Mar 28 2015, 09:53 PM

I AM numb, dead on the inside, soulless My mother would describe me as cruel My friends call me secretive, silent, short I keep the few things important to me close to my heart I remember only the feeling of emptiness, the feeling of being a failure I've learned to keep my mouth shclosed and my opinions to myself I hide what little emotions I have left I read happy stories wishing I could be happy I shout "I'm okay, I'm fine!" even though I'm not I AM numb, dead on the inside, soulless I see dark, grey clouds foretelling a storm to come I hear my mind whisper: you're just a useless failure I taste the bitter, sour taste of being a failure I feel nothing, just a void growing larger inside I think: Why bother? I'll never be good enough for anything I whisper I'm trying to stay strong but I'm broken I AM numb, dead on the inside, soulless I want nothing but to feel at peace I will always be just slightly broken I won't ever be completely okay....just eh... I can masquerade my facade, my perfect charade I pretend nothing's wrong even though I'm crumbling I sing praise to all who deserve such I AM numb, dead on the inside, soulless I dream of feeling eternal peace, a pleasant feeling I'm afraid my demons will soon devour me I reach fr my fleeing happiness but it always escapes I'm soay I'm sorry when I'm depressed I love none, no one for who can love something like me? I declare for the world to hear: "I will prevail" even though I doubt it

Mar 25 2015, 04:34 PM

The warmth you feel is rare It only occurs with blood Which seeps down skin bare Sometimes it occurs in a tiny stream, others in a flood It is sweet release From the prison known as your flesh You wish you will cease Existing, it is not fresh Life is a bore You wish you were dead Sadly, it is not about gore From this life you fled Anxious flesh, pulsing veins, Death calls your name You answer with no shame

Mar 25 2015, 04:29 PM

At first Cat helped, whispering sweet nothings in your ears But she can only temporarily take away the pains So you have to do it more or you may find truth to your fears Your will, it drains Soon, you take more desperate measures It is the only way you have a reprieve Your pain, their pleasures Your soul, they deprive Agony so true Desperation so prominent Blood, a release so pure Fear so dominant The human flesh is often to hard to live in Which is why many tear apart our own skin

Mar 25 2015, 04:25 PM

Deb rarely ever comes alone She brings all her friends They bare you to the very bone Makes you wish it ends You they haunt You can't kill your demons, they come back with a vengeance You they taunt You lose your stance They are relentless Their persistence does not surprise, they always get what they desire They are twisted and soulless You will go down in fire Sue whispers: I can end it, never again will you feel this Hell You whimper, you take her offer and darkness befell

Mar 25 2015, 04:20 PM

The emotions you feel The voices in your mind that scream You are fairly certain you will never heal Your demise is what they scheme Slowly, you become numb as your emotions fade No one seems to notice or care You scream for aid They do not care about how you fare You soon realize no one cares for you Soon you will think thoughts of harm Even though, your pain they knew No one sees your alarm The demons in your head are known as depression They leave quite the desolate impression

Mar 20 2015, 06:17 PM

Music is said to soothe the soul I have many idols, all in a band Its meaningful lyrics fill, in my life, a hole All music I listen to is grand You say it is demonic Band members who scream til their throats bleed and voices are hoarse I say it is symbolic Language often crude and coarse Luminous, colorful hair Tattoos and piercings galore Hate towards my genre of music is unfair Trust me, its not all about gore You hear the screaming I hear the meaning

Mar 20 2015, 06:13 PM

While I may have had a horrible past Don't feel sorry for me It has strengthened me so that I might last I may still be shackled to my past; it's okay that I'm not free I am not living I have long since lost the ability to feel Merely surviving Your happiness, I will not steal Few things bring me true joy I have anxiety and panic attacks and am shy At times, I am coy At times, I feel as though you will lie We can never be for you are unbroken Whereas I am broken

Mar 15 2015, 06:52 PM

Have you ever had someone reach into your chest and give your heart a squeeze? And it hurt so bad you couldn’t hardly breathe? And when you begged them to stop, they laughed in your face. Calling you a disgrace. Finding amusement in your agony and desolation. Deriving pleasure and enjoyment in your heart’s violation. To them, you’re just a pawn. To use, manipulate, abuse, and beat upon. You never could leave me be! Why can’t you set me free? Life is cruel and to them, love is just a sick sadistic game. Upon me, you placed the blame. I was just a means to an end, tossed away when there was nothing left to gain Welcome to my world of never ending pain…..