to leave me to rest in peace!"
I can't believe
I would've done the same thing
If I didn't have you so stay with me and I'll keep you stable
I couldn't see
I didn't believe that you loved me
So tell me you love me and I won't go mental
Take my hand
You'll be okay
Squeeze as hard as you can
Just don't go away
Let's sing 'BigCityDreams"
As loud as we can
don't go to sleep
Because I'll do the same and I'll never wake again
I can't believe
I would've done the same thing
If I didn't have you so stay with me and I'll keep you stable
I couldn't see
I didn't believe that you loved me
So tell me you love me and I won't go mental
For her let's stay stable
I'll keep you stable- I can't believe, stability. Dedicated to Chloe Ferguson 1998-2013
She'll lay deep in the earths heart
Under the meadow she'd run away too
"I can't do this anymore, I'm not strong enough, I'll fall apart."
I know I can't be the hero for you
But what else am I meant to do?
We can feel you whisper
The cold feeling lingers at our trembling fingers
But we won't hear you
Not like how we used to
The way you sung was so beautiful
I can't kill the demons
Not those who are invincible
"I can't sleep anymore, not after what I saw, god it's too painful."
I know I can't be there for you
But if I can't save you then I don't know what I'll do
Can you feel me shiver?
The ghosts haunt me that's why I'm growing colder
And closer to crazy
Somebody please, I beg you save me
Smile for me now
Because god I can't handle a frown
And everyone is dying on me now
I'll run away to the meadows
And I'll crawl and beg on my knees
"I want to hear her sing again, I don't want to be alone. I can't do this on my own."
I know I can't be your hero
But god knows what else I can do
Can you feel my heart beat
My own life force hates me
Because I'm alive
Most of the time I wait to die
So please smile for me now
You're way to pretty to wear such a frown
And everybody is dying on me now
I don't know how many of you
I'm going to lose
But one was more than enough
Can you feel us love?
I'd wish I'd have saved you
And if I couldn't I'd have died with you
Because I'm sick of people.......
... I'll always understand you
I would have done the same
I almost did, I could be in the earth with you
Right now, I'm going insane!
Smile for me now
Because god I can't handle a frown
And everyone is dying on me now
So please smile for me now
You're way to pretty to wear such a frown
And everybody is dying on me now
Don't die on me now
Please
Forgive me!
Just, don't die on me now
- Smile, don't frown. Dedicated to Emily Peachtree !999-2014
I'm crazy for the most adorable guy ever <3 He proposed, he fucking proposed!!!!! Eeeehehehehehe and of course I said yes, I don't care how young I am!!! He's the only one I believe when he says he loves me, I only believe such words when they leave his lips, only his! <3 I was about to kill myself when he asked me what I'd do if he asked me out and due to him being so shy I ended up asking him out <3 He's a life saver and I love him so much
