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28 / Female / Fantasy, Indonesia
Single
Member since:
Feb 27, 2012
Last online:
Nov 27, 2012
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About Me
If you don;t care to read this, then I honestly don't bloody care. You're not worth my time, either. So thank you. I am a proud vegetarian. I'm 5'3'' and love everything to do with comics, superheroes/villains, Star Wars, horror, mystery, gaming, hardcore-ness, photography, drawing sketching, painting, music. I HATE Justin Bieber, Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Kesha, ect. I have black hair and Gold eyes. (sometimes brown/green) I'm unique, sensitive, but have a good sense of humor. I think I love too much. I get hurt. It's hard for me to say no, and I'm vulnerable... I'm working on this. I am my own person. I'm artistic. I think you should just get to know me. If you want. I have no say in it. I don't believe in God, I am a deep person. I think a lot. My best friend is Jake the dinosawr ^-^ I have a unique personality. I am a loving person and sometimes can be slightly schizophrenic e______________o i get irritated easily. I'm not a can, don't label me. I don't live in Indonesia, but who cares. I have naturally curly hair. D': Ooh, and I don't take crap from anyone. I LOVE JOHNNY THE HOMICIDAL MANIAC! I don't like fighting. (That includes personally and seeing others do it) I have pedophobia (the fear of feet... Ew. But not mine of course. I take a lot of care of mine xD) I live with both of my parents.
I am originally German. I have sort of been torn away from that, but I still speak it :) I have taught some friends the basics, but still have to say most things in English :/ I also speak Russian <3 My favourite thing in the world is accents :P ohh, and the best footwear of all? CHUCKS O_O I like stars, stripes, and checks.
If you have any doubts, just pet the furry wall :P My favourite colors are blue, grey, and orange. I love magic tricks and things out of the ordinary. I also have the deepest desire to use a Ouiji board. I once read a large portion of the Necronomicon{a.k.a The Book of the Dead)(This is also the original Necronomicon by Abdul Alhazred, Not the rip-off my Lovecraft), I don;t regret this, but I most likely won;t do it again. What did was read a few verses aloud. So many things happened that day. Mostly as soon as I read it. I don't want to go into detail unless you ask me. I like basketball, tennis, football (soccer), and baseball. I love Biology and Physics to the bloody death :) Emily the Strange is the greatest :) I'm not particularly happy with myself, but I seem to manage ='] i HAVE to meet Banksy >.< I love lizards, snakes, dragons (real AND mythical), geckos, kitties, puppies, squirrels, deer, wolves, bears, monkeys (and the like) and so on... :'D I want to cross the genes of a narwhal and a horse to get a unicorn :) I don't like sunlight and I absolutely LOVE stormy, cold weather. It's brilliant. :) But I've always wanted to go camping in the desert. I'm an adventurer. I love to explore, travel, and investigate :P I like old houses and anything that seems dangerous. I do dangerous things, as well. I live for the adrenaline rush of a lifetime :) I'm strong-willed, strong-hearted, and fast-paced. I'm also quite stubborn, but at least I admit it XD
I have 3 dogs(Blue Healer, Pit Bull, Chihuahua) and a cat(black and white... He has sort if a Hitler mustache) I keep changing his name... It was Sir Reginald Dwight, after Elton John. Then it was Madamme. Then Lumos. Then Madamme Lumos, and finally, Sirius. xD
I have a few health concerns: Juvenile Arthritis, suspected Leukemia (I'm still in testing), Scoliosis, Carpel Tunnel Syndrome, ADHD, Inflammation(not just arthritis. This comes in random spots), Allergies (even weird ones like Ketchup O_O), sensitive skin, weak immune system, heart murmur. This is all I KNOW of :/ But no big deal, right?
I'm artistic (drawing, sketching, sculpting, acting, ect.) I especially enjoy drawing. I make straight As, top of my class.
I'm a Trekkie :3
Video games is DA JUNK. <3
I am really good at the different maths and sciences. I try :) I strive to be a theoretical physicist. i've had this dream since i was 8. Strange? Who cares? Physics rules :'D Michio Kaku, You are my hero <3
I know this is a little mixed up and out of order...
I just wish I could remember everything I had on my last profile >.<
One more thing you should know about me... I am The Girl Who Lived =']
Ravenspawn or Rod's progeny :)
Favourite Music
Marilyn Manson Falling in Reverse Medic Droid BrokenCYDE System of a Down the Cab The Ready Set The Word Alive Asking Alexandria Bring me the Horizon Stop! The Attack! Destery Moore Bayside Attack Attack Sleeping With Sirens As Summer Dies Slipknot A Day to Remember Gwar Avenged Sevenfold Rise Against Deathcab for Cutie Blood on the Dance Floor A Perfect Circle All Time Low Bullet For My Valentine Avion Roe My Cinema Bizarre Chase Coy Breathe Carolina Bush Cash Cash Cute is What We Aim For Dashboard Confessional Emanuel Family Force 5 Hawk Nelson Hollywood Undead Jimmy Eat World I am Ghost Letter Kills Libera Mayday Parade Modern Day Escape New Found Glory Black Veil Brides Papa Roach Pierce the Veil Red Car Wire Rob Zombie Saves the Day Scary Kids Scaring Kids School Boy Humor Sparks the Rescue The Dismemberent Plan The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus The Static Jacks We Came as Romans Woe is Me Kernkraft 400 AFI Ace Troubleshooter Alesana Alexisonfire The Cranberries, Mumford and Sons Coheed and Cambria iwrestledabearonce Anberlin Panic! At the Disco Tokio Hotel Project 86 Norma Jean Showbread Noel Fielding (Mostly in Mighty Boosh tours. My favourite will always be Electro Boy <33) Saosin Never Shout Never T Mills Dot Dot Curve :) Amily Seether Boys Like Girls Miss May I Papa Roach Slipknot <33 Vampires Everywhere! North Star The Almost Number One Gun The Black Keys Once Nothing Skrillex Pg. 99 Pop Unknown Pillar The Promise Ring Braid Brand New Saetia Rainer Maria Silverstein Rammstein Benton Falls City of Caterpillar The Spill Canvas The Van Pelt You, Me, and Everyone We Know Watashi Wa Flyleaf From Autumn to Ashes Every Avenue The Used Starfucker Kick
and many more XD
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Batman Forever, Moulin Rouge, V for Vendetta, Howl's Moving Castle, Darkness Falls, Disney movies, any great horror/ mystery.
