Dec 13 2015, 01:33 AM

I can't help it, I feel like shit. I did you wrong cuz you did me wrong and I failed to communicate that with you. I know we wouldn't have lasted forever but I enjoyed my time with you recently and was trying to get over everything that happened while talking with other people. I didn't hate you, I still don't. Just because we wanted different things doesn't mean we couldn't be happy in the meantime. I know we won't ever be together again but I still enjoy talking with you, I would still enjoy your company if you wanted to hang. Its just after only a week I'm still not over you and how much I fucked up and made you feel like shit. I just wanted to make you feel how I felt and I got what I wanted, but I didn't think about the consequences of how it would affect us in the long run. I know you hate apologies and I know it feels like everyone turned against you but I still care what happens to you. Anyone else who was involved, fuck them, they can go die in a ditch somewhere. I listened to them it only fucked us up. I'm sorry, I know its useless but I'm truly sorry, I fucked up and I will take the end of our relationship as punishment for all I've done and how I made you feel

Aug 25 2015, 09:30 AM

I wish there was a way to release all my anger and sadness at once, just to thwart out all the negative emotions I feel everyday. I'm sick of holding it in and crying when its too much. I wish I was a wild animal that could just run and kill as I please without abandon, no embarrassment, no shame, no worries about what others think of me. I just wish I could destroy something, break some glasses, a tv, hell even a wall or a mirror. I just wanna break stuff, it seems like so much fun

Jul 27 2015, 09:00 AM

I know my life isn't over, I don't want it to end yet, I just don't know how to start. I'm scared, of just about everything at this point, even of ending things that I hate. But I know I have to change myself and my life or I won't get anywhere. I'll be stuck forever with the same people and I'll never get to explore and unlock my true potential. I have to be honest with myself with what it is I truly want. and not worry about others feelings, since no one cares about me then why should I let people who hate me get in my way? I should go my own way, do my own thing, and just move forward.

Jul 16 2015, 04:09 PM

I think I might lose some friends, mostly just emotions running high, and everyone going behind each others backs like school girls. I hate this, no one wants to talk about what's really up but everyone wants to stay mad at each other. I've already forgiven my boyfriend and he hasn't even gotten the chance to confess to me yet. I just feel like I'm in the middle of a war, like the innocent civilian in between enemy lines. I don't what to do to help except talk to people but no one wants to talk. I just don't wanna give up on 8 years of friendship because don't wanna communicate. I hate this so much....

Apr 18 2015, 06:02 PM

Every time I finally get a step ahead in my life, anything that's going normally goes horribly wrong. I can't even confide in my boyfriend anymore because he's turning into a piece of shit just like everyone else. He thinks it fun to take hios anger out on me when his family is pissing him off. So fuck him, I just have to count on myself. Right now my main goal is to live alone, to have a place where I can be myself and not have to worry about what anyone else has done with my stuff or my space, a place where I can wear what I want without someone wanting me to always be and look girly and cute. A place wher I can actually be alone because I don't have time to deal with people anymore, they only get in the way

Oct 22 2014, 01:07 PM

I hate myself right now..... Actually, I don't. Ive only been taught to hate myself when things don't go right. I've been taught to hate myself when someone is upset at me for irrational reasons. I've been taught to hate myself because I'm not useful to everyone for my money. I don't hate myself, I hate all the motherfuckers that want to see me fall into despair because they hate to see anyone doing good and feeling good about themselves. I need to ignore these people and get on with my life. Fuck everyone, I need to get myself together because dealing with and trying to help others is what's keeping me down. I have to make sure that I'm doing fine for myself and feeling good because I love myself. Fuck the haters and the fuckers that put me down, I will rise from this, I can feel it.

Sep 25 2014, 08:00 PM

I'm sick of trying to be nice to you, I'm sick of trying to understand you when all you do is treat me like I don't matter because someone else pissed you off. Fuck you, i'm done with you, don't you dare say another word to me, I don't give a fuck about your feelings anymore

Sep 25 2014, 07:42 PM

I'm getting closer to my limit with people, I hate people so much. Not all people just the people here. No matter what these fuckers always find ways to kill anything good that comes along. They just stay mad at dumbass shit. I try to do little things to distract me and keep me happy and alive, but when they come along and just shit on my happiness, I lose whatever love I have for them. It just shows you how much they don't care about me or others around them. That's why I don't talk to them, and that's why I never want these people in my life again when I leave

Sep 10 2014, 02:00 AM

Lately I've been feeling like total shit, not good enough for anyone or myself. My life is going nowhere and the ones who said they'd help me don't even give me the time of day. I shut myself out from almost everyone except for my boyfriend. I tell only him my true feelings because he's the only one that takes the time to understand and let me explain how I feel. No one else cares, if I'm not useful to them I'm useless. I've been patient in finding a job, but I don't have patience for school anymore. I wish I could move out but with no income going anywhere is hard to do. I can't sleep, but I'm so tired. It's almost 4 am and I've been up since 10 am yesterday. Job searching is useless when no one even calls you back. Being poor is no joke, no matter what you do, you get treated like total shit......