Chewie Dewie
28 / Female / Wonderland, United States
Pansexual / Single
Member since:
Oct 13, 2009
Last online:
Sep 15, 2015
Current rating: 10.0/10 (1 votes cast)
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About Me
Nickname(s): JayJay. Jay Shortie.
Birthday: June 12
Birthplace: Los Angeles, CA Current Location: Los Angeles, California
Eye Color: Pitch Black/ Dark Brown/ Light brown/ Coffee ( changes on mood)
Hair Color: Jet Black
Height: 5'2" Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: Chinese Cmabodian The Shoes You Wore Today: Converse (black w/ dark red)
Your Weakness: BVB
Your Fears: My Parents Your Perfect Pizza: Mixed Toppings x]
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Be a better person and try to be more social
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Lmeao
Thoughts First Waking Up: Try to get through today it might not be good, but tomorrow might be your day. Your Best Physical Feature: My eyes and hair
Your Bedtime: Whenevers
Your Most Missed Memory: the last hours I spent with my best guy friend, Jake Spar hope he's safe and well.
Group Dates: o.o whats that?
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Both XD
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Do you Smoke: never
Do you Swear: yes, alot Do you Sing: yes
Do you Shower Daily: noo I shower ever 100 years -.-
Have you Been in Love: yes but that didnt go too well
Do you want to go to College: maybe
Do you want to get Married: of course Do you belive in yourself: no. I believe in the fuckin lies everybody tells me about myself. Do you get Motion Sickness: Yes I do... Everytime time I walk somewhere I thrown up..... Of Course I dont have Motion Sickness.
Do you think you are Attractive: no Are you a Health Freak: hell no
Do you get along with your Parents: no they prefer to murder me rather than raise me
Do you play an Instrument: guitar, violin
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes I have
In the past month have you Smoked: hell no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: not that I remember In the past month have you gone on a Date: nope
In the past month have you gone to the mall: no shit
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: So wish I did In the past month have you eaten Sushi: I wish I did In the past month have you been on Stage: yes
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nope..... never found the time to do it In the past month have you Stolen Anything: my cousin's wallet Ever been Drunk: yes Ever been called a Tease: no I've been called a doll...... of course people call me a tease
Ever been Beaten up: yes...... surprisingly by a guy
Ever Shoplifted: yes
How do you want to Die: in love
What do want to be when you Grow Up: I want to be someone and I want to be happy for change What country would you most like to Visit: Any and Every
In a Boy/Girl: Personalitly
Favorite Eye Color: Blue/Green/Brown Favorite Hair Color: Dont see how that matters
Short or Long Hair: Dont see how that matters as well
Height: Taller than me Weight: average or thinner
Style: myself
Number of Drugs I have taken: Four Number of CDs I own: I can always have more, you can never have too many
Number of Piercings: two
Number of Tattoos: none
Favourite Music
Black Veil Brides
Bullet For My Valentine
Children Of Bodom
Aveneged Sevenfold
Red JumpSuit Apparatus
RED
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Led Zepplin
Papa Roach
Linkin Park
Aiden
Alesana
Saosin
Jefferee Star
Tokio Hotel
My Chemical Romance
Marilyn Manson
Evanescence
The Offspring
Panic At The Disco
Blood On The Dance Floor
30H!3
Simple Plan
Guns N' Roses
Three Days Grace
Katy Perry
Ke$ha
Jon Bon Jovi
Adam Lambert
Slipknot
Slayer
KoRn
Green Day
Fall Out Boy
Hawthorne Heights
Escape The Fate
Auburn
Amber
Bring Me The Horizon
Never Shout Never
Disturbed
Eminem
Jason Mraz
Brokencyde
Good Charlotte
The Used
Funeral For A Friend
Breaking Benjamin
Muse
Cobra Starship
Jay Fluent
Joey Diamond
Unknown
Sick Puppies
Thats only to name a few. :D
Favourite Films / TV / Books
Edward Scissorhands.
Pirates Of The Caribbean. (The Curse Of The Black Pearl, Dead Man's Chest. At World's End. On Stranger Tides.)
If I do not wake in a few days, do not cry; Im not worth the tears.
If I do not hear from you; I now know I was right and truly wasnt worth it.
If you see cuts on my body; do not ask to remove them because each cut is a reason why I dont deserve to have you.
If you miss me; dont sadden because there is better coming to you.
If you love me; please stop before things go wrong.
If I die; know that I love you and I did try to be perfect. I stopped eating to become thinner and more attractive to your eyes, I stopped sleeping because I wasnt a dream come true, I cut because I know Im not good enough for you and I never will be, I cry because I know I'll reach your standards, I love you because you are all that Ive waited for. Im so sorry I have disappointed you.
Now that I am gone out of your life, I hope you do not cry anymore. I hope you do not hurt anymore. I hope you are happier without me and that you find someone worth your time and someone that can be there for you. I hope that you're happy and loved now. I hope you find that perfect person for you, because I cant be that person for my appearance, personality, anxieties, depression and my lack of ability to be there with you..
[b] Reasons for what Ive done and my behavior. Any questions just ask [/b]
Everything has completely gotten out of hand. Its so hard to keep up with everything that has been going on. Every day, forcing myself to get out of bed, looking in the mirror nearly breaking it every time I look at it. Got being able to find anything that suits my mood anymore, I feel like nothing looks nice on me anymore. Going to school seems like hours of driving instead of a few minutes. So much harder to be in school, biting back tears, forcing a good mood and smiles and laughs are getting harder. Keeping in touch and staying around friends are getting harder. Accepting hugs and fun conversations seem completely out of reach now. Even in practice, its difficult to get dressed and just to pull that one stroke seems like an accomplishment right then and there. Everything has gotten harder to do, everything has become foreign. Do I know why? Yes, I do, but a few reasons I wont post it on here. Haven't eaten anything in 5 days. Haven't slept in 4 nights. Feeling like I'm getting drained more and more everyday, soon I'll just be on my own, away from everyone. Like I used to.