Mar 23 2012, 05:20 PM

ugh my mom read one of my journal i left at home .... i mean she always promised she would never read them but what did she do .... she read one and now i just wanna punch something and or tell something off ... im trying my best not to scream .... its mean not bad enough my friend read through my journal too but my mom ... never thought she would

Mar 19 2012, 07:24 AM

okay erm i have this problem .ist been practicly huating me for almost a year now . it has a name ,but i just call it a very well hiden emotion ... in other words depression ...i never really talk about it or let people know becauseits not uncomein in my family but its also not how i want people to see me as some sad little kid i have hide it for a long time but i dont feel up to hidingit anymore ,i cant i always write in my juarnals but resently discovered a nosie jerk was eading it ... so tbh i cant hide it anymore all the desiving smiles and gigglse .... ya not anymore im done with it all im not say i am depressed beacuse im not aymore becuase for the most part im over its in my past and hopefull not my future ...

Feb 29 2012, 12:59 PM

The end is near  Closer with every passing second  Every little red drop trickling down and splashing on the ground into a dark puddle The blade in my hand soaked in crimson red is cold as ice and slipping away the slowness of my pulse is decreasing almost non existent almost gone   Laying there seeing the crimson puddle through blurry eyes I realize the end is no longer as far as it was in the past the end is here just with sight almost over and done  My eyes closed the world fades away the blade now on the ground my wrist cloaked with a crimson blood dripping down every drop fallen I come even closer till my heart stops my breath gone my life over 

Feb 26 2012, 08:47 PM

I'm done trying I hate to b a quitter but I just can't win the battles in my life with everything falling apart I can't take it anymore I'm done with this crapie life I was a strong person but i have come to the point in my life where I'm done I'm weak and it feels like nothing is gonna change I'm done with thus life bye all hope life is better for u than me I may or may not just compeletly give up tonight I love u all 3 :"(

Feb 26 2012, 12:16 PM

I have been seeing my life fall apart for tge past year, I thought I was strong in the beginning but now I don't know what to do ... I have battled my demonds for so long I think they r wining ... Im tried of living my life nothing is wrong, I battled depression and fears for a long time while the whole tine I only confide in few friends cuz I might gave a lot of friends but to b honest most of them are two faced and I'm done with it done with hiding behind a fake smile my heart started breaking last year and still is I talked to ppl I thought I could trust my turns out I cant trust them , their a good friend but I guess I shouldn't say that they aren't trust worthy cuz he is but I'm just a little fool , I don't even know what I'm saying ritgh now .... My life has been falling apart ever since last year I have tried and tried to forget wath happens tgen but it's hard cuz it keeps coming back up and every time it just gets worse than before I just wish I could emf everything and just b down with it be done with my family , two faced friends , done with life ... I just wish everything would just b over finally just to find an end to all the stupid stuff that has and is happening in my life ... Sometime it seems like things will just never get better

Feb 13 2012, 12:10 PM

If I ask to fly will u go up high in the sky will u swore threw the white fluffy clouds ? will u swoop down and pick me so I could fly with u over the sea and threw the mountains ? could we go so high up that we reach the stars that shine so bright ? can we go to the moon and just gaze back down , down to the world below ? if u could fly where would u go , could u take me with u ? where should we go, should we go to the top of the trees and watch the birds as they fly too , oh wouldn't it be lovely to fly with u <3(comment please )

Feb 13 2012, 11:43 AM

I miss you , I miss the way you held me in your arms. The way you never let me live down some of the stupid things I said, you always new how I felt even though I tried to hide my pain , my heart was broken till I met you, you put the pieces back and made my shattered mess of a soul whole. When I met you I was almost dead . You saved me , I had nothing to live for till that night , the night you save the strange girl you didn't know me nor did I know you. You could have just kept walking and not even bothered to attempt to get to me in time . I never knew thought that I would meet someone like you. Your warm embrace , your wonderful words of wisdom . The way you never judged me for all the stupid thing I did. It made me fall in love . It made me want to be there for you the way you were for me . But even though we are miles away the love we have is still warming my heart . The distance is great and the heartache is only mild but our love is strong ... I guess what I'm trying to say is I love you! (this is about my best friend) (and Srry if spelled stuff wrong:/)

Feb 13 2012, 10:22 AM

Set me free. Let me ... Set me free my darling . Cut the strings. No longer Ur puppet. I refuse to be who u think I should be . I'm done with letting someone else pull the strings . You cannot control me any longer . No! Never again.  Set me free let me fall to the cold ground.  Let me experience Joy , happiness, love, pain, sorrow .  Let me live free.  Let me express myself. Let me run to the end of earth .  Set me free  Let me  get lost and find my way back.  Let me scream and shout and sing.  Let me walk on my own, let me run, hide and disappear and never be found.  let me explore and see the world .  Set me free to be myself.  Let me fall on the ground into the dark.  Let the darkness terrify me till I find the comfort of the light in the end.  Set me free, let me be  free