Lisa Cramblet
29 / Female / Fallen City, United States
Straight / Single
Member since:
Mar 29, 2012
Last online:
Oct 01, 2015
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About Me
I love to write and read, I like the outdoors, and drawing along with music are my life.
I'm just me. If you really want to know then go ahead and talk to me. Always happy to met new people and make new friends. I don't bite........ Hard......
Favourite Music
Heavy Metal, Rock, Screamo, Hard Rock, Alternative, anything with a hard core beat and killer lyrics. I even like some rap and hip hop depending on the artist and the sound of it.
Some of the bands I really love are Bring Me The Horizon, Eyes Set To Kill, Black Veil Brides, Paramore, Linkin Park, Nickelback, Korn, Breaking Benjamin, Muse, Owl City, H.I.M., Three Days grace, Skillet, Sick Puppies, Red, Theory of a Dead Man, 3Oh!3, Mudvayne, Andrew W.K, Skillet, A Skylit Drive, Aerosmith, Hollywood Undead, Evanescence, System of a Down, Papa Roach, Apocalyptica, Buckcherry, Shinedown, Gorillaz, Green Day, 3 Doors Down, Blood on the Dance Floor, Sum 41, Puddle of Mud, 30 Seconds to Mars, Avenged Sevenfold, Seether, Rammstein, Life House, Plain White T's, Metallica, One Republic, Dethclok, Daft Punk, Seasons After, Hot Chelle Rae, Limp Bizkit, Saliva, Yeah I don't think that's a lot.
Ok, so I chilled down over the weekend and lost the steem that had been building up for weeks. My head and heart and stomach feel so much better now, though my arm doesn't............
Oh well, Friday was amazing! I got an awesome suprise that knocked me dead! My best friend Wah-set, who is like my sister and she is my sister, moved back into town. She came over while I was knocked out on the couch and woke me up!
At frist I thought I was dreaming, but then I realized I wasn't and I nearly tackled her out of sheer joy because I haven't seen her since Christmas! That's the longest we have ever been seperated, and it tore us apart not being able to see each other.
We had a blast and we took a lot of pictures as well as caught up and made our bond even stronger. This weeked just proved to me that friendship will never, in a million years, die out!
We took so many crazy pictures and I decided to share them with everyone on here, so I'm uploading them right now and........... I just can't explain how I feel right now. This is the best I've felt in over a month! I can't believe how much the world has changed!
Why does it hurt?
Why does my heartache?
Why do I hate myself?
Why does everyone plunge a knife into me?
And then plunge it in deeper?
I hate myself!
I'm worthless!
I'm the dirt of the earth!
I'm stepped on and rightfully too!
My blood spills over the virgin earth
To appease the hatred
To appease the thirst for blood
To appease those around me who hate me so much
All I see is my blood
All i see is how worthless I am
How unworhty of the breath of life I am
I've been kicked
I've been cut
I've been pushed
And I'm finally over the edge.
I hate myself
I hate my life
You hate me
And it brings me pain
You bring me pain
I suffer
I suffer in Silence
No one notices how far they've driven me
But nothing they do or say can change the damage
Pink ribbon scars all over my body
Stick out and never heal
So I can't forget
So My hatred for myself only rises
So memories of falling to the ground
With blood flowing from me
Play over and over again in my head
My wings,
Are a history
You cut them off and ripped them
You stabbed me with their bones
I hate myself
I hate it!
The Pain
The Suffering
The Silence
The Sorrow
The Misery
The Tears
The Blood
The Breaks
The Cuts
The Bruises
The Knife
The Razor
The Rips
Are all because of you
Are all because of the Hate!
Because of the suffering
I cut
I hit
I rip
I bleed
I hate
I sufficate!
No more
It must all end
The Pain must end
The Misery must end
I must end!
End it all!
End the pain!
End the bloodshed!
I know I've been talking a lot through this journal, but what else am I supposed to do? I have too much pain welling up inside me at this moment to where I can hardly breathe. All I know is that I'm suffering, and I'm through with it all. I want to end the suffering, the pain, and the sorrow, and there's no other way to do it then what I've been thinking of lately. I'm just so tired, and I want to go to sleep. Maybe I'll see you guys again, who knows. Bye people, and thank you to those, such as Iron, Penguin, Screamz, and others who have made my time on here awesome, but I'm through for now so yeah, I'm gone.
