Dec 28 2024, 06:24 AM

I am learning how to play the black parade on my keyboard rn

Dec 24 2024, 04:27 AM

Just wanna wish you all a good Christmas and a happy new year

Dec 20 2024, 04:38 AM

idk why I feel this way but I have been in a more positive mindset lately and there's this nagging feeling of missing the peaceful calm of being depressed.I want to change and make my life better but its hard when you have mixed feelings and also hard when you have a history of being left behind and forgotten.I also feel like the music I listen too would maybe help me fight this want to be depressed again but I love my music I listen too.I also found out that with me being ADHD my body processes a lot of things differently,for example most people have their heart pumping pretty good after a energy drink or 2 or 3 but my heart rate doesn't change one bit.

Dec 17 2024, 04:59 AM

I was in my class after getting everything done and had enough time to just sit with my thoughts and I ended up typing this

"How do you start new with people you wish you never hurt.Why did you stand there and stare letting everyone else help her after she fainted.Why couldn't you break your own dang wall to help another who needs it.

My heart hangs heavy with too many questions like why I didn’t help scarlet,why and how i hurt her in our relationship,why can’t i think clearly in those situations,why did I hold myself back thinking she wouldn’t want my help because of our past

I sit here contemplating these things and I just don’t know the answers

Dec 06 2024, 05:58 PM

I am going to make a monster can mask soon and when I do I'll take a pick and post it here

Dec 05 2024, 03:56 AM

my grandma got mad at me yesterday about the music I listen to and how she doesn't like curse words and that it all just feeds my depression and that God doesn't want us to be depressed and I'm sure you can guess what else was said

I just want her to understand that the music I listen to is kind of like a vent and if I were to shut that off I'd bottle it all inside again then the depression would get worse and I'd cut again and she just doesn't get that I need music that I can relate to and use it to get the emotion out and not hold it inside.

tbh my family has crammed Christianity down my throat ever since I was adopted at age 4 and the fact of the matter is if God was real and wanted to help me then he would have done something when I cried myself to sleep night after night asking him for help and a sign. so my family can take their stupid religion and shove it up their A hole and quit getting in my way. I mean are they trying to get me to run away again because they just want to change who I am and not accept who I am.

Dec 03 2024, 04:29 AM

I have decided I am fully serious about getting snake bite piercings and a septum and I'm gonna gauge it but not too big lol.I also want a hoop through the left side of my nose.

I am also getting the Tragus piercing on my right ear and two helix piercings on my left ear as well as the traditional earlobe piercings for both ears

only thing is I have to wait till I move out to have any of that since my family is strict and the same rule applies for all the tattoos I want but I won't have to wait longer than a year or two for that to happen so I am excited 🖤❤🖤🔥

Nov 26 2024, 05:00 AM

I finally got the fry scream down lol