Jun 23 2013, 03:03 AM

Well, I'd like to tell you a little bit about myself. Since I didn't properly do so in my 'About Me'. So here we go, When I was little, I had a bad history. I can't tell you everything, but I'll give you some little somethings. My mom was still in high school when she got pregnant with me. Her 'boyfriend' didn't take likely to the situation. So he left. A while after I was born, my mom found a new boyfriend, one she thought was amazing. Little did she know, she was about to commit into an abusive relationship. It's a little vivid, but I remember some things that he did to me. The first memory that I can think of is when he was 'teaching' me how to ride a bike. Didn't really go so well. Every time I fell off he screamed in my face to do it again. I had no protection on, which resulted in one of the many scars I have today. I remember falling off over and over again. Every time, worsening my wounds. Blood was dripping heavily from my elbows, hands, and knees. So I recall, there may have been more. And I had no helmet either, I don't even want to think of what could of happened to my brain. Well, I already know, but still. As that memory fades, another one enters. It's of me playing an educational game on the computer, and him babysitting me while my mom was out somewhere. Maybe work or something... He comes out of the hallway passing me up, then notices what I'm doing. Every single time I got a question wrong he would call me a pathetic, stupid, little girl. I don't remember if those are his exact words, but that's all I can think of. That even soon leads into another, and I think it's the same day...? Anyway, I don't know what happened, but I remember being beaten with a studded belt and me being naked. I don't know if I was crying or not, but I was 4 or 5 so I must have been. My mom walked in and saw what was happening. That's all I remember. The scene changes and I'm at my Nana's house being investigated by 2 cops, and they are looking at my bruises in the bathroom. That's all I remember of that day. But what I'm going to tall you next, is one scene that I will always remember. My mom is crouching down in front of me with teary eyes telling me it's all going to be okay, and to not worry. Veronica (I think that's the name) will take care of you. I'm totally oblivious to the situation and I'm confused of why she's doing this. She hugs me, gives me a kiss, and walks away. I look behind me and Veronica takes my hand and takes me away. That's when my mom sent me to CPS, and she regrets it. My first family that I'm sent to is an old lady's house, somewhere in a neighborhood very similar to my Nana's neighborhood. I remember one night, the old lady asked if I was sleeping and I said yes. I was so dumb back then.. One time she was in the kitchen and she actually made me some play dough! It was so cool, she was so nice. But eventually I had to be taken away from her because I got fleas. She had LOTS of cats there with her. They sent me to a second family that I don't remember at all, but I know there was a third because I was told so. The most remember-able was the last family. The 3rd one I think... There was a mom and a dad, 2 or 1 brothers, and 1 sister. Strangely, I don't remember a mom being there, I don't remember a second brother, but I remember the rest. The sister was the oldest, she was the one who took care of me the most. She bathed me (I was 4 and a half), played with me along with the brother, and even gave me this diary that I don't know what happened to it... We used to write all sorts of things in it, well I used to draw and she would teach me to write. It was fun. At night, all the siblings would go outside and ride bikes all around the street. Every time I got in trouble though, I had to put phone books above my head and stand in a corner for 3 minutes. I remember one time I had to do it, I started crying and the dad asked me why and I just kept crying. Then he realized my situation and let me put it away. Long time after, It was almost time to start school and CPS took me back. I didn't know why, but it was heart breaking. I had been with them for a year and I was attached. (Yet I can't remember any of them now). I was in the car and I heard the dad yell from the porch, But school starts soon! That's all I remember about them. Sooner or later, my Nana and Papa got me back and that's where I currently live now. Fun little life I had, didn't I? Yeah, I had a bad start, but I turned out fine. Actually, before that experience, I was a loud, obnoxious, little brat. Now I'm calm, shy, and hardly makes a sound unless I'm with my friends. And I'm telling you all of this, because not just so I can get attention, but because I consider all of you as friends. I may not know you, I may not even know what you look like! But, everyone is my friend until they can prove to me they're not worthy to be. Which happens alot now a days, since all of these people getting into the wrong things... Acting like they're all cool and such, when in reality, they're just annoying and everyone is afraid to tell them. I'm one of those people, I'm not gonna lie. I've lied enough throughout my years. I'm afraid to tell the truth, that's why doing this was so hard. Especially being new here... But none of you know me in real life, so I though, why not? It's better to tell your problems to a complete stranger than to people you know. So, that's my story... Not my life though, I'll tell you that some other time. It took me almost an hour to do this... Well, that's it! Thanks for reading! And if anyone has a similar back story, could you leave a comment? (Or however way this thing works). It'd be fun to talk to someone who knows what I've been through. And I KNOW it's not allot. People have been through way worse. And for those people, I'd like to say, God bless your heart. Or if you don't believe in god like I sorta do, don't keep yourself in the past. If you think about it too much, you may accidentally relive it. And I know you wouldn't want that. Okay, this is already beginning to fell way too long, BYE! Love you guys! Not in the gay way though! Or in the gay way... O_O Just kidding, BYE!