this world, this world is cold. but you dont, you dont have to go. you're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely. and mo one seems to care. your mothers gone and your father hits you. this pain you can not bare. hold on, by Good Charlotte
Madi IsSoWeird
26 / Female / VA, United States
Straight / Broken Hearted
Member since:
Feb 09, 2014
Last online:
Feb 12, 2014
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About Me
Well hai there, I am Madi. I suppose you looking at my profile for reason I do not want to no.... but im bored and wanted a blog to write all my miserable mishaps in life that I dont tell my friends because I have trust issues and crap like that. And you may love or hate my face, but thats okay because I wasn't trying to please you. Its my face. I've lived with it all my life.
So why the hell must people judge me for a face I've had my whole life, its who I am. And I dont know about you... but I think they should look at their face before they judge othas <3
I like:
>skyrim<
giraffes :D
Fwendzz
Favourite Music
Dupstep and alternative, emo music suits me. But I tolerate all types of music haha even country o-o
But my fav bands hun...
NSN
PTV
Blink-182
BringMeTheHorizon
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Penelope
Haunted house
Scary movie saga
Harry potter saga
Family guy
Orange is the new Black
Futurama
Eragon 1&2
harrypotter saga
top 8
twighlight saga
Education / Occupation
I am in 9th grade awesome right??? no. but Art class is my game :*
Who I'd Like To Meet
I interested in a great convo with anyone.
Boys: be respectable pleez and around my age for gods sake... if your a nerd cx then I'd love to talk about anything your obsessed with; if your a musician; can i hear?? if your a chilled back life takes me where ever tolerant person like me... then we have so much to talk about ^-^
Girls: Tell me all the shit youve been through, all the boys whove broken your heart, used you, cheated, maleseted, raped... because ive been there. Tell me how you cry at night and slit ur skin for each time you hear those voices inside your head. Ive been there too... Tell how much you love him and you want him in your arms when hes not around... Because lord knows Ive been there, we all have...
Im 15 im old enough to have social networking arnt I. I dont need my parents permission, let alone to know. And my brother whos a snitch AND a goody two shoes lives with my dad and my dad allows him to have an instagram but he supervises it. My brother said he wont tell anyone just that not to DM him or fallow him cause my strict step mom will see. I feel bad for him that he doesnt have privacy. But then again if my dad finds out i have an instagram hell be PISSED. but i dont care. hes not in charge of my life. My mom is. It makes me so mad how he wants to chain me up and have this sheltered life. no, fuck no. I get to cuss, I get to have my sense of humor the way i want, i get to share my true thoughts. what my mom doesnt know wont kill her. So stop dad. stop trying to control my life.
This is my journal. So... I can say what I think? I think... about a lot about my future. I want to be a tattoo artist. I want to find the perfect guy. I want to be me. But all of that will be hard to do since no one really wants to hear about it. I get so excited about my wants and dreams but no one really listens... I'll get sad but no one cares. I have scars... of course I do but I only earn them for the worst of times. My mom knows. she understands. she understands me so well but of course i dont want to tell her any recent things because I dont want her to worry. She has so many other stressful problems in life... She doesnt need mine. My parents are divorsed. I still remember when it happened. I was 5. It was really bad. But I dont think I can talk about it on here. Not online. And because of the divorse, I feel like theres no such thing as falling in love. Thats why I get so scared to fall inlove with a guy. And last month I fell in love. I liked this guy for a year. I started to talk to him and then we hung out alot and then one thing led to another and I fell in love with him. He told me he wanted to be with me. We would go into the woods and talk for hours, some groping but cuddling was the best. Then a week later he completely ignored me. I found out he got a new girlfriend. My heart broke. Thats why I dont beleive in love. Because I always get hurt. But im used to it...
