Stephen Parker
31 / Male / Victoria, Australia
Bisexual / Single
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May 29, 2014
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About Me
What can I say about me?
im 21
im not sure I'd really call myself emo, but emo is what I get called.
I also get called goth, scenekid, and metalhead but I'll let you figure out what you want to call me for yourself. ^_^
im a university student in Melbourne, Australia, studying filmmaking
I will be moving to England once I get my degree (at the time of writing this, im actually in England. I love this place).
I make a lot of dark jokes
-generally people dont get them
--nor do they get me really
---but thats what happens when you spend nearly all of your timeday dreaming, or listening to music.
im a loyal friend
I like to make sure my friends are happy, and I dont care what it takes to do so.
im a bit of a nerd too.
I play a lot of video games
-WoW
--SCII
---BFMEII
----Assassins Creed (3 was baaaaddd)
>(well, it wasn't that bad)
>>(It was, but it wasn't horrible)
>>>(I mean, it was pretty terrible. The main character was bad)
>>>>(Connor had the personality of a spoon full of a rice pudding)
Magic: The Gathering <3
^^^^I pour so much money into these things^^^^
I am constantly writing bits and pieces
-I hardly never finish the novels I start.
--The one im working on now though is coming along nicely.
Favourite Music
Metal (death metal, black metal, speed metal, thrash metal, symphonic metal, progressive metal); my favourite bands are In Flames, Dark Tranquillity, At The Gates, Carach Angren, Behemoth, Opeth, Leprous, Nightwish, and so many more. Ask me sometime.
Core (Metalcore, deathcore, hardcore); I love Motionless in White, Trivium, Carnifex, Caliban, Make Them Suffer.
Emo (screamo, hardcore, punk); bands like Billy Talent, Get Scared, Snow Whites Poison Bite, and a few others.
Rock; I love a lot of older rock, especially 70s-80s rock, like AC/DC, and KISS, and whatnot. Brings back good memories from my childhood.
I also like some seemingly randomly selected stuff, like Owl City, and Madina Lake, and Trespassers William which I recommend you checking out ;)
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Favourite TV show would have to be Game of Thrones at the moment. I also love Dexter, and old Supernatural (it got weird), and Smallville. The Simpsons and Futurama are old favourites from back in the day, and so many anime series. I love anime <3
My favourite movies are Detention, Julia X, Pulp Fiction, The Cabin in the Woods, The Loved Ones, Nosferatu, Sinister... oh there are so many. im a film student, what do you expect? ^_^
The Inheritance Cycle (Eragon, Eldest, Brisingr, and Inheritance)
Game of Thrones (of course).
I enjoyed The Book of Lies, and Power of Three... basically anything fantasy.
Education / Occupation
I go to Deakin University in Melbourne, studying filmmaking. im in my fourth year of it. I also work in a pub, in a gaming room as a gaming attendant (a fancy name for a barman that also helps people gamble). I've been doing that for 2 years now. It pays nicely, even if its morally ambiguous.
So, I was meant to have a friend come over tonight. This friend has always been fairly close, but difficult to get into contact with, and spent the last 6-8 weeks in Bali. We spoke a lot while he was there about when he got back to Australia, and talking about him and I hanging out, and spending the night and day after watching Scrubs. It was all such a good plan. I woke up this morning to a text message asking me for my address, which I gave him. His response was that he would call me soon. He never did. It's now 11:48pm, he's still not got back to me, and I'm sitting here with a different friend still waiting for him to get back to me.
I'm quite angry about this. I feel like I've been fucked around, and stood up. This is the sort of thing that happens to me often. It's almost as though people like to stand me up or something. Is it so hard to just tell me that you're not going to be there, or to charge your phone when it dies so as to tell me what's going on? I mean, FUCK!
Maybe it's just because it's nearly 3am here, but I'm rather tired, and therefore felt like this journal was necessary.
A bit of info on me never hurt:
I have a weird sense of humour, and say some things that will make you think "what the fuck? Is this guy a creep?" quite often. I will admit that I like to dance when there's no music, and I admit that my hair looks much better straightened, even though I barely have the time to do it. Hrm... I should post photos of me with my hair straightened. But I don't have a shirt on in those photos that I took recently. Ugh, decisions.
Help me out here guys!!
Two days ago I had to put my best friend of 8 years down. My beautiful dog, Tilly. When I found out, I flew into a rage of anger, and distress, and brought out the knives I hadn't brought out for so long. My arm currently has a few decent sized cuts on it, which makes me feel stupid enough, but the fact that my companion is gone, my one love that I had looked after since she was a baby... that just makes me feel so much worse. She's being cremated, and I'm getting her ashes.
I'll miss her forever, I really will, and since I got home a few hours ago to get ready for work, I could swear I've heard her cries for attention, and seen her face against my backyard windows. I feel haunted by the fact that I was the one to take her to the vet, and not realising what would be done, I didn't properly say goodbye. I'll never get that chance.
*sigh* It's probably not good to vent my depressive inner monologue here, but at the same time, I have nowhere else to put it except on Facebook, but I don't really want to be spreading it to them, and then have my phone bombarded by phone calls asking if I'm okay, nor do I want many of my friends to know I cut myself again. Ugh, I didn't even feel this shitty when my grandparents died. That must say quite a lot, considering how close I was to them both.
So, I haven't slept tonight. I finished watching the final season of Weeds instead. I have to say I was quite disappointed, but the last episode was amazing.
Why haven't I slept, you ask?
It's because my throat hurts. Every time I swallow, I feel intense pain at the moment. It only started not long ago. I dislike it.
This is why sleeping would be amazing. Hopefully I can sleep within the next 25 minutes... at 8:30am
Hrm... a Journal eh?
*pokes you* Why you readin' mah journal entries for!?
Hehehe, I love this website. I don't even know why.
The people seem interesting though. Maybe I can make some friends?
Save me a little from monotony?
I leave England tomorrow. I don't want to go. I like it here too much. I will sit in bed all day! I swear!
Malaysia will be too hot. :'(
Uggggghhhhhhhh
First world problems
On another note
Should I be putting my Facebook on here?
I don't think I should,
But it could be a good idea!
I think I might do it!
Maybe.
Sometime.
Soon.
Uhhh... '
WHY IS THERE NO COLOUR HERE! :'(
I will dance the dance of shame.
for the dance of shame, please see here
WHY IS THAT CALLED THE DANCE OF SHAME WHEN IT'S JUST NOT SHAMEFUL!?
Shaaaammmmeeeee.... shame is a funny word when you keep saying shame. Shaaaammmmeeee. SHAM-WOW!
Uhh.. I think I've spilled enough of my crazy for one bed session. I don't wanna get up though.
I looked up "Lazy Dance" on YouTube.
I was disappointed.
