Apr 04 2012, 11:31 AM

i don't want to be Bipolar, i HATE it, the pills, the moods, the 'professionals' So i took an online test, hoping that maybe the doctors got all wrong. My result... 56 :( i checked the scoring sheet, 51+ was suposed to mean 'severe' symtoms. I don't like this, can someone take it from me??? Mood: Upset Music: Taking Back Sunday

Mar 29 2012, 02:41 PM

i used to be terrible, i used to brake hearts, even worse i did it out of spite, i was 'bored' with them, they never understood and to be honest neither do i now. I want to earn their respect and forgiveness so i'm going to find all of them and apologize properly, i was wrong and they didn't deserve that from an idiot like me. I'e changed now but i'm not going to get into a committed relationship any time soon, i've learnt from my mistakes and i'm set out to be a better person Mood: relieved Music: Iron Maiden

Feb 21 2012, 01:26 PM

therapy i went to see my phyciacrist today, then he mentioned something weird, he said "you find it hard to talk, but i always know what you saying" that just scared me :/ Anyway, he said, what you wear and how you sit tells me exactly what you are feeling and thinking, i analysed my clothes, over-sized rolling stones t-shirt, torn jeans, bright yellow sunglasses on my head, green converse and a necklace with a 'voodoo' doll on it. Then i looked at how i was sitting, knees together, feet turned inwards, head down, and fidgeting with my finger nails, what did this mean? did i wear these things subconsciously on purpose? i was confused, i think he thinks im crazy, usually i spend the whole time in silence, simply because i dont like talking to weird middle-aged men anyhow, i felt better today, accually took my pills for once and it made me dizzy, but that nice dizzy, like numb