Jan 10 2016, 06:54 PM

I'm never good enough for my parents tbh

Jul 04 2015, 11:52 AM

I'm Hopeless

Jun 03 2014, 11:42 AM

I hate my life.

Jan 23 2014, 10:45 AM

Is it possible to hate being loved by your own family??... I wonder, I don't like the fact my parents want to be "best friends" with me. I like my alone time, I like being alone period. My mom has been ... not copying.. but doing the shit that I like!!I wanted to have a bird passion, now she has it. I loved doing photography, now I refuse to pick up a camera just because she's doing photography, she's done all the courses and everything and thinks she can be best friends with me now. Maybe that's her way of trying to get close with me but I don't like it. She's stolen almost all of my passions, she even started going to the gym which was my escape and she knows it was for me to get out of the house and just have that thing what normal people call "alone time" or "me time". How do I tell her how I feel without hurting her or her telling the whole world my secrets - which is a regular habit. I guess that why I keep to myself most of the time. I avoid my dad too, he just contradicts himself all the time. "Money isn't everything" 5 minutes later, "You are going to end up like the rest of our family with no money and then you cant have fun like four by fouring and boating and scuba diving" my thoughts: dad please make up your mind. I dare say that to him there goes my life. My sister is stealing all my believes but the minute I tell people about my believes they against it and my sister will only go against it to be the cool kid. My gran is heavy Christian and if she finds out I'm not Christian any more ...... oh my god please come to my funeral?? :'(. Some people wish for this and I know I sound a little, maybe very ungrateful but this is just my opinion and I have no idea what to do about it!! I rate I'd be better off dead.

Jan 20 2014, 11:16 AM

I am so lost in my own thoughts. I thought things were really looking a lot better but no, they just couldn't get any worse. I'm the biggest slut, liar and who knows what else, I'm the most hate person in this whole world. I wish something could just happen, something good. Something for the better. I know I could never be perfect, but I've wrecked my reputation below the lowest. I wish I could be that super imperfect girl that is secretly so perfect but just a mystery, unknown.. people wanting to know. I want my own life, my own morals, my own perfections and imperfections. I just want me, I need to know who I am.... before its to late. Higher Power, please guide me?

Jan 17 2014, 10:38 PM

I don't understand how people are so fucking ugly to one another. I mean we are all human, we all have the same body parts. Our outside may never be the same but isn't that the best part about it. Everyone is so different yet we all the same. Why do people have to hate and bring other people down to their hell or just get the thrill of hurting people. It's sickening to see and to feel. Just know one thing haters... step into my shoes before you judge. You wouldn't last a day!!

Dec 12 2013, 11:10 AM

lately I've felt really pathetic. I don't know anything anymore. I make a friend they go behind my back, or try be exactly like me. A few months ago I got a stretcher, now this friend of mine- lets call her H- got a stretcher this week. She found out I cut now she's started cutting. She got a hold of my music (metal and indie) and now she listens to that. I got my second earrings pierced she got them, I cut my hair scene, she cut her hair scene. I hate facebook now she hates facebook. I love twitter now she's got twitter... I love tumblr now she's got tumblr. It might sound petty but think if your friend had to do that to you.... I feel pathetic that she's cutting now because of me. I'm probably the worst person ever. NO DOUBT ABOUT THAT!!

Nov 24 2013, 06:22 AM

I finally got my new laptop!! it took forever. Now I have to figure things out -_- its so weird yet so cool!!!!! anyway. Things are starting to look up. slowly but surely. :)

Nov 20 2013, 03:32 AM

I hate school. Its just a place where people can call you horrific names, teachers think they know you and try "help" or they take out their home life on you!!! WTF???.... I can't wait till I'm out of this hell hole. I can do what I want when I want and I don't have to see anyone I hate. I'll bye my hair blue, I'll wear as much black as I want. I can style my way which ever way I like it. In school you can't be an individual, but when you out there, no one gives a fuck what you look like and what you like. You only become the individual you craved for when you where in school.

Nov 19 2013, 11:02 AM

today went better than expected. I feel weird, almost happy, maybe I am happy, I wouldn't know. I think I could be in love with someone... and that's not good. I always hurt people and push them away no mater how much I love them, and I hate myself for it. I wish I could love like a normal person. Maybe even be a normal person. Anyway, back to being in love. I don't think the people I love even think about loving me. I'm an awful person and no person would love a girl who cuts themselves. They don't understand and think you're stupid for hurting yourself. So finding love will never be easy for me, and the person that really does love me I'll probably never meet or they live to far or I'll be dead, waiting for him in my grave. To the person I think I'm in love with.... please. Stay strong.