Jul 17 2012, 12:06 AM

I lay in bed To toss and turn Until the night creeps away As the light chases it out Until the frogs croak gives way For the bird to sing its song Forever to continue their turns I lay at night For hours on end The world continues without me Mind stuck Unable to be silenced Forever screaming to be noticed I lay, forever Until sleep pulls at my eyes Embraces my soul Creeps into my mind Taking over Whispers of forever in my ear I lay, restless in rest Dreams running rampant Amok in my mind Stealing all chance of quiet All chance of peace Forever gone I lay, waking Mind still stuck in dreamland Wondering Pondering Forever exhausted I lay, without motivation My body will move My mind, will stay Forever in my dreams Forever sleep deprived

Jul 17 2012, 12:04 AM

I have reached the point where I don't want to sleep. It's not that I can't sleep - I really am so very tired, and it's rather late, the clock jumps in leaps and bounds. As if the halves of hours and the chunks of ten are swallowed by that easy StumbleUpon button or maybe by my brain. This is the point of tired when all the nightmares and daymares and scary, lonely dreams-to-be come lurking in strange ways. When I can't place the reason for this uncanny loneliness eating at my soul. I keep searching for something - for anything, if I'm honest - that will make me laugh once more, then I will surely sleep. But I can't focus. And I can't find it. I see my old friend, the one I miss so much it hurts, but who I haven't talked to in a while. I see those phantom arguments that I always win in the shower, and which I would surely lose in reality. I see all those moments in which pangs of pain struck me, the ones that are so easily ignored throughout the day, and now they've piled up and I am an insomniac. I can't sleep.

Jun 27 2012, 04:06 PM

Stop talking shit , get on your knees. You better hope all I do, Is make you bleed. The knife you see, is the last you'll see. For thinking you could get away, with fucking with me. I like a nice Chelsea Smile, every once in a while. It'd go nice with that dress, girl you can lie with the best. I could make it painless, but I wouldn't achieve, The screams you promised and that I believed.

Jun 21 2012, 12:08 AM

You're all I think about I miss your laugh.. I miss your smile.. Your face keeps huanting me in my dreams you still there Those memories I kept locked in my heart not a single one forgotten cause you were my everything Those days seemed heaven but nothing last forever All I wish is to see your face once more. I want to hold you once more And feel your lips crush on mine And I'm lost in your eyes Day & night my thoughts are on you My memories warm my heart And the kiss is addiction Waking up I feel lonely knowing you're not here anymore I feel the need of you more It hurts to forget but Don't you feel the same?

Jun 14 2012, 10:12 AM

Peace Within And, As I stare at this vivid line, Slashed upon my wrist. All I feel, Is peace within. They say it's so bad, That I torture my body. They say it's so bad, To harm myself, out of anybody. I do believe, It is my right, To slash MY wrists, With MY own knife. You can say as you wish, You can whisper about me, You can stare, and laugh, Point at my wrist. But babe, All I feel, Is peace within.

Jun 13 2012, 02:21 PM

all the notes unread those little things left unsaid the emotions trapped inside to many thoughts given to much time so many times that should be erased untold spaces left to waste the storm of tears that fell back then so many people I love I'll never see again infinate wishes that didn't come true broken images shattered like glass many hours that passed since then happy dreams that came again twinkling stars I saw in the night beautiful things that have been right deadly nightmares chased away happy smiles since that day many friends that have come to stay all the days the sun has shone wonderful loves that have been known so many happy days since then

Jun 13 2012, 01:55 PM

your eyes are wide open but you still can’t see and my heart is dancing but there is no beat if this time you’ll hurt no souls you’re too late you’re too late. because i’m collapsed might as well relapse you see my heart’s not broken it’s merely not what it used to be. april’s gone so let’s move on to the warmer weather i’m ready for the showers just as long as i’m not alone. are you here? you’re not here. and i’m collapsed might as well relapse i’m not alone. are you here? you’re not here. and i’m collapsed might as well relapse you see my heart’s not broken it’s merely not what it used to be. because i’m collapsed i’m collapsed

Jun 13 2012, 01:22 PM

Your voice... It torments me, my breathe catches As you speak in your usual aloof tone How do you mask your emotion so well? Or is it just that you don't feel at all anymore? ...Well I still do dammit!!! I can't stop feeling for you!! I FUCKING hate you, but I can't let go! I'm bound to you until I get what I want to say Out of my system... So here it is: I would have done anything for you, I would have Killed Slaughtered Bled DIED for you, and yet you through me away Like an unwanted piece of garbage. Well let me tell you this, You may not feel for me while I'm gone But the next time we meet, My words will have you on your knees.

Jun 13 2012, 01:13 PM

It’s when I’m shaking the hardest That I wonder where my God is. Have I fallen one time too many? The bible says he fell three times, but maybe that’s just talk. After all, I’m slipping again, And this time I’m numb. This time I’ve gotten better, This time I’ve refined my tricks, And they’ll never have to know. But still, I wish someone, Anyone, Would look me in the eye, And actually ask if I’m okay. I’d smile and lie, Because the truth is too much, Because the truth is only annoying to them, Because the truth is just one more thing to deal with, But mostly, Because the truth is that I’m frightened. I’m fighting a battle against myself, And even if I win, I will lose everything.

Jun 13 2012, 12:35 PM

this is starting to become a problem, i cant function without it everyday maybe their right a 'druggie' or 'emo freak' as they say i cant help it, i dont feel right if im not drunk or high its just when im sober i want to die or else i have the need to slit my wrists, in which i do so i guess this life and depression has gotten me so damn low im about to loose it, either take to much of one drug, overdose or maybe cut to deep like most just end this life, commit suicide yet i know thoses will fail ive done them all before actually 14 times, probly gonna be more i know the best way for suicide is only one all i have to do is pull that trigger and my life is done bang bang is the only sound i really need with me im sorry but this is how i must leave you sadly so goodbye thank you for looking at my hideous face and for falling behind with me when i had a slow pace goodbye world, goodbye my baby girl you are amaing, you can change the world <3