Julia Muller
28 / Female / Southern California, United States
Straight / Single
Member since:
Nov 11, 2012
Last online:
Dec 19, 2012
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About Me
Hey! My name is Julia.
I'm 16, a junior in high school. I do a lot of things, such as cross country, track, staff for the school newspaper, Academic Decathlon, Mach Trial, Speech and Debate, and lots of community service. I believe in karma, and positive and negative energy. I have a job, a drivers license, and my own car (D: I'm still broke from it though). I write a lot. Mostly poetry or horror stories, but for my poems they are either rhyming or abstract. I also draw, paint, and sculpt. I work a lot with clay and such, oil paints, chalk pastels, ink wash, and graphite; sometimes and very rarely charcoal. I'm a good student, and I try my best in school. I love reading; it brings me into a better world.
I'm an adrenaline junkie, a tomboy with a fascination of unicorns, an introvert, a nature lover, an artist, and a pessimist about love. I surf, am a free-runner, skate (and by that I mean I have a board) and I tend to climb things a lot. I give good advice; seeing how I have been through a lot. I always want to help others, and being an open ear does a lot for some people. If you just want to talk to a random person who will not judge you whatsoever, then just PM me. I also have AIM, Kik, and Skype, so you can always just ask for those if you feel it will be easier or more private for you.
I don't consider myself anything special. Not because I have low self-esteem but because I haven't done anything amazing yet. I do a lot of things, but I'm an active and restless person. I also have insomnia. And I tend to be bored a lot and need a lot of entertainment and distractions. Which is why I like talking to others, and learning about others. I'll be honest though, I will assume lots of things but that is just because I am very observatory. I have discovered multiple things by just observing.
Which is why I am a very good cook. I'm a vegetarian! But sometimes I still get cravings for dinosaur shaped chicken nuggets... hee hee. I can make anyone laugh. If you're feeling down, I swear on my left hip, I. Will. Make. You. Smile. AND. Laugh. I make a lot of weird noises or I tell jokes, either way, it works. Uh uhm, there isn't much else to say. As I said before, I am not anything special. Just you're average girl trying to make people and this world happy. Well, I guess that means you know pretty much a lot of stuff about me. However, you can know more if you just try to talk to me. So go ahead, I dare you! :3
Favourite Music
Screamo, postcore, rock, metal, techno, and dub-step are my favorite genres and basically all that I listen too.
Escape the Fate
Three Doors Down
System of a Down
Vocaloid
Ali Project
Pierce the Veil
Bring Me The Horizon
Bullet For My Valentine
Blood On The Dance Floor
Attack Attack!
Trivium
Suicide Silence
Hands Like Houses
Tonight Alive
The Killers
Ting Tings
Lacuna Coil
Birthday Massacre
Switchfoot
As I Lay Dying
August Burns Red
The Devil Wears Prada
Slipknot
Of Mice and Men
Metro Station
Skrillex
Deadmau5
DJ S3RL
I am X-ray
Black Veil Brides
Eyes Set To Kill
Hollywood Undead
There really are a lot more, but that's all I have to name for the moment. And no, I probably don't all their songs. So if I don't know a song, don't be all: "LIAR! You don't even listen to them, you're soooo fake" or whatever. I have other things to remember.
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Hellraiser, The Exorcist, The Hills Have Eyes, Resident Evil, and Silent Hill are some of my favorite movies. I watch a lot of action, comedy, and horror. At school, I'm even called an gore whore.
For television, I watch a lot of anime sometimes, Regular Show, MAD, Teen Mom, Awkward, Ridculousness, Tosh, The Inbetweeners, The Walking Dead, and that's about it... I really don't watch TV too much. Unless I am completely bored.
The list is too long for me to even write down. I read so much it's not even funny. Maybe when I have time I'll list some?
Education / Occupation
High school, IB courses, Spanish 4, Junior, and I am a PSE at a regional park.
Who I'd Like To Meet
Friends? .__. Uhm, a person who's not creepy or a pervert? Lawl, I dunno.
|| December 17, 2012 ||
I've been absent, for almost a whole month too... I'm slipping back into mutilating and eating disorder state. I've think I've stabbed myself 61 times with needles over the past three weeks? Pathetic, right? Then I haven't eaten for 4 days straight and my hunger pains have gone away so it'll be easy not to eat although I have to eat soup here and there not to pass out. I asked my parents for help because I had gotten my hands on a razor (an excuse to buy one from walmart for my art project) and a lighter. Stupid me, I got insulted to the point where I would have rather just cut the word worthless into my ribs. I really don't know what's going wrong with me.
Perhaps its the thought of me dying when I'm 18 and not wanting to. My brother is going through physical therapy, do I really want him to go through emotional/psychological therapy? Or is it the thought that my friends have given me the title of outcast and told many that my father is using heavy drugs and is a major alcoholic to the point where he willingly gives it to my cousins? I'm embarrassed. My last few weeks at school were horrible. I had a break down and got in a fight with my father. It was horrible.
I am incredibly weak. Horribly weak to the point where I can easily be picked up and thrown- to be shoved into a corner. Why couldn't I have been graced with the ability of strength? What's the good of stamina if you can only apply it to running? I'll be honest, the thought of dying at 18 has never sound better. It sounds like the best choice I could ever make.
Well, I've ranted. Now to be stuck in insomnia for awhile. I need to find someone to talk to, especially since my only companions is an Irish Whiskey Malt thingy and my cat. I would have to find a new friend starting second semester but who wants to hang out with the deemed "(virgin) slut" of the school? I'm done...