Mar 23 2016, 09:54 PM

A is to my agony, and when I feel lonely, B is for broken hearts and vows, for when I am feeling down. C is for the cuts on my arm, for times I do self-harm, D, Drowning in my sleep. No one there to wake me. This pain runs so deep. E, I'm so empty, F, forgotten, Gee! this list is long, G is for when I'm gone. H is for when I am hurt, when I feel worse than dirt. I am so sorry, that I'm just not worthy. J, Jesus left me, K, just kill me, L, so lonely, stuck in the dark where I can't see. M messed up minds, masked up lies, moon lit blade! N, nothing here to live another day. O o o o, open wounds, I'll join my demon soon. P, please kill me, Q, do it quickly, R, rest in peace, for the soul inside me. S, sadly, sorrowfully, departing from those who loved me. So again! I'm sorry. T, too much to take, tears streaming down my face. U were always there for me, unconditionally. V, voices in my head saying, "Why aren't you dead?!" W, why do you do this? When will it all end? Where will you cut next? What is there to comprehend? X me out in red. Red like the blood I shed. Y? You ask, because I'm dead, in my head. Z Zoning in and out of time, can you hear the death bells chime? Now I've sung my ABC's Is there anyone out there who can sing with me?

Mar 23 2016, 09:51 PM

I am so lonely and so sad, I wonder if I have gone mad. I hear my silent screams of pain, I see my tears mixed with the rain. I want the happiness I never had. But I am so lonely and so sad. I pretend and play my own part, as I feel the emptiness of my own heart. I touch the chains of my captivity. I worry because of my insanity. I cry so I won't feel As bad. But I am so lonely and so sad. I understand every beautiful lie, I say it's too late to say goodbye. I dream of everlasting haze, I try to hold on to timeless days. I hope that my agony will never add, still I am so lonely and so sad. --Sakari Otami Mitasuki