May 06 2015, 11:03 AM

Relationships are the worst thing ever. And the sad part about it is that I always choose to be with jerks. I guess I'm just used to guys being mean to me then telling me they love me. I always put myself in the wrong relationship and it's emotionally and physically hurting. Some people say that it's stupid to be upset over a relationship, but until you've been in the relationships I've been in don't judge me. I have a right to feel pain. Being single is probably the safest thing I could do. I just want someone to love me. I want someone to care about me. That person is out there somewhere.........maybe x

Apr 02 2015, 11:07 AM

It's been 2 weeks since I've last picked up my blade. I've done everything possible to keep myself happy, but sometimes happiness just isn't what a person needs. As I get older it gets harder to control my depression. My therapist says it's just a phase, but it's more than that. She thinks she know's everything about me, but their are many things I haven't told her and those things are the reasons I have depression. My parents don't understand why I cut or listen to loud music. They would understand if they took the time to talk to me and care. Parents just don't understand. Things have changed from when they were kids. Sometimes I wish I could just have my own little world to escape into because reality sucks ass. And so does society.