That's it, fuck it all. Tonight is the night. My Angel wings will finally be set free and I'll be able to see the light.
Maybe I can be with my mother again. How good it would be to feel her touch again, to hear her voice singing those olf lolabys to me when tears rolled down my cheeks.
It's something to look forward to, something to invision for the last time. I've missed her so much, and when she was ripped away from me, so was my entire world. It colapsed underneath of my feet and my entire vision changed. It was a new scenery, and a new soul looking through new eyes. My innocence was destroyed and so was the child I had been.
Enough is enough, tonight I'm going to regain all I have lost, tonight, I'm telling the world to kiss my ass.
Ok, ok,
So things have quietted down and I've been working with my sketchbook to keep myself from cutting. My music helps oo, but my damn earphones had to go and die on me v.v
I've drawn a lot of interesting things that I've never seen before from myself, so who knows, maybe this was a good thing.
That's it! This was the final straw! I've had enough of this shit!
I'm sick and tired of life! I'm sick and tired of being hurt by the people I love, or hurting them because I'm a fucking screw up!
I'm through! I'm staying away from everyone and I'm probably never coming back on here............... for reasons....
Goodbye for a very fucking long time. I'm through with this shit, I'm through with life! Fuck this!
Fucking A, I went and broke my nose during P.E..... Fucking Garett, the son of a bich rammed his stupid shoulder into my face while we were playing ultimate frisbee. The asshole, now I have a headache, trouble breathing, and I have to watch how I mive my upper lip otherwise I'm in a world of hurt. I'm going to kill the little fucker tomorrow v.v
There's just to much pain in this world, I'm holding on so tightly know, why couldn't it all just end in my last fetal attempt?
No matter how much blood I spill, I can never get my fill. These thoughts swarm in my head, as I lie dieing in my bed. Filled with pain, to hurt to move, can't get up, can't stop this groove. I might as well be a black dot, as I lie, dieing in this spot.
Who are these faces surrounding me? I can't even remember why I plead. Too much sorrow, too much pain, too much suffering, and too much flame. Voices crying out in mockery, spirits fighting inside of me
No matter how much blood I spill, I can never get my fill. These thoughts swarm in my head, as I lie dieing in my bed. Filled with pain, to hurt to move, can't get up, can't stop this groove. I might as well be a black dot, as I lie, dieing in this spot.
Why can't it just all end? Why do I have to spend, my last minutes surrounded by this pain. My soul's being surrounded by these flames. Heart ripped out into pieces, I lie down ready to die, ready for my soul to fly high in the sky.
No matter how much blood I spill, I can never get my fill. These thoughts swarm in my head, as I lie dieing in my bed. Filled with pain, to hurt to move, can't get up, can't stop this groove. I might as well be a black dot, as I lie, dieing in this spot.
Make it end. Make it end. Make this suffering..... END!
This is bullshit. Nothing but pain in everything I do! I can't live like this anymore, it seems like a screw everythign up no matter what. I..... I just need to go away forever v.v
I've had it with just about everyone! I have people trying to walk back into my life, people who I thought were friends turned out to be backstabbing me and waiting for the perfect moment to hit me, and now it seems like I'm broken in several ways.
I can't take this much longer v.v I'm just about through. One more person and I'm out of the social life all together. I'm so close to the edge and it seems like everyone is rushing to push me off of it, I'm sick and tired of it!
I've got my ex tyring to get me back and he's acting just like he was when we were dating and everytime I tell him goodbye, he wont let me leave! It's pissing me off, specially since he's the one who broke up with me and made sure I didn't have a heart left. Turns out though I still love him though. How do I know? Simple, I shut myself down after he ripped me apart and I've been that way for months, and now that I'm talking to him again, I seem to have automatically switched back on. I can feel again and it hurts more then anything in the world. I'm so vunorable right now that anyone could pull the right triger. I'm going to go cry my heart out right now, I hope none of you ever go through the same shit or have to deal with similar bitches that I do at the moment. All of you are wonderful people and deserve a great life, a life that is far better then mine......