medical shows, Spongebob, Adventure Time, Regular Show, Family Guy, anything on Syfy, History Channel, Discover, Discovery Fit&Health, Biography, Science Channel, TBS, and A&E The Harry Potter series <3 Pirates of the Caribbean (all of them) The King's Speech Any Tim Burton film <33
THE MIGHTY BOOSH!! <333 The IT Crowd House The land Before Time (all the movies) Peep Show Mythbusters Most things on BBC <3 The Office Wilfred That Mitchell and Webb Look MTV World Stage Unplugged Saturday Night Live Mad TV The Hard Times of RJ Berger Triumph Des Willlen The Colony Cops I Shouldn't be Alive Tom & Jerry (I like it old school XD) Top Gear Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde Pawn Stars Better Off Ted Kingdom Iron maiden Flight 666 Hunger Games Wizard Gulliver's travels Louie Wifeswap The Shawshank redemtion Lost Doctor Who RuPaul's Drag Race Survivorman The First 48
The Big Bang Theory... I'm going to marry Sheldon O_______O <3 Schmexy :'D
Invader Zim My Little Pony My Wife and Kids Planet Sheen My Starnge Addiction So on... :) I also love a good anime. My favorites are romantic ones. Even though they give me unrealistic expectations on love :/ I also watch Britain's channel 4 Big Fat Quiz of the Year... Every year.
Get Him to the Greek <3 Gattaca is MY. FAVOURITE. MOVIE. <333
Noel Fielding <3
Paradise Lost, Hunger Games, The Russians, Crank, Burned, many more. Mind is blocked :/ I love reading O____O
I am a HUGE comic book nerd :3 The Harry Potter series Hunger Games trilogy
Education / Occupation
Nate's Scary Child :'D
Who I'd Like To Meet
People who aren't terrible O.o Also Noel Fielding Russell Brand Jonathan Ross Jimmy Carr (because his laugh is funny :'D) Johnny Depp Ethan Hawke Jude Law Jonah Hill Will Ferrel Tom York Richard Ayoade Stephen King Albert Einstein Jim Parsons <33333 Johnny Galeki <33 Simon Helberg Stephen Hawking My hero... Micho Kaku Marylin Manson <333 DUMBLEDORE Harry Potter Severus Snape Leanord Nimoy <3333 [Spock] and more...
UPDATE!
Okay, for anyone, which I think is just one member, who read my last journal entry, things have been resolved. We stopped fighting, but things still aren't perfect.
I even caught so friends sticking up for me when this bitch started stereotyping me and saying she doesn't like me based off some other person's opinion.
Any who, me and that guy talk every now and again. Nothing special. He still decides to breeze through life with no car for anyone whatsoever, that is of course except for his two best friends (both guys). He's been with them from the start.
But the sad part is, he has SO MUCH POTENTIAL!
But I won't change him. It shouldn't matter to me, right?
But any how... I'll see you guys later :D
I haven't made a journal entry yet, so I suppose this is a good time.
So
Guys, this is it for me. It really is.
What causes people to be in that "Nocare" mode?
Not me, but people I love. Friends have become cold and distant, only making my sensitivity worse. Have I done anything? No. I go in every day, throw on the same smile, and hope I don't burst into tears and go into a rampage about everything that's bloody happened. But no.
Even the ONE person I thought I had any sort of true connection with, has entered that mode.
He acts like he had the feeling he lost a few years ago. And throws them all away, only to make me watch. He acts like he is some sort of prize. He isn't the greatest person on the world. He's not tall, he's not skinny, he's not even muscular. He has a strange sense of humor, which took me a while to understand.
He is always thinking, ignoring most people. Except for me. Yet he doesn't have feelings for me.
Was he doing this on purpose?
To lead me in and leave me behind?
He may not be perfect, but he fits me. He is the only person I thought I had any chemistry with. I regret many things, but not getting close to him. I'm glad I know this feeling.
But I don't want any of you to have to feel it.
Do I deserve this?
I don't know. But either way, I'm not dealing with this.
There are so many ways.
Drugs, alcohol, what else? There's death. Slightly better alternative.
I'm sure no one is reading this, that's why I don't care.
I'll let you know which way I choose is best.
Bye (for now?